I am Not Taking that Path, The Path to Marriage
If you're happy and you know it clap your hands. CLAP CLAP! If you're happy and you know it raise your teeth. Raise raise?? I mean WUT? LOL.
So what's up guysuu? How's your life so far? Are you happy? Are you okay? Are you happy and okay with the life that you have right now? Do you feel fulfilled? Like you already get whatever you want in your life, your goals, dreams, the man of your dreams, you dream house and even your dream savings account with 9 digits number on it?
Are you contented right now as in as of this moment? Do you think there's still a space for a new dreams for you to achieve and so on? But the main question here is, are you really happy? Then what makes you smile today if yes? Can you share a little happiness to those people who's having a hard time right now? You know maybe just a simple hug or asking them if they are okay or what.
If only I can and if I am not this shy, I will really use my voice to ask them and then share some of Good Vibes for them to you know. Maybe, just maybe, some of their baggages in their shoulder that they are carrying right now will be a little lighter now. The heaviness that they have to carry all the way from san francisco, just maybe it can be lifted a little lighter.
And to those fighter out there, thank you for hanging in there and for not giving up just keep on fighting!
End of Discussion.
Charizzzzzzz....
Alright let me tell you what I really want to share here. I actually just want to share the love of my life that I don't have. Ohhh yah, I have nothing like that gomen.
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Seriously speaking, this one happened the other day. Lunch time, I was waiting for my Friends Mom that sells a lot of cooked viand like Shanghai, Lumpiang Veggies and different kind of Veggies too. Cooked by her Motherdears. I am waitinf patiently even though the dragons inside my belly if having a tantrums na because of hunger. I waited until 12:30PM but she didn't really came. So I just decided to message this friend on messenger to asked her and just to make sure. Para naman di ako parang tengeng nag iintay sa pagdating nya, chorrrr.
And I just learned that her Mom didn't really cooked anything because they go to the beach and I was like (sene ell). And then I wondered why she's not with them stupid me, it's weekdays so she had work in our municipal hall. And then we just talk about random things after that one chat. I even asked her if how much is the salary in our Municipal and she said 320 php and they will deduct some amount pa daw. Maybe for the benefits or whatever. That 320 php is $6.11 per day like wtf right? She's on the planning department according to her.
And the work days is only 4 days, por vida santisima, marimar! Well, I don't really know if it's already enough but what do you think? Is it really enough naba for you? That amount I mean? But she also said she's just until June 5 lang daw dun. She plan to go back to Laguna and work there. I asked how much per day and she said 650 with OT na daw yon. Imagine the difference naman ano. Aigooo. That's about $12.40, a huge amount already. If I will compare the amount that I can get if ever I decided to to work here in Bansud and the amount that I am getting here in read.cash - it still has a big difference.
Anyways, while talking about that she also said about living in Laguna with her boyfriend and I was like oh, as in living in together. Oh okay. I asked her if it's okay to her Mom and Pops and she said okay naman daw. Her bf actually visit her already here in Mindoro. They had a meet and greet na. So I think it's okay na on both sides. She said also that, we're not getting any younger anymore. So she's planning to build her own family na with her boyfriend. She also asked me if how about me? "How's about you? Wht's new and do you have plan to settle down?" She asked me those questions.
I told her, I don't even have a boyfriend that I can settle with and no I don't have a plan to get married or have a child as I think, I am really not capable to be a wife and to be a mother. I just notice that shes panicking. Well, there's really nothing wrong with that. And tbh, we are on the marrying age naman na talaga but sadly, I don't even think of that. And to tell you the truth having a one big family never really occur even in my daydreaming. Like some will think about their future with a man and a child but me on the other hand is thinking about winning on a lottery or working on the City with a high paying job or meeting my crushes.
I don't know why I only thought of that. It just really show how unbothered I am about those things. I mean, i should be like her right? Who's thinking now about future, settling down and having a baby but why, why am I like this? Lol. Am I really that easy go lucky who doesn't like responsibility? Wait, I just answered my own question, lol. Seriously speaking, I am really enjoying myself as a jobless unbothered woman who have a lot of crushes, lol. But we can't really tell, maybe I'm just like this now. Maybe the time will also come that I will give a fvck about this, lol.
May 28, 2022
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Alam mo Ruffa ito yung sinasabi na "do not follow the flow" "We all have different ways on how to live our lives."
Just like me, yung mga pinsan ko halos lahat na may jowa at parang ako nalang yung di natitibag. I know in my age na dito magsisimula yung jowa jowa relationship pero alam mo ano pinili ko? Pinili kong manood ng cartoons at maglaro ng Barbie. Pake nila kung isip bata ako hehez 🤣🤣