Sometimes being too playful has an ending, we will always have our turning point where in we can say “serves me right, this is my karma” but at least the karma leads me to the right direction in life.
If you haven't followed the story here's the first five chapter;
I Dated A Boring Guy: The Only Exception
He Is Slowly Breaking My Walls
Finally, I've Seen The Ghost 👻 and He Is... 😱
After I dump Kent, I got so much hate from other people. They gossip me a lot that I was a two timer, that I am a slut. Kent even spread that he got me even if he didn't. He sent some of his squad to harass me, sending degrading message.
Kent true colors have shown and it was awful. He cannot accept defeat that I didn't chose him despite that he did his best. I have a classmates that happens to be Kent neighbor, and she told me “You know what you are lucky, it's the first time Kent bring a woman into their house” maybe Kent is serious with me but I don't love him so I cannot chose him.
A girl even texted me back then,
“Hey! This is Amara Kent fiance, how do you feel having relationship with a taken man already? You're a slut and you don't deserve to be respected!” like wtf! We hang out all along with Kent I can have access to his mobile phone and ect, but I haven't heard he has fiance? Are they fooling me.
“Suck your Kent, I don't even know who that guy is! Respect? Well I don't need anyone's respect! I can live on my own without people's respect, I don't need to justify myself just so anyone will like and respect me! Have fun with your Kent. He is all yours!” I replied to the girl, after that the number didn't text me anymore.
The sad part of this is that, while I let go of Kent I lose my best friend as well. I never thought she can betray me and she's one of those people who spread rumors about me, she even spread that I undergo abortion.
I was hurt badly, I felt like my whole world is sinking. I love my best friend but she's gone 😭
I confess to Gab that I cheated on him
I was depress knowing that my best friend left me and betrayed me, she knows all along that I am into Gab but she wants her cousin for me. Sucks, blood is always thicker than water.
Gabriel noticed the changes of my attitude, I got paranoid and he can sense I am in trouble.
I am so paranoid that I got easily mad if he doesn't reply or call me immediately, you know I was eaten by the horror I created. I was scared he'll do the same what I did to him.
“Tell me honestly, did you do something that I don't know?” this was his questions before, when I am still around with Kent. I asked my bestie what should I do but her advice is not to tell Gab the truth, and I listen to her. I denied that I did cheat to him but Gab sense that I was lying but he played along.
Now that I was alone as my bestie left me too, I had the courage to tell Gab the truth.
“You know what you are really acting weird lately, if you keep acting like that. I don't have a choice but to leave you. You are getting toxic and you only wanted to be understood all the time without understanding me too, I am tired.” that's what Gab told me, and I cannot afford to lose him. No!
“No! You can't leave me, I chose you over him 😭💔💔” I said.
“What? You chose me over him? So it means there is third party?!” he asked.
“Yes, I cheated on you sorry 😭 but please I didn't like the guy in the beginning, he was just persistent and so annoying that made me say yes. You are the one I love 😭” I told him the truth this time.
“Damn it! I already sense this will happen but I still asked you, remember I asked you before but you denied it!” he was furious.
“It's because Leslie told me not to tell you the truth, as I don't know what to do and now she left and betrayed me too 😭” I said while crying..
“ I wanted to tell you that's what you deserve, but I cannot. Although I was hurt, I still think for your sake. I know you are vulnerable this time as you lose one of the people you trusted.” He said, I thought he'll forgive me directly but it was just my assumption.
“Please forgive me, you are the only one left in me please” I plead while crying.
“You know what, I love you. But let just cool off this time. Let me think about us clearly. I trusted you but please be assured, I will still be here for you, anytime you need someone to listen on your dramas, don't hesitate to call or text me. Let's cool off but let's keep in touch as well” Cool off but keep in touch is that even possible?
I just agreed to what Gabriel said, we broke up or cool off. But I am still hoping we can get back together because, he still wants to get in touch with me. Gabriel cared so much about my well being, he knows well about my situation that is why maybe he cannot leave my side.
Everytime I got problems he is still there to listen and comfort me, I am sure if he is near with me he will still put an umbrella with me when I was about to soaked myself by the rain.
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Then I decided to do my best to get him back again, if I was able to tame him before why not the second time around. I am confident I can win him back because I am still intact, I maybe cheated him but I never give myself to Kent. I also vowed to myself that I will never entertain another guy anymore except him.
I started to send him corny jokes and pick up lines, lol. Well it was effective. After three months of being cool off, it's never a cool off I think because we are still communicating, it's just that the label has been removed, we get back together. After getting back together, he visited me again in our province, it was already summer and he also bid goodbye as he will going to Manila and prepare for his apprenticeship.
This time, I give myself to him. That was where the “first blood” really happens lol.
(Sorry @MissJo for not detailing how the first blood happens lol, I don't know how to write it 😂)
Fast forward to present
Our relationship was never perfect, after we get back together we went on and off. After what happened we keep fighting with each other, we were actually in a toxic relationship and you know I was the toxic one. I only want his attention and understanding without understanding his part and his side too. I was selfish, it's all about me, me , me and me.
But Gab didn't give up on me despite that I was very toxic back then. There were times he said to me
“You know I wanted to forget, I met other girls here but the more I tried to forget you the more I see you. It's making me insane!” this was the time when he was in Manila already, preparing for his apprenticeship because he graduated already.
He meet another girls and have fling with them but like he said he can never forget me lol. He tried to have fling so he will know if he can really forget me, also he wanted to try others company as I was his only girlfriend.
That's why our relationship went on and off but even if we are off we are still communicating, because Gab always wants to know if I was okay, if I am still alive and didn't take suicide lol. He knows my situation well maybe that is the reason why he cannot let go of me.
Right now, our relationship is still strong as ever. As the time goes by I grew mature and learns to understand him as well. I have learned to give and take not just keep on taking.
We are now engage and have one baby girl. Sometimes I wonder what if I chose the other guy back then? What would be my situation now? But then I shrug off the idea because I know I have chosen the man who loves me for who I am, accepted me, understand me, stayed at my worst and respect me a lot.
I am also sure, I will not be happy if I chose the other guy because I am not comfortable with an aggressive guy, at least I chose the kind of gentle guy who will never force me or let me do things that is beyond my comfortability.
I never thought that the “boring guy” who declined me at first will have a huge part in my life.
He was my karma because only him that weakens and turn down the thick walls I have created to protect me and replaced it with his embraced.
I hope you enjoyed the story, this was a real story of my life and my love story as well.
As a promise that I will reveal his face, here it is, he was the boring guy.
That's all and thank you for following the story!
Date Published: July 22, 2021
Woooaah, minsan kung ano yung gusto natin, hindi binibigay satin like setting standards sa lalaki na gusto natin pero yung opposite ang ibbgay satin and thats really amazing tbh. Napapa sana all ako, sana lahat ng lalaki maunawain at kayang lumaban palagi kesa magoadala sa tukso ❤ congratulations po! 🥰 kilig namn ako don e . Haha 🥰🥰❤