I met this guy through forum who's a bit older than me. I am just a newbie that time and still have no idea about that site so i need someone who can answer for me about it. And good thing he's the one I met because aside from he sounds kind, I'm comfortable to talk to him because he seems like a good guy.
And he's ready to help those in need of information about this site. He's not selfish when it comes to information and that what i like about him. In times that i feel like an idiot because i can't get the information that he's explaining to me, he will just laugh at it at will just say that "it's okay I also experience that. It's okay you didn't understand it that fast and i can relate to it. This one is really hard to understand just like when i was just a newbie."
After that, we become a regular chat mate, I also have his number saved on my mobile phone so sometimes I use that to communicate with him if i have questions, we also do video chat. After a months of spending time in that site, i finally made a progress and i can finally relate to it when he talk about it. We become friends after that, not only we talk about other things but we also share some problems that we have. We become each others shock absorber if one had a problem. We become close friend.
And that's also the time my feeling for him developed. I become so fond at him, I get used to the time that we are spending with each other that I fall for him. I'm too shy to admit it but, heart can't really stopped from beating so fast for someone right? I don't know, it just happened that I grew some feelings for him. I feel like he also like me base on his act, he's very attentive to me when I asked him about something and she so willing to teach me, he's only like that to me.
My feelings for him grew bigger as in I can't contain it anymore. That's why I decided to confess. My plan is to confess to him via chat. I type and send it while he's still offline. After an hour he's not online, I become a scaredy cat that I deleted my long and chat with him. It is very long that because I say everything that I felt felt for him from the start. It is actually overwhelming for me that I feel like my heart is going to burst. And yeah, I delete that long message. I decided that I will do it in personal, as in face to face. I will tell him my feelings. I know I'm being assuming here but it's better to try it right? I will try my luck.
I texted him saying if I can invite him to a dinner. I also said thay I will just say my thanks to him and it's a treat because of his kindness. And with my determination, I go to the place where I invited him.
I saw him, he is busy looking at the menu on our table. I am so happy because I can finally confess to him. He looks happy and he was all smile. I slowly walk into our table but suddenly, a woman pass at me and she's heading into our table. The woman looks like she just came out on the comfort room. And hes is heading at him, they are looking at each others with a smile on their faces. I thought the wound I get when I accidentally cut my hand is the most painful experience for me. I didn't imagine that this will be the most painful.
Why I never notice it? Why I didn't know it? Why? I thought he also has feeling for me but I just assume. I couldn't take what I saw that time that's why I run outside. I cried so hard that I feel like I will loss my consciousness that time. I like him seriously. I thought he also like me. I am so ready to confess to him but. 😒
I feel like this story is lack of something. What do you think? Is this even a story 😭.
June 13, 2021