Well, this is just base on my own opinion. I'm not trying to pick a fight to anyone and if ever you find this article of mine as a very offending one then.... What am I suppose to say? Huehue. Just kidding, but seriously this is just base on my own beliefs. I mean anyone is free to share their opinion so this is just about ME and my beliefs.
Alright, in my past relationship wether it's in personal or just relationship from a textmate or chat mate. If ever I discover that this boyfriend of mine was just even 2 year younger than me. I will feel disappointed about it and I feel like that the feelings I have for him changed. Yeah, I'm like that Age matters to me. But only if the guy is the one who's younger than me. But I don't have a problem if it's me who's younger than the guy. I actually prefer my man to be 3 to 7 years older than me.
I know age is not the bases here. But I really find it hmmm how will I put it into words. I feel like it's a sin, it's disgusting for me, sorry about that, if the guy is younger than me. Even if I like the guy, I will really force myself to end this feeling I have for him. I will never accept it as in. I know, I know that sometime those younger people is more mature to those much more older than them but, I just can't really accept it. This is just on me okay, it's purely my opinion and my choice. I feel like a cradle snatcher trying to be lovey dovey to my younger brother.
So, ending this ugly feelings is the best solution. I did that for many times while I'm in a relationship before, though it's not in person we're just in a relationship hmm, in text? Yeah, that's it - and doesn't to really told me his real age that's why I decided to end it with some of them because I feel disgusted with myself. I don't know what's wrong with my mindset but I really hate that. It happened during High School days. You know, Clan that time is what's "in" and that's where I meet most of them.
It's not about what those younger than us can do, it's about me - the problem is in me. I prefer a man than a boy and that will stay until the end of Penthouse Korean Drama Series, lol - just kidding. But seriously speaking, if I don't like it I will really stop this Feelings I have for that boy. Just like before, I meet someone here and become a little - just a little bit closer to him. I call him frenny by the way, and he's not here anymore coz he's prioritizing his studies. Yes, you heard - err read it right he's still a student, lol.
I know his age, but I still liked him. I Don't really know but I can easily feel something special to someone it's not just base on their looks but also base to the way he talk. I feel like he is too good in this field that I feel amazed to it. He's like a shining shimmering splendid - chorr I mean I just feel like I like him. It's so sudden that I let myself feel that great feelings. But in the end, I had to erase this as I hate it. I really feel like it's a taboo or incest to me. I didn't let my feelings grow, I stopped it and never told about my feelings for him to anyone, I just keep it to myself.
I mean, what is it to share? It's just a crush, I just become too fond of him and I think him as cool guy errr boy? My eyes is not choosy when it comes to crushes you know. It will twinkle twinkle once saw a cute guy or tall guy or sexy guy, slurp. And as I told you before I have a lot of crushes from here and there - as in 99+ 😎. It also bring great feelings to my heart and to my eyes but that's just it. If I want to shrug it off because I find out that he has a girlfriend then kaboom - sayonara irog and so what - I have lot of crushes it's not really a kawalan, tehee.
So back to this guy, lucky me coz he become so busy in his study so we didn't get the chance to communicate again. And that's where I gather my thought and tried my best to forget that sh!t feelings, I really hate it eww. And just the other day I messaged him in messenger and asked him if he has a plan to come back here but he's not sure yet as he is so busy in his study. He wants to focus more on it. But if he has time, sure he'll make a come back, that's what he said.
And you know while chatting him, I tried to asses myself if there's still excess feeling for him in my lungs and guess what my feelings for him was completely gone as in Zero, Nil, Nada, Oh My Goshhh!!! Aside from I'm good from pretending, I'm also good in washing away those feelings that I think is not right if I choose to work on it. I think aside from his intelligence, it's his height that caught my attention more. Bwahahaha, it's lame I know huehue. I saw a picture of him with his family and he's really tall, huehue - me likey.
And this not the first that it happened to me in this platform. I have the other one too, but I already moved on so let's not talk about it. I hate myself for liking those younger than me. Nahihilig ako sa bata, tengene.
To most, for sure age doesn't matter to them. I understand it off course, I mean you can't really measure love in age. Anyone is free to love no matter how big their age gap is. Maybe it's their destiny to love the older or it could be younger partner than them. Coz if Mr. Cupid work on this and throw the arrow at your heart together with this guy or girl that didn't met your high standard in choosing you'll love. You can't really fight it right? As long as you have the same feelings for each other. You're meant to be and other's don't have any say about it.
So this is like my own opinion okay. We have our own beliefs and wants and opinions. And this is how I view them. So let's not fight and peace be with you muahugschupachupaaaa.
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August 30, 2021