Cry but never give up
Our life is not perfect it is like a roller coaster ride,maybe today we are at the bottom side but for sure tomorow we will be on the top .Our tears was always there when ever we felt sad or disapointed in our lives .Our tears became a partner of what feelings do we have ,we cry if we are happy ,we cry if we are worried ,we cry if we are afraid and most of the time when we get sad we cry ,remember "cry but never give up".We have to remember that we had GOD who knows whats the best for us and his plan was the best than ours.
Hello my beautiful read cash family ,how was everyone here?I hope you are all doing great today .
For this article ,I will share those things that made me cries when I became a mom and I will share also on how my sister cries and almost quit her studies.
She almost quit her studies
During the pandemic ,everything was change ,and we need to accept it to continue our lives ,students ,teachers ,parents find a hard time in terms of education during this time ,some students choose the modular classes and some are choosing the online classses.My younger sister who is a graduating student now ,she's taking Bachelor of Secondary Education.It was really hard for her to study online first the slow internet connection ,second her laptop was not functioning well ,anyway the laptop she was using was by our ate's old laptop .Many times she cries because of it and I felt hurt about it when she told me about that problem since I don't have work and I can't help her financialy ,so I introduced read cash to her but she can't attend it everyday ,she was'nt able to be an active users .When the time she told me that she stop her studies and find job to save money to buy a laptop so that when face to face classes begin ,she had a laptop to use.But I always told her not to stop kasi sayang ,there is a tendency if she can experience to have a money ,a salary she might not thinking anymore to continue her studies .
Last week ,I learned that she was able to buy a new laptop ,she was given a scholarship since highschool and this time she was given 20k pesos as a subsidy and finally she had her own laptop and it help her to motivate and to continue her studies and she will not have to spend any amount for data load coz she is staying at our eldest sister and there was a wifi there.I am so happy to know that finally she will not thinking anymore to stop ,I always told her to pursue her dreams and good to know that until now she don't have any boyfriend ,she is focused on her studies.
When I became a mom ,I cried a lot because....
I cried when I learned that I am pregnant to my first son ,I don't know if I am ready to become a mom,I don't know if I can be a good mom to him and I don't know how to tell it fo my family and when I had the strength to tell it to them when my baby was 5months in my womb ,I told them about it ,I now they are disapointed coz they did'nt even know that I have a boyfriend and I am thankful that they accepted me .
After giving birth ,I can't count on how many times I cried because of tiredness,overthinking and especially if my son get sick I always cries .As a first time mom when my baby was crying and I don't know why ,it made me cry also .
When my kids was growing and need to be decipline ,I find hard time to make it coz there was an eye watching over us ,and it made me feel like I am the worst mom that can't understand a kid,all I wanted is to decipline them while they are still young and because of that I can't control my kids ,my don'ts/no for them is big yes for the eyes who watching us always and now it made my kids throwing tantrums everytime I tried to control them.My kids are now thinking that I fought them everytime I decipline them and it made a bad mom for them .I don't know how can I manage to decipline my kids and it end me up crying .Many times I cried when I was trying to control my kids actions coz it ends them that I am not a good mom to them.
As a human I always felt tired ,doing chores at thesame time taking care of two super hyper kids ,I always felt tired and there are many times it made me cries,I cried a lot because I am so tired ,I cried because I felt pity looking at my kids .I can't deny that I missed the old days where I am free whatever I want ,I am free from everything ,I am free from thinking what would be our viand ,never think about the laundry and never think about the messy house ,I missed those days but it does'nt mean that I regret that I became a mother ,I know its not easy but still I need accept this since I am the one who choose this life what I had right now.I know its not always a tears from sadness and tiredness theres also a tears of joy and happiness.
And thats all for today ,thank you for spending your time ,I am sorry if was doing a drama for this article .Hayaan nyo na minsan lang naman hahaha.I am so thankful that read cash came into my life where I can express whats in my heart .Thank you everyone!
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Its normal to cry, even me i cry over simple things but it doesn't mean we would stop and lose hope. Just cry to release the heavy feeling inside and after it, get up and let life goes on.