Today’s a good day for a fight!
It was a day that made me a better person and realized that I should fight for something I deserved. Looking back from what happened these past few weeks, I always chose others. Others that I gave importance and time. I never thought that one day, as myself, I would be drained and cannot respond to others anymore. That is the start of reflecting about what I can offer for myself too. I wonder what would have happened if I gave something better for myself, instead of for others.
You know what, I would like to write this piece for myself. I would like to highlight every inch of my being so that I can release what my mind is telling me. You read my articles about featuring different news, entertainment and various topics that would give lessons to everyone. You know I cannot believe that I can write an article a day. Like, how did my brain cells make every word and sentence come into one whole piece of article.
My title was actually based and inspired from what I watched in Vice Ganda’s recent blog. It was a blog about interviewing one of the smartest people in the beauty industry, none other than Nicole Cordoves. The blog talked about Nicole’s love life and what happened during their relationship.The interview was released yesterday and Nicole’s breakup happened a couple of months ago. Meaning, it was still fresh and painful. Yet, I was awed about how she handled herself after the breakup.
The interview started with making greetings and immediately Vice asked her about how she was doing. In fairness, Nicole really is a beauty queen material. She was honest and I felt the love she had for her ex. The love without bitterness and sense of revenge. She was once said that when you love, you have to give it all. When you give it all to that person, whether it lasts for long or short, you have no regrets.
I am just happy for her because I realized that not all long relationships that end are bitter. Some are happy and respectful in a way that they accepted wholeheartedly because they know they had a beautiful love story. I love the thought of how they spent their time together with so much love. It was their fault to hurt each other, but they don’t blame each other for it. Some relationships ended with bitterness and payback.
My heart was very sad and happy at the same time. I don’t particularly recognize what kind of feeling this is, but I'll tell you what. I just want to let these little fingers of mine type and enter words that come and go. I am not having a writer’s block or anything fall short but, I feel like writing about what I want to write honestly without considering what people would think about it. Just think this is a selfish article for today.
To be honest, I am madly in love right now. Oh, am I really in love or just having great adoration? I feel like whenever I talk and message her, all I think is making her happy even though we cannot see each other personally. Is that what you call love? I am confused. I held onto my heart for a very long time and now, it was hard for me to restrain myself from falling. I am 21 years old and I think it is a good age for coming out to love, right?
I am just hesitating to ask her since I am not sure about myself yet. Oh my, I should stop writing about these confusing feelings of mine. It is not good for me or beneficial for you to read this. But, she keeps appearing in my dreams often nowadays. Even if I don’t want to talk to her, her face is what I see in my head. Like when I lay down in our hammock to nap and kept my eyes closed. She was the photo of my eternal dark vision.
At last, I just wanted to say that I wanted to fight for this feeling, but I do not know how long. I think she knew that I had feelings for her. Whatever her thoughts about me is not my business anymore. She had her own thoughts, mental capabilities and decisions to make. I guess, I should be happy for myself because after a long time, I finally fell for a girl right now. My heart’s long slumber was awakened and that’s a big step for this young humble writer of yours.
I am glad that you are all existing in my sponsors block until now. You are all a blessing to me.
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As a kuya, I think the better question is am I matured enough to handle the consequences of the action that I will do. I fell in love at the same age as you are ( I cannot consider that as love now ) as I felt the need to have one. I admired the person and told her about how I felt and then after few days yes we are officially on. But since our ideals in life were not in sync, priorities etc. we ended up after a few months. I realized that I myself isn't that capable enough to give what is needed that time.
I never dreamt of my wife when we are dating for the past 6 years the only time that I recall dreaming was when I was asked by my parents and they will take my wife and daughter and I will go elsewhere to work because finances wise, my salary is not enough to cover for our daily needs.
It is okay to fall in love G dyan pero always guard your heart parin. When you lay your intentions be true to yourself and ask. It is easy to fall in love, but staying in love isn't, pero sabi nga ng cliche' na lines pipiliin at pipiliin parin ang pag-ibig kung mahal mo.