September 8, 2021
My brain is getting foggy again and can't process the thoughts well to form a better article. Then I remember MJ's article about random questions from a certain site which is good to try when you can't think of anything to write about.
If you are my follower, you probably know my life story since I have shared different stories from childhood memories, spilling the beans, how I overcome challenges that life throws at me, why I am single, the insanity of bringing home the bacon, how I manage my full-time job and blogging, crypto journey, and more. Because we have a lot of stories to share and we are free to do it here.
But since I can't think of anything to write, I opened this site https://www.teenvogue.com/story/21-questions-game and I picked random questions to answer that are more sensible for me, I guess, lol. This is just for fun though, I'm not even sure if this is fun.
What's the weirdest dream you've ever had?
I had so many weirdest dreams that are still vividly clear in my mind up to this date and I even dreamed disgusting ones like dreaming about poop and other silly stuff, lol. But recently, I dreamed about something so weird to me, and it happened thrice not just once. People from the past whom I have forgotten appeared in my dreams. And I didn't even think about them before those dreams happened.
Those people were my first two exes - the first puppy love, and the first true love. In my dream, I was in a relationship with my first love, but in my mind I know we have broken up many years ago, and it's the first weird thing there. We were heading somewhere and we hopped into a vehicle, I guess that was a jeepney. But inside the jeepney was my first puppy love. And I felt worried seeing him inside the vehicle because my first love might learn about our past. I felt like I was in a secret relationship with my first puppy love while having a relationship with my first love. Weird right?
I don't even care about these two exes anymore. But they just suddenly appeared in my dream in the weirdest situation.
Another weird dream and my first puppy love were there again. My mother and I went to a fiesta in his hometown. But I swear it wasn't his hometown because I've been to his place several times. In my dream, I felt like I'll be seeing my ex and I was right. We even went to his house, I was like, WTH! for so many houses, why his? But I hid when I saw him coming. I hid on the sofa and covered my body with a blanket, lol. I know he saw me but pretended that he didn't and no words have been uttered.
This dream happened twice. The same thing about attending a fiesta in his place. And I kept hiding from him but in different ways. This made me think, did I really get over him? I am certain I did!
Other weirdest dreams include: falling teeth, falling from flying, and the death of my relative.
If you could change one thing about yourself, what would it be?
When I was younger, I had so many things that I wanted to change in myself, my physical looks, my self-esteem, my IQ, lol. Well, I can't call myself too dumb, I even have medals at home. I was just envious of those who can easily solve complex math problems and questions way back when I was in elementary, and I wished to be like them too, haha.
But if there is one thing that I could change, I guess that's my low self-esteem. If I only had healthy self-esteem when I was young, I should not have missed too many opportunities. Every time there's an opportunity knocking on my door, I always doubt myself and my abilities and there are always what-ifs. "What if I can't make it?" "What if I'm not good enough?" "What if I fail?"
And regrets always come later. My biggest regret I guess is when I missed the opportunity to work in Europe. There was a seminar/interview conducted here in Hong Kong for OFW who wants to live/work in Europe but I hesitated to attend because I doubted myself and thought that I might not be able to pass the interview. But after the event, I have asked other Filipinos and I got envious of those who were chosen. If I only try, I might be one of those OFW since I have all the qualifications and requirements and what I only need was to give my best shot in the interview.
And that's one of the reasons why I want to change my self-esteem. I want to have self-confidence in anything I'll do and a positive mindset that I could pass all the challenges that will come my way.
Who in your family are you closest to?
I'm close to my mother and sisters. But the closest one is my brat younger sister Lovely. Yeah she's a brat but I am more comfortable with her and we are like Tom and Jerry at home 🤣. I like to scold her and correct her mistakes, but she'll get mad at me and sometimes we bully each other, lol. That becomes our kind of bonding, haha.
If we were in the middle of a zombie apocalypse, who are three people you'd want on your team?
I actually like this one. Some of my dreams were about zombies and in my dreams, I was fighting like those in action movies. And if I were in the middle of a zombie apocalypse, I would choose these people to be on my team.
First is my father. He's a former soldier and well skilled in battles already. He even taught me how to shoot a gun when I was a kid and he's good at it. He's also smart and can not be easily fooled (doesn't even want to lose any argument at home, lol). So I need his skills in my team.
Next is @PVMihalache. I saw his photo in our TG group holding a rifle, and I guess he's good at shooting too. He's also smart and I guess he can think of many strategies to win a battle.
The last one is @Hanzell. She's a Chemist and a smart lad. I need her knowledge to create an antidote and she might be able to create a weapon for the zombies too 😁.
What's your biggest fear when it comes to relationships?
The same with others, my greatest fear is the thought of being betrayed by my partner. It happened to me already and I don't want to experience that painful feeling again. Because I know that every unfixed betrayal issue is followed by a hurtful breakup. Not all can withstand this challenge in a relationship and lucky those who remained strong despite the betrayals and other circumstances. Some can able to fix it, but I am not good at it. Once he cheated, it will tarnish my trust in him. And I couldn't trust him farther than I could throw him.
The reason why I'm still single until now 🤣.
How do you get over a breakup?
After my very first and last painful breakup, I met my real friends. It was like a blessing in disguise. And because of them, I was able to mend my broken heart. They helped me get over it by bringing me to places where we could enjoy and forget the sadness. It took long before I completely removed the pain in my heart, but through that painful breakup, I learned how to love myself again and prioritized what truly matters to me.
If you are curious about it, you can check this article Hello Love, Goodbye, Thanks For Cheating
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And thanks for reading this nonsense article 😅.
If I we're to change one thing about myself, that would be to have a photographic memory haha same tayo sa part na sana magkaroon tayo ng mataas na IQ kagaya nila Isaac Newton at Albert Einstein isang titig lng sa mga math problems alam na agad yung answers hahaha. This is interesting po galing!🥰