10/21/2021
Ain't it funny? How there are people who want to leave this world so badly, while there are those that give their everything just to live another day? There is someone who resorts to many activities in order to perish as early as possible. There is a child who never ceases to ask, to plead for another day, even just another hour to still exist in this world.
We are all in the same world, yet we have different ultimate desires. And no, this paradox ain't funny at all.
These are the very random thoughts I had, while listening to a favorite calming piano piece earlier this morning. I've watched lots of dramas, and series, and I've seen one of the greatest contrast to exist in this world—the desire to die, and the longing to live.
Just thinking about this thing made me wonder: what if these people are suddenly granted their wishes? A child dying of cancer, and another person, who wanna die, will exchange bodies, imagine that? Will they really be happy? Will it be another door opened for each one of them? I honestly don't know. And I am sorry for thinking these kind of things. I am really, really random whenever I think of deep things, and I myself find it hard to explain it.
Knocking into the corner of my head to stay awake, I continued to think of ther things at work, so I won't fall asleep. I tried to reminisce memories from when I was still a highschool student—those were fun days. It would sound cliché, but then I realize what the elders mean when they say it's one of the most beautiful parts of our lives, and that we should enjoy it. Now that I am already working, I look back and realize they were right.
Lots of good times came flashing back like an opened book. We used to walk while going home, even we have some travel money left, because we always wanna go by a near flavored-shakes shop, and used the pennies to buy our favorites there. On the way home, we always talk about lots of things! We always do this at the end of the day, yet we never ran out of topics. Topics are either about Kpop, our lessons in school, our exams, even random things such as our classmates' crushes that time. Those were really fun times, that I could not do now.
Meals in lunch time were always followed by playtime, since we had a one hour lunch break back then. There are lots of covered courts to choose from, where we run, gather to do some fun activities, or where clusters of peers are collected to talk about various things again. We are just playing, having the time of our lives, yet we get good grades, because lessons are not hard during highschool days.
No lie, there were also lots of projects and requirements back then, but those pressures can never compare to the beautiful moments that will always be worth remembering. The only times we'd cry are always related to financial difficulties, as no one is yet working aside from father. My sister and I cried a lot of tears back then, because we struggled for expenses. Yet, we have overcome. All glory to God.
Of course, thinking of my highschool days got me awake during the working time in the office. I still should not run out of ideas though, because if I do, my brain will be in an idle mode again, and I'd find myself dozing off, or yawning a lot.
People, I have and will always admit it, I can't function early in the morning, ever since I started working. It's still the same old me. It's still difficult to wake up as early as 6 a.m., and of course the hours before 'em. It will even be dangerous if I sleep again after hitting the "Snooze" button, and then I dreamt of waking up already. I have dreamt those lots of times before, and they always caused me risks of being late, specific days really got me late for work.
Quarter to six, I should have gotten up and done my bed, yet I was still rolling around, asking for a few minutes, until the "five minutes more" becomes half an hour, and in a little while, I'll just find myself doing everything in fast forward, looking at my watch from time to time while commuting, then running for my life just to get into the office before the time hits 8:01.
Restart, that's what I did. I tried to empty my mind from thoughts and burdens as early as 9:00 pm to prepare to sleep early. I am focused on my well-being these days, so I sleep early, try to meditate a lot, think of positive things, and don't expose myself to social media that much. If I can't go schedule a massage I've been wanting to have, nor go to a beach to have a nice relaxing vacation there, then I'll just pamper myself the way I can. Music helps a lot, as it can change my mood, depending on what kind of songs I listen to.
Somehow, I can still say everyday gets better. As Christmas approaches, nights and winds become colder, thus I enjoyed sleep. Sweater weather is a sleep weather, you know? Nothing beats that feeling of cuddling my favorite pillow while a warm blanket embraces me on a cold night. Of course! What were you thinking? I am fine alone, it's what suits me, okay? LOL. Anyway, kidding aside, what kind of music do you listen to before you sleep? I am just curious.
Almost Done!
Oh, could you believe that? I am approaching the end of this #AlphabetDiary of mine. Have you checked it again? Yes, I did letters J up to S today. Wondering where A to I went? I got you! Here's the first part of my Alphabet Diary series, that will most probably end soon:
Letters left: T up to Z. Whoa, those are kind of difficult. Would I be able to pull it off on the next part? I am also not sure, but let's see.
Do you wanna write your own version of Alphabet Diary, too? Feel free to do it! As long as you enjoy writing, why not?
Anyway, this has been my blog for today. I hope you had fun staying in my little own world here in read.cash. Until next time!
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You're almost there Elle. Yay! Late ko na to nabasa, umalis kasi ako kahapon. Pero oo nga no? What if someone granted our wishes of becoming this one and this? Haha.