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Pano naman ako? Nahulog na sayo binitawan mo lang ba talaga ako Pano naman ako naghintay ng matagal sayo wala lang ba talaga lahat ng yon sayo ano na bang gagawin ko?

Maybe some of my fellow Filipino reading these words above sang it because who wouldn't? This Filipino song is popular right now and after Andrea Brillantes posted a Video to her tiktok with this song, i loved hearing it because it is very sentimental and it was made for those people who are broken. By the way, I forgot to introduce you the title of the song and that is:

Zack Tabudlo's PANO or in english title, HOW. I don't know why, I listen to this song today. Maybe because I saw someone who was with another woman earlier. How I saw him with someone?

My Sister and cousins invites me to go to my former School to play a Badminton with them. Since, I'm bored here at our house, I joined them to go there. Everything is good, we are laughing and having fun. I also make that opportunity time to take some pictures using my new phone. I make my cousin as my model to practice how to capture a good shot to my new phone but then, when I'm taking a photo of my cousin I focus it to the gate part on her back and there, I saw someone with a beautiful lady. A girl who has a whiter skin than me, with a long hair, and sexier. She's beautiful even if she doesn't remove her facemask.

It became a slow motion to me when our eyes meet and he was shock because I was there. I can tell that he's courting the girl because of how they talk to each other, how he guides her to sit to the beanch and how they take selfies to each other.

I was act like I don't care just like how I treat him when the time that he was asking me to go out. But to me, I don't take that as seriously because what if he's just joking right? And he doesn't mean the words that he said. Like I said to my previous article before titled: Sermons that I learned from watching ,

That's the reason why I became cold to him. That all of his words, I consider that as a joke but you know what? I once fall in love to him too and he know that before. But I don't continue my feelings to grow because I don't like my heart to be hurt plus, he knows that I loved his cousin.

Now, I was confused. It is just a week when he asked me to go out but I just response to him that he look like he is not serious to me. Then after the conversation, There's no conversation to me anymore and now, I saw him with someone else. I admit that I'm broken right now. Like yeah, I thought he like me? I thought he is not the same as his Cousin but I remember that they are have the same blood. My godness! I hated my self to be a sad ghourl right now because I promise to myself that I will never make myself miserable because of guys anymore.

But hearing that song "PANO" from my Sister because she knew about 'us' for a long time. Plus my Grandma also thought the same too because he picked me up for how many times now and he even asked for a permission for me to go to the outing with my friends. I was pissed because of her. She's teasing me esp. When we go home because she also saw that he's with some another girl and my sister was like, "Hindi mo pa kasi sinagot, nakahanap na tuloy ng iba." (You haven't answered him yet so he has already found someone else) And as a great pretender, I response her a I don't care look. But when I listened the song using my own phone the lyrics is really hits me hard.

May nararamdaman din ako

Di kasi manhid na tulad mo

Alam kong sanay bumitaw

Ang isang tulad mo

Lalayo na ba ako?

I Don't know why it's really easy for him to replace me. Maybe because I was right, that his feelings for me is just a temporary and I'm easy to replace. I don't know but I think, I should never have a feelings for him because he was dangerous. So the question to that lyrics if I would distance my self to him, I should answer it with a yes. While it's still early since, He doesn't know that I have still feelings for him.

Pano naman ako?

Nahulog na sayo

Binitawan mo lang ba talaga ako?

The question that I would like to asked to him is, How about me? That now that I fall inlove to him again, if he just released me because he thought that I don't like him anymore? Or because his feelings is not really for me?

Pano naman ako?

Naghintay ng matagal sayo?

Wala lang ba talaga lahat ng yon sayo

Ano na bang gagawin ko

Another question just like the lyrics stated, How about me again? That I'm waiting for him everyday. His chat, His presence, like that. I Don't know that the rumor is true that our friends told me that he was courting his classmate. I thought that it is just a story telling from them but nah, it was real because I already saw it with my both eyes. I also like to asked him the same question, if all of what we talked and our memories when we see each other is just nothing to him and last, I don't know what to do right now.

Lyrics source: LyricFind

As of now, i don't know if I'm really a heart broken since, I should just think that it was nothing and pretend that nothing happened. Besides, no one knows if what are we beforem Aside from my family, they just think it as a thought and we didn't confirm to them. Our friends are clueless too since we are not together before. I just admit that I have feelings for him, and he do the same but it was late because I'm not sure to him anymore. Our relationship before is so very unclear.

Closing thoughts...

There's this thought that comes to my mind right now while writing and remembering how he was looking at me and when he spend his time with someone else. By how he laugh and smile to that girl, I thought that he deserve someone better. I know that the girl is the girl that our friends mentioned that he was courting so, I think he has a good future to that girl because her course is also Engineering unlike me, I'm just staying at our house, my life is hard. I should be happy because he choose the right decision and that is to let go of me which is I'm not really sure if he really like me back then or he is just confused to his feelings.

I'm okay. I'm fine. That's life and i'm already get used to it. Someday, I can also find someone better. A Man who will take care of me and love me. I should focus to my Goals first and I know that God has a purpose for us. Maybe, we don't deseeve each other and so, I accept it and now, I stop listening to that song because It will just give me a flash back of how I look to him earlier.


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I'm pushing you to him pa naman, tseee. Don't ever talk to that guy again, I mean chat pala. Good Thing di ka nagpadala sa mga sinabo nya, good thing di ka naniwala amd you takr it as a joke pero... Kahit ganon ba mej nakapasok na sya sa puso mo kasi nasaktan ka din? Or da thought lang na if ever nga totoo yong sinabi nya noon sayo ee bakit ang bilis naman nawala ng pagkagusto mya sayo kuno?

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3 months ago

Gusto ko din yung kanta, minsan kung ano nauuso tumatama rin sa sitwasyon natin, sakin hate song ko yung heartbreak anniversary hahaha.

Uy hndi ko alam tong kay Mr. Engineer mo, pero hayaan mo na. Makaka hanap ka rin ng taong para sayo baka hindi lang talaga kayo mean to be. Cheer up gandaaa mo naman e, kung para sayo, para sayo talaga yan kahit anong iwas mopa sa tao. Kaya hayaan yung ayaw sa atin 😉

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3 months ago

Fan of Zack Tabulo's music, I can totally relate it.

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3 months ago

Habang binabasa ko yung article mo mars damang dama ko din dahil sa kanta. He doesn't deserve to you mars kasi kung mahal ka niya talaga, hindi basta-basta manligaw ang isang lalaki sa ibang girl agad kasi marami naman kayo memories bakit ang dali niya lang nagawa yun. I know there is a perfect time for you mars to meet your the right one.

Yung song lagi ko naririnig yan dahil sa issue ngayon sa FranSeth mars.

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3 months ago

Nakakainis nga haha baket ba kasi ganyan? Kaya ayoko ng kantang tagalog eh Kasi puro pang broken hearted marengs.

Hayaan nyo na yorn, di rin naman sila magtatagal Hahaha

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3 months ago

Hehe oo nga mars daming kantang tagalog na mafeel mo talaga.

Hehe akala ko nung una di totoo. Mali ako, totoo pala mars.

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3 months ago

That's great..you like to sing songs..i also.. good job music Lover 💕

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3 months ago

We usually understand the lyrics of a song when we are broken and sad, that's why there's always a song for the mood.

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3 months ago

Correct huhu 😭 esp. If it's our OPM song. I can't cry or make emotions if it is english 🤣

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3 months ago

Dikopa naririnig yng song natooo, try ko pakinggan if ever makapagplano akonv magpamusic ng tagalog playlist 🤣

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3 months ago

Try mo na pakinggan maganda naman ang kanta make sure lang na dika bowkeyn harted. haha

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3 months ago

Nako, kahit di ako brokenhearted puro broken somgs rin pinapakinggan ko 🥲

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3 months ago

Ang ganda ng kanta but it hurts like hell. Hahahahuhu. Hirap talaga ng mga ganyang sitwasyon, pero miss ko na din na mafeel yung mga ganyan. Huhu. Ilang years na ako walang crush na seryoso in real life. Hirap ng pandemic. Miss ko na kiligin kuno at masaktan. Hahaha. Check mo muna mare if ano ba talaga sila nung kasama nya.

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3 months ago

Nakikisali na din amo sa mema ni Andrea B. Ngayong buwan 🤣 HAHAHA baket wala kang kwash? Meron yarn ayaw mo kela song kang and others?

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3 months ago

Ewan ko ba bhe. Siguro if face to face may mahahanap akong crush. Hahahaha. Syempre, oppa ko yung mga yun, mahaba ang listahan ko kina Song Kang and others 🤣🥰

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3 months ago

Masakit talaga pag ganyan, I feel that feeling too. Peru baka mali yung akala mo what if freind niya lang yuNG kasama niya what if nagkataon lng yun. What if nadala kalang dahil sa rumor na may niligawan siyang iba naniwala ka nlng kahit di cgurado yung nakita mo.

Peru isa lng sure jan. kong kayo man babalik yan sayu peru kung may iba na talaga siya, let go nalang talaga baka may mas better pa makikilala as you've said.

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3 months ago

Hmm.. kanina pa ako nakauwi. Di rin siya ng eexplain meaning totoo nga yung 🥲 pero okay lang, at least alam ko na at binigyan ako ng way ni God para malaman ang totoo. Gusto niya ako ilayo ng di masaktan pero nasaktan padin ako pero slight lang naman since sakin, gaya ng sabi ko, di talaga ako para sakanya.

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3 months ago

Masakit talaga yang ganyan, peru keep going lang malilimutan rin yang sakit na yan, di madali peru unti2 rin namn mawawala heheh.

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3 months ago

Totoo ba? Ang sakit naman :( pero sis, you deserve better. I am sure may taong nakalaan talaga para sayu. It's okay to be not okay but don't stay there forever. Life is beautiful. You so beautiful para maging sad gurl. Cheer up gurl.

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3 months ago

Haha lagi ko ni babangit si engr dito ehe marengs . 🤣 itawa nalang natin lahat bat kasi ganorn hay nako. Ayoko problemahin yan since busy naman ako sa pagtitingin sa mga token ko sila nalang muna atupagin ko lol

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