I should be the one to correct myself, not the Others.
I had no idea how quickly I would become pregnant while I was with the man I am currently dating. One month after we got engaged, I took some pills to make sure I wouldn't get pregnant because I still study as well as he does. Despite reading the contraceptive's usage instructions, I still trusted my friend because she has been on pills for so long. She gave me this item and instructed me on how to use it.
I am certain that the first tablet I take will work completely well. Nevertheless, I did not experience my monthly period until I had finished taking all of the tablets. I was informed by a friend that this is typical of first-time users, and it's possible that the pills I'm taking have delayed my period.
I can no longer wait for my period because I have been asking so many "what ifs" throughout May. I went with my gut and asked a friend to buy me a pregnancy test so I could check it out for myself. When I got the pregnancy test, I felt heaven chest and was extremely anxious. I lost all of my strength as a result of my shock at the outcome. I wept knowing I was pregnant because I was unable to accept my situation at the time. My partner was as shocked as I was when I broke the news to him. I wept for the entire day. My happiness will be in jeopardy, and I believe that's where my life will end.
In July, my grandmother, who takes her place, learns that I'm pregnant and tells me that I'm like my mother. Because Grandma raised me while she was still in high school, she believes that I am like my mother. Her actions demonstrate her love and care for me, and while her words have profoundly affected me, I also understand her.
When our other siblings find out about my situation, they treat me like another family issue, look down on me, and say anything that might make me feel discouraged. They were the most distant from me because they belonged to my family. My understanding is that the family should be the first to console you when you have done wrong, not to criticize and disparage me.
They always try to tell me that getting pregnant at 20 is a mistake when they know my situation, so I know that for them. However, this child I am carrying is a gift from God for me. Yes, I was initially unable to accept my pregnancy, but I felt love and joy when I saw my child's heartbeat. I was advised to have an abortion by some of them, but I never did. I will continue to act as a mother even if my child's father refuses. I will never kill anyone, not even my own child.
Although I am doing everything in my power to avoid being influenced by their words, I am gradually coming to understand the demands of raising a family now that I have already accepted that I am pregnant and will soon become a mother. I still feel disappointed in my family, and thinking about how they looked down on me made me feel that way about myself. I've transitioned from being a model and student to a homemaker, changing my own clothes and food, so I know it won't be easy. However, I have a firm grasp of my circumstance. Even though I have stopped going to school, I will still be able to do so after the baby is born. My modeling job has been lost, but I can still get it if I want to. Because my baby is essential and important, all I need to do for the time being is prioritize it.
I believe that even if I'm wrong, I can learn from my mistakes because I should be the one to learn from them, not others. We shouldn't let other people judge us based solely on a mistake. People, this is not the end of life. This is only the first step in a new chapter. Don't read the book and don't criticize it because I have never done that to you if you don't want to know what will happen in this chapter.
Now that I'm in my third trimester, I'm enjoying living happily with my growing baby angel. I've grown strong, and I never pretend to be pregnant because doing so would give the impression that I despise my child. That is beyond me.
SALAMAT ❤️
Life is tough, tougher than the rocks
Life is tough.
Failures occur before we achieve success;
Success is achieved by those who never give up.As a pregnant woman, I've been having mixed feelings lately.Since I have not yet purchased the medication that my OB requires me to take, my pregnancy has become extremely difficult.I was just thinking, if my life is difficult now, how much more so when the baby is born?
I had always wanted to buy vitamins and fruits, but I never had the chance to do so. I sometimes feel so empty and envious when I see someone eating well. Numerous inquiries were directed toward my partner.My companion is there; He continues to attend school and is currently pursuing his education. Both of our parents have never been able to come to an agreement due to the fact that I am older than he is. In order for him to concentrate on his studies, his parents want him to study away from me. I was so broken and depressed at that time because I knew he would be studying. My grandmother is unable to perform that task because she is 93 years old and lacks strength; therefore, if I ever required assistance, who else would I turn to?In fact, she is my responsibility. I could never claim to be selfish when I asked him not to travel far or follow his parents' wishes. I pleaded with him to stay because I rely on him. Am I wrong to do that?I still feel so alone, despite his staying. He is here, but he studies all day and helps his father catch fish in the evening.
I've been having back and front pain recently, but I don't know anyone who can help. One reason his parents don't help me pay for my monthly vitamins and checkups is probably because they don't like me.
I was willing to check on my baby and went to the center for my monthly prenatal checkup.I received free vitamins there.The midwife advised me to purchase my vitamins at the botica because the vitamins I needed to take were out of stock the previous time I went there.However, up until this point, I have never been able to purchase it.I informed my partner of this, but when I read that he had been messaging his mother, I discovered that she had stated that she would only provide us with money in January.When I considered my issue, this brought such sadness and hurt to my heart.The only thing I want for my baby is for him or her to grow and develop in a healthy way, and I wish that each of our families could support me in this endeavor.It's never easy to deal with financial difficulties.
My life right now is hard, and when the baby comes, it will be even harder.Because I am aware that everyone is preoccupied with their own lives, I do not have anyone to call for assistance, so all I have is myself. I imagine that it will be even harder because the father of my child will not be home all day. As a result, who else will cook for my grandmother? Who else will look after my child?
Last night, my problem caused me to cry.She observed the baby after it brought her over.I get the impression that she does not want me to go through this much pain because I am aware that she will also be sad.At the time, I had promised her that I would fight for her no matter what and do everything in my power to ensure her health and happiness.My baby is my strength at the moment, and if I ever want to keep anyone, it will be my child.
I cannot give in;While I may not be able to meet all of my essential requirements and desires, I will never permit my baby to suffer outside.If I have to, I'll handle it myself.I think that every mother is the same way, willing to do anything for her child.I only prayed that I would have a normal delivery and that I could take advantage of the hospital's free delivery so that we could save money for my baby's needs because having no one is so painful.I am deeply sorry and sorry for myself to be honored.
Sunrise my relaxing View
Sunny day to all of my family here on read, a great good morning to all of you. Wake up, get up and witness the beautiful sun rise.
So since I'm on my third trimester, my grandma became so strict to me, from my morning exercise to afternoon, which is walking. She is my alarm clock every 5 am in the morning, how? She murmurs every morning when I don't get up, and she will murmur continuously until I get up hehe so what choice do we have here?
I get up around 5: 30 am, I drink my milk before proceeding on my exercise. I went outside for a walking and then the sunrise really got my attention.
The view was so cool and that it took my attention to capture this beautiful sunrise. Because the sea water is also in a pleasant attitude, me and my partner decided to go for a sea trip hehe. You know using "Bangka" in tagalong, boat in English. So let !e just show to you
So this is how Bangka looks like. We need to use this in order to go there floating on the sea water, looking at the beautiful sand and feeling the light of the sunrise.
I am now here inside the boat sitting, actually what i did is very dangerous, why? Because o bring my phone here and who knows accident might occur, you might drop your phone and you will never get it back again. So I advice if you are going on a sea trip please do not bring your phones.
So after we had our trip, my walking exercise was forgotten haha and I was like oh no! My grandma will for sure get mad if she knows I never did my exercise. I made a small walk in the sea and then headed home because mr. Sun is starting to get mad.
So that is how my morning went, when I got home I ate my breakfast and do my things here.
Another experience for tomorrow because on the same time, I will be looking at my favorites view, the sunrise view.
Good morning to all! How was your morning went? Have you seen the sunrise?
SALAMAT ❤️
Poverty is a Man Made
Why do you think poverty is the most pressing problem on the planet that has not been addressed recently?Is poverty caused by humans or a natural phenomenon?
After watching one of the saddest videos I've ever seen, it broke my heart. I located it on TikTok. Without food, an elderly person is sprawled out in the space, making it his own home.A young adult came and asked him to join his meeting because he was so old and thin. The elderly person stated, "I've been living like this for quite some time; I get one meal out of that stream each day."while he was pointing his fingers at the waterway that was moving. The young adult embraced the elderly person and assisted in reviving him.
On the same day, I saw a video of him wasting food just to get attention and fame for his video. Here, things have changed so much that some people are struggling while others are wasting their money. Why are those honored individuals such terrible people? Why are people forced to throw away food instead of keeping it fresh and giving it away? The recent events all over the world are awful, and I'm so sorry for those people! If you happen to get food and end up throwing it away, you should first consider how the food is made and what drives it.
Man-made poverty is a fact!It truly is.We are not achieving our goals because we are too busy keeping and saving money while others are wasting it.
We all know that being poor has never been more natural.The saddest aspect of life is that your life is very different from a normal, stable life.I recall the comment of one of my companions.It is not your fault that you were born poor; rather, your mistake was reaching the point where you passed away and were still poor. Because of this, if you were born poor, you should try to cover yourself with difficulties and set goals for yourself, such as getting an education, finding a job, and living a stable life.Many of our people did not have stable finances, but many of them became successful by working hard to get the money they needed.
My own poverty is a terrible problem.Kids are affected by it.Children who have lived in poverty for a long time have lost the ability to smile.The sweetest thing in the world is a child's smile, but how can they smile when they are in such bad circumstances?The saddest reality that I've ever seen is that poverty is always our biggest problem. We need to save our planet and our people so that we can work together, and there won't be any more people who are hungry, thirsty, or unemployed.
Donating food, clothing, and even assisting with their education by teaching them on a voluntary basis is the simplest way to assist them.We should never throw away food or things.Keep in mind that many people are hungry and without clothing or food while you are wasting.
After wasting few days of being lazy, here I am again rooting. Cold evening to each and everyone!
SALAMAT ❤️
Trip to Pangi
The story I'm about to tell happened a few months ago, but because it's one of my most treasured memories, I'm very excited to share it with you and hope you enjoy reading it.
My friends and I talked about going on a trip and having fun a few months ago.The majority of us are interested in going on nature trips, so we unanimously decided to go to Pangi Bontoc, Southern Leyte, without a second thought.Pangi is in Bontoc, Southern Leyte. If you want to see everything in Sogod, Southern Leyte, this is the best spot.I swear that this location is one of the best for me when it comes to views and fresh air, though I'm not sure if you're familiar with the others I've mentioned here. Given that we are in a farm, it is normal for the area to be surrounded by trees, grasses, and animals.
We took a few photos to remember and post after we arrived. As you can see, there are many to mention (mm), so I'd like to call this friendship a Solid Team as a whole.They are the people I used to hang out with before I got my freedom. We have a lot of bonds with each other, and I feel at ease when I am with them.Why am I covered up when I'm wearing a pink jacket and shirt?because I've been using whitening soap in the past and my skin is very sensitive, it's best to take care of my skin as well to protect it from UV rays and prevent redness on my body.
Food Bunos
So when it comes to outing, food is always present.
So we have here...
Rice, water, bread, juice, egg (itlog maalat), watermelon and cucumber, dried fish (buwad) and of course let me say we have here knife, pan and the botane for the cooking.
After we cooked rice, we fried dried fish but we call it here "Buwad" this is one of the most famous viand we have because it is not expensive and it has the yummy taste, the taste that every Filipino would love and crave.
Food is prepared for the "Budol Budol Battle". Budol Budol fight is a Filipino food tradition in which everyone eats together in the space provided by banana leaves.The food we ate was just right for our nature trip, and everyone on the team felt full and satisfied despite their lack of appetite.
We packed our leftovers and went home with them after we finished our meal.The second picture of our food demonstrates that we all enjoyed it and are hungry at the same time.We had some random conversations and laughed as we ate.
They are all my family and not just friends; I adore them all, because we love and care for one another, this family is one of the best.The first thing I want these people to know if they read my blog on hive is that I love them and will always hold a special place in my heart for them.I wish you both the best of luck in life, and I ask that you never forget our friendship.
Love is the only powerful thing in the world. We cannot define true friendship if we do not get angry or argue with our friends because that is our way of showing that we care and love them. If you happen to have people like this in your life, please be real with them, understand their value, and what friendship means to them. Sometimes there may be arguments and fights in the team, but that is normal. Conflict and disagreement are essential components of any relationship's capacity to make the relationship last and strong.
More memories to us Solid Team!
SALAMAT ❤️
I needed to save for my delivery this coming January
Saving is helpful way and our trusted fund when it comes to money or financial problems, and the more we save the less problem. Puting money on your banks account or by simply address them with your piggy banks.
I am now in the second trimester of my pregnancy, and I am having this advance thinking about my delivery either it will be normal or not, but I hope I will deliver my baby normally. And even though having the thought of normal delivery, I do need to save for the hospital payment and for my medication after giving birth, and to my baby's needs like diapers and milk.
So while staying here in my grandmother's house, I said this to myself that I will save money. Days goes by, I never thought that saving could be so hard to me because I don't have anyone to give me income or extra money, so whenever I have a little amount of money which is I got from grinding, I bought my needs like milk and fruits, and I never thought that even my needs would be affected.
I've been experiencing headache lately, because I am controlling my way of eating. Before I drink milk in the morning but now, I don't. Before I ate a lot of fruits but now I don't because I am saving. The least that I could do is to save money because If I don't, who else would help me in the future?
My grandma is getting old, do I have to depend on her when her money is not even enough for her medicines? Life for me now is like a hard level game. Been trying and using so many lives to finish this level.
They said I should never get hungry, yet now here I am struggling even more of it, I even lose my strength because I don't have energy anymore, all I have is headache and talking stomach. Being pregnant is not easy, you have so many cravings and wants, and when you don't get them? You will suffer in the end, and I think this is me now, suffering from pain and due to empty stomach.
I am deeply sorry to my innocent baby because even she, she experience of being hungry while she was still here inside of my stomach. I ate three times a day, but only a little because my grandmother is murmuring every day and night because she said she don't have enough money to sustain me and I get bother with that, I feel like i am now a burden to her, so in order for her to save also, I need to control myself like control my rice eating.
Whenever I feel hungry, I forced myself to go to sleep and whenever I had headache I just let it be. I never thought in the beginning that it could be this hard for me to survive, but I needed to for my baby.
Last night I smelled the very yummy food that my neighbor made for their dinner, I just simply admire the taste of their food while me taking my bread dinner and went to bed. Just miss to eat some fresh meat and fish, because I never had them. The only three choices of food I have is sardines, egg and noodles, somehow these three made me happy, because whenever I feed myself I feel happy because I know my baby from the inside is also eating.
My life now as a pregnant woman is the hardest, but I promise to myself that I will never give up. I will work and be more active here so this could help me saving.
Find hard to rest, I need help
Cold night everybody! How was your day? I want to believe that you had your great day with your work or along with your loved ones. It's September 20 now and all things considered 96 days left before Christmas, gee I may be way off track nalang.
So At any rate on this blog I will share to you what I generally do before that I am not pregnant versus now that I am pregnant. I had this thing this most recent couple of days, I mean I saw this aggravation and the problem huhu want to surrender however not I won't, this is only the start.
So consistently, my accomplice would put salve on my stomach and to my back. Precisely our standard while the night came that. This person here generally play with me and I lost a great deal of energy by doing that, I spent more strength since he generally make me giggle and stimulate me, similar to who wouldn't share their body when somebody is stimulating you haha.
Presently what I understood after days is that I felt torment on my stomach when I get up or utilize a portion of my solidarity, my lower back will not help out me and it set me back to how I was prior to wanting to get up. Additionally at whatever point I awakened from resting, my stomach harms like I nearly cry. I educated my accomplice concerning this thing and he said that I shouldn't spend more on mt strength, however I ought to save more. I would rather not take this any longer, the aggravation I'm terrified of what could occur, I can't stand to lose my child. Not a chance
With everything going on, does the tickling and spending strength influences my child? I need to be aware of this thing. I haven't come back to the middle yet, so I keep thinking about whether some of you here have some familiarity with this thing. I'll try to be once again at the middle this week so I could converse with the maternity specialist and perhaps she could offer the right guidance.
Presently I see as difficult to get rest, in light of the fact that at whatever point my stomach felt tight I feel torment as well. I truly do wear curiously large shirt so not the motivation behind why I'm harming, my stomach can inhale great since I wear huge shirts and shorts, I additionally wear daster like a standard pregnancy lady have. Indeed, even now that I am dealing with this blog, I feel the aggravation on my stomach, one justification for why I'm as yet dynamic here is on the grounds that I can't rest.
Before I never put salve prior to falling asleep, and before I become familiar with any positions I do while resting, and no body torment, yet presently torment is all around my body.
So dear companions if at any time you know something about my circumstance kindly illuminate me, since I want this thing. If at any point. Hoping for your response
SALAMAT ❤️
How I wish I am Lovely as my name
The things on my mind been shaking lately, I don't understand it anymore like I became so heartless when it comes to saving myself from pain and problems. I should be the first to comfort me, however I am additional to my main problem.
Head pain, back pain all in all body pain they're all bringing me to a whole which everyday I keep on going keep on fighting, yet still feel like I did nothing. I feel like I'm going into a deep water and trying myself to swim hard to rich the edge of the water, but something is holding me, something is bothering me and it holds me to stay on my level. This is embarrassing!
I wonder why my mom gave me this name. Lovely, wow! Lovely is exquisitely beautiful, a kind and friendly person, like almost perfect! I don't think I deserve this name, my name and me is a total different of person. I have this attitude that cares for others and almost forgotten how to care for myself, I love more the others than myself and above all I make friends, but I feel like I am loosing, my Friends? They're gone? My treated special someone's? They're all gone. How did I know that? As I am aging, the movement of my normal life is also changing. Many of my well-known people gone, the love and support I had with them before ended, our contact break out and those people? They all changed like new.
Sometimes I even question myself WHAT DID I DO WRONG? In what aspect I made a mistake for me separate with my people? I've overtaken all of the happenings around me, I blame myself for losing, for everything what happened, I overthink a lot and I see myself struggling from the anxiety I am feeling.
The thing that I don't understand is that why am I being like this? Before I was so afraid of losing because I don't want to be alone, yet now, it is happening. When I am bored I stayed focus on my phone, or I overthink and cry. Sorry for being emotional but what I am telling is the truth, whenever I see a sad story, I cry, when I see someone is crying, I also cry, like I am just watching but feels like I had the pain.
What kind of issue is this? Because of this situation, sometimes I hurt myself and I am very stupid to do that. I get mad with my boyfriend and even to myself. Isn't this too much? I am praying to God that all of this what I'm going through will be solved and I'll return to my normal life. I prayed for Him that I could be Lovely as my name so I could be beautifully confident with my life, no more losing no more hurt.
If this is anxiety, Isn't this too much for a pregnant woman like me? I sometimes barely go to sleep because of overthinking, I sometimes feel like wanted to cry with no reason and sometimes just wanted to be alone. I feel like I am not just loosing the people around me but also myself. This is the hardest part I am facing, can no longer take this situation, I don't think I can make it or how long will I be able to fight with this battle.
Can someone understand me? Need some help.
How I wish I was Lovely as my name.
Lazyness overload
Hello everybody cold morning to all readcashers, who!!!! Feeling cold here covering my whole body in a blanket and laying here in bed. So lazy to get up early right now because of the weather, honestly raining season makes me a lazy person, why? Because I'm afraid to get showered, to get off from my bed and to feel the coldness from outside. So for now I skipped my morning routine which is to have a walking exercise, because I feel so lazy and I don't feel like doing anything right now but lay here on my bed, opening some random application, reading and writing blog.
So how was everybody here? I assume you guys are safe, as always I seek for your safety and health. So what's for breakfast? Me I had my milk, caldo, and hot rice with chicken soup. I don't have a milk for pregnant woman, I normally take what I can afford like swak pack, alaska or bear brand, those three are my only choice. When it comes to fruit I really like to eat juicy fruits like watermelon, mango. Watermelon is my biggest craving now that I am on my 5th month pf pregnancy, I don't know why but suddenly my taste switched from sour to sweet. Yeah on my first three months I like sour fruits like carabao mango, cucumber with vinegar and anything that is sour. Maybe that is also what we called crave season HAHA lol I'm freaking out of my mind here.
Honestly I came here with empty minded, like I just click the write an article without having my main topic and explanations, I just let my thumb doing this thing haha lol! I honestly like to write articles as much as I can, however I feel like ------------------------------- ahhhh! Nothing empty to write. I can't copy-paste here tho, we all know that, plagiarism is an offense here and no one should ever done that, I never did hehe.
I really admire those people who aren't afraid of copy pasting the work of others, hmmm maybe it will be all good if we include the author's name or anything that is for dedication to the owner, plagiarism is not a joke and it could be a serious case of we committed that kind of thing.
So I'd rather make my own work even though the outcome if boring, however I am proud of making my own blog using my own capability of thinking, char! HAHHAHA Anyways can you guys suggest me a topic to write? Any suggestions guys so that I can have a topic to write here, hehe not like this kinda boring blog. But still thankful i made an article for today!
That would be all glad to great you a happy Friday!
SALAMAT ❤️
September Waving, September Goals
We wish you a Merry Christmas, we wish you a Merry Christmas, we wish a Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year !
Ahhhhhhh time flies so fast, here we go again with our Ber months, everyone is so excited for this moment to come. It's like we just celebrated a Christmas and New Year yesterday and now here it comes again. The first thing I know when it comes to ber months is the cold weather hehe yeah! Hmmm do you felt that already? Because me? Nahhh! I'm feeling cold as always hehe.
So since I have read blog about September Goals so why not make our goal too, right? Let's all get excited with the ber months to celebrate! After I finished reading articles about September Goals, I plan to also make mine, now here we goes.
My first goal is to save money
You know, I am pregnant and it is understandable why I meed to save money, for an emergency. Also saving money would be a great help, correct? Because when we have savings, we can depend on it, we can trust ourselves to whatever it is coming, like financial problem or support, we have our source, we can solve problems easily when we have savings. We should save always, because products are getting a hinger price, everyday increasing even sugar and salt. In order for us to live we need to save and control. Go find ways like planting vegetables, so instead of buying we could get them on our backyards, just like that, it could save money.
Second goal is to have a healthy pregnancy
So my baby is turning six months old this September, I am very happy to share that to you. I've always been praying to have a safety and healthy pregnancy and I always ask for Gods guidance. I ask for His help to protect this cute little angel on my tommy. Whenever I feel my baby is moving, I get so excite, we both of my partner touch my tommy and we both witness the baby moving. Hehe how lovely this kind of moment is. I am very happy and also thankful for God's best blessing.
Third goal is to become a good partner
I just hope that things we have in the present will never change. Happy, loving and contented to each other. As a good partner I will support my boyfriend to his needs and wants, I also need to under that because I am older than him. He loves to play basketball, and so I let him, if that would make him happy then I cant be the main reason why he cant achieve that happiness, I should be the first to support. I guess that will make me a good partner, letting your partner enjoy his life with limitations.
Time management
Hehe this is the hardest above all. Look my partner is studying the whole week, I am alone at home and I don't know what to so . So im order for me to find joy with myself I need to work, I need to kill !y time with doing house chores and everything. I wash clothes, wash dishes clean the whole house and anything. After that I play mobile legends take a bath, prepare for lunch and rest. On the afternoon I use cellphone, watch videos, TikTok, and play mobile games, in that way I can get myself entertained, because if not I will let myself lazy sleeping doing nothing hehe.
Hmmmm well I guess those are my goals for now. What about yours? What are your goals in life? Come and share it to us, I would love to read some goals in life too. Advance merry Christmas to all!
That would be all guys, I hope you are safe and always be safe. Lat us all pray for Luzon and for the rest of the Philippine areas. God bless us all reachashers!
SALAMAT ❤️
Monthly Cravings
Hello everybody, warm evening to each and everyone here on read. How are you guys, look I am very sorry for myself for not being so active here, actually I have my main reason. I want to finish fort all my paperwork and projects in school because I discontinue my study for my pregnancy, I still have lacking outputs during my second year so I have to finish them all in order for me to complete my grades and whenever I continue from schooling, I will still be a regular student.
I have friend, she said being an irregular student is very disturbing, like she found it hard, she needs more time and she is waiting for a summer class to proceed woth her lacking subjects. If I will be in that situation, nahhhhhhhhh it'll be so much hard for me. I dont want that so I will make sure to do my best to pass all of my outputs, even though its late. Hehe
Hello people hehe, I laughed looking at my empty list of sponsors that's a very sad part of me hehe. I've been very thankful before foe having more than 10 sponsors, yet now I got no one. Yeah I understand why, that's because of my inactivity here. I just hope I can get back your trust people and have your support, because for real? Having you is one of my inspiration to write, and now that you are all gone, hmmmm very sad.
So bringing back to you my topic hehe. Being pregnant for six months is very challenging hehe. But almost of my cravings is fruits like watermelon, mango, banana, papaya, pineapple, cucumber, and many more. A day without fruit is a sad day for me hehe I can never escape that thing. Fruits are very expensive in the present, and money is very hard to get so I just let my head hurts for my craving not being eaten.
When it comes to drinks, I crave for soda and anything that is cold. And whenever I bought that in the store they say I should avoid drinking cold drinks because it will make the baby big. Hehe I don't know why most of my not allowed food and drinks, they're my cravings hehe.
I sometimes control myself but sometimes hehe I cannot, anyways I am six months pregnant but my tommy is that big as you think. My neighbors always say I am joking hehe they think I lied that I am pregnant because some of pur people here got even more bigger tommy than mine and I just laugh like they are all right hehe I will post an image here maybe in my next blog.
So I guess that will be all hehe I am just happy to share to you moments of pregnancy.
Ohh! One thing, I heard there's s super typhoon coming, and it will affect Luzon, guy's lets all be safe always, we know nothing about the upcoming situation. Let's all pray for Luzon and to our selves and family. Always be prepared guys, and always be with your family, be happy together because life is short.
Let me share to you a short story.
He is my classmates oldest brother, he is tall, handsome and a volleyball player. He is kind yeah, I cannot forget that we had conversation together as a friend. Now just this afternoon, I knew that he is gone. Many of his friends cannot believe of what happen, even me. Guys let us all be safe as always, pray before we sleep and always thank God for giving us another day. Cherish you family moments because we know nothing about our tomorrow.
To you dear friend, Rest in Paradise. A lot of people will miss you and your kindness.
That's will be all!
SALAMAT ❤️
Practice to Improve
After I received my lessons in life, here I am. Facing my life, the reality, the life of having a baby. I am practicing myself how to do this and that, how to save money, how to control my cravings and how to get rid of my laziness.
My grandma always murmur me early in the morning, she wants me to go to the Ocean and do my walking exercise. At first I found it hard, waking up myself at 5 am is not my type, but because I am pregnant, walking they say is a big help for my pregnancy days and to my delivery. For almost 6 months, I am now aware of my daily activities like waking up early, do my exercise, cook, wash clothes, so house chores and so on.
When I enter my room for relaxation, there goes my grandma' s echoing voice. Now I need to get up and not letting myself lay in bed.
As a pregnant woman, I can really say that this is very challenging, a pregnant women always feel tired and sleepy however we are not allowed to do so. But let me be honest to you, there are moments that I can no longer control myself, I let myself sleep because I'd love to.
Before I wake up around 10 am and went to bed around 3 am, my almost activity. But now I need to get up 5 am and went to bed at 7 pm. Before I take a shower at 4 pm but now I need to get wet in the morning only. Many of my usual activities had changed, and I needed to understand why things are going like this, this is also for the best of me and for my baby.
Mu grandma always teach me how to things right, haha I sometimes reject it because i feel so lazy and tired, however I am doing my thing, I am practicing and practicing myself to improve and to level up my strength like a mother.
I am very happy and contented, even though there people who hated me because of what happened I still face them positivity. I mean, if they are my friends or they love me, they will understand me and help me instead of rejecting me.
Only those people who stayed understand me, and those who don't, they left. I don't have to choose between them or my baby, because if they are real to me they will understand the situation and they should be the first to guide me.
I am now a pregnant for 6 months. I currently stop my study to focus on my pregnancy and hoping that i can continue my study in the future.
I am pregnant, and whatever happens I will not let others hurt my child, i will stand for this even if the father will choose me or bail out. I will love this baby i am having and i will treasure this baby forever.
Have great Day ahead everyone one here on read! What a sunny and fresh day we have, feel so good to hang out with friends right? Go for ride get some snacks and enjoy the taste of beer, gosh I missed tht moment hehe. Anyways, Greetings to all pf the birthday participants here and wish you all the best of best. Tale care always and God Bless.
That would be all bye!
SALAMAT ❤️
I am not born perfect, and I will never be.
I am not a perfect person, not a perfect woman. I have mistakes, I do mistakes and mistakes made my imperfections. But one thing I discovered about having a mistakes is it teach us and tells us lesson. You will never learn if you don't have mistakes, its like you will not met your success without having struggles, you will never realize the importance of life without ups and downs, you will never know who's real and fake without loosing.
I am a mistake maker, and a sinner I say bad words to my people and family, I talk back whenever I feel angry, I don't share what I have to people I dont like, I dont response immediately when I am mad, I hide truths, I fake my smile and feelings, I made my love one's angry, I stole money, I repeat words being said by someone, I acted victim and so many more mistakes and sins.
One big mistake I made as a woman is when I knew I was pregnant. The journey I had as a single person is too short for me and I've always wanted to discover more, do more and experience more. Having a baby at my age is not actually part of my plan. My plan is to finish my study first, and have a comfortable work, enjoying the life and travel around the world, my plan of having a kid is at the age of 28-30 however my plans are all missed up, so many unexpected things happen in my life, and I just don't know what will happen next.
When I got the result of my pregnancy test, my world went dark and I became speechless, crying in silent for almost of my days. I couldn't accept the fact that I am carrying a baby, that I am soon to become a mother, that many of my normal activities will change and that it will also affect my study. I am taking the judgement in advance, the people's eyes, and voice keeps playing on my mind. I am so afraid to disappoint my family just like how I disappointed myself. That moment I say, NO I will never make this happen. I plan to abort the baby I am carrying by drinking bitter ingredients. They say it will work, and because of my decision that time, I made my choice. More months had past, still, the baby is breathing.
I went to the doctor and I saw the baby beautifully growing. I heard the heartbeat and I went too emotional, I cried and realize my mistakes my sin just to abort him/her, I suddenly say YES I will take care of my baby.
We human have our realization/ regrets in the end? That shows the power of lesson. It teach us to be aware of our wrong doings. " They say regret is in the end". Yeah I agree with that phase , because I've been regretting my mistakes, but that doesn't means my life ends here. All we need to do is to feel the pain brought by our realization and regrets in life. But remember, whatever happens, its because it has a purpose "Everything happens for a reason" and so I understand how life should go on and on.
The importance of lessons is to make us more knowledgeable person, in order for us to know the results, outcomes in the next day with our current situation. Lessons in life is a miracle for me, it change a person, I believe a one persona can tell that he/she was changed by his/her lessons in life. We all wanted to change and tp start a new clean beginning. But we know nothing with our life's problem in the next day. Mistakes are part of our lives, we human needs the acceptance and forgiveness to ourselves in order for us to grow and to learn not to do the same thing again.
The difference between gained lesson vs. gain lesson for me is that Gained lesson is that a person who correct his/ her mistakes and never so it again, while on the other hand, a person who received his/ her lesson but still doing the same thing.
Now I am happy, I have my lessons in life, and I understand why things like this happened to me. The acceptance is my key, my regrets are my inspirations, my lesson are my goals and my main objective in life is to become a good mother and a woman.
We should never waste life, like killing ourselves, it will never solve problem. Life is like a math, In order to solve problem,you need the formula. Our formula is to understand life, let reality hits you, until you face regrets, blaming yourself, crying there's nothing wrong with going through the process, endure the pain and the lessons and who knows one day, your dark life will son get the light that it deserves.
Regret is in the end, but Everything happens for a reason. Our No and Yes in life are our choices, Acceptance is the key of our life.
Live comfortably and a happy life. Always thanks God for the problems ha gave to us, because He knows how strong you are and you can win the battle in life.
SALAMAT ❤️
An appology for not being here, I have my reasons, I am very occupied these days and I lost my appetite to write too. However I am now bring back to life to share to you my everyday thoughts.
Have a great day ahead!
Perfect Bond
Hello everybody what's up here we go again writing another topic. So for today's blog. So this blog is all about friendship and food, this will not take too much of your time because this blog is short only, three minutes I guess.
What a Lovely day to all, a perfecto morning to a perfect world! Of course thanks to Almighty because He made all of what we see, drink and eat. Let's all greet God a happy day in Heaven.
So I guess I don't have to introduce to you my friends because as far as i know if you are one of my readers you already know who are the friends i am talking with. So just this morning my male friends including my boyfriend came here in my house and wake me up like HAHA they're doing their best to wake me. When I get up, they said that they will get some coconut fruit and juice something that we could eat and enjoy. Well that is a good idea for me, since the sun is very angry well, then it's perfect to have what we called here "NILAMAW"
So do you expect that one of my friends own a land full of coconuts? HAHAHAH none of them not even me. So did this guy get some? Of course they use their supper power HAHAHAH. It's their way of getting coconut fruit hehe I mean they're used to climb coconut tree without asking permission to the owner. I told them that they should be careful and they said the owner will not be angry, coconuts are spreading on the ground, so it's better to have them than to leave them dying. Hmmm they got their point, but I just hope that none of them will get hurt.
I stayed in the house, waiting for their return HAHA not in a chance I will go there with them, hahaha it's because of the sunlight and hmmm you know Im pregnant. One hour had past, still they are not home, I started to worry and nervous. I can't get off my feet in this house so my only choice is to wait. Later on, they finally arrived. Hay! Thanks! And ohhhh? They have so many of coconut fruits hehe wow! And they also have shrimp? Like HAHAHA where did you get this?
They saw a small river, full of shrimp so they invested time to get some. Haha I am so happy to see how this people their techniques in life.
So here are the nilamaw we had.
We are all happy while eating. I am so glad to have this kind of bond. Pure and sincere. Male friends are great, not all of issues are the same. They say having a male friends is bad, but I do say not at all. Their love and care are pure, the friendship we had is solid as rock. They are a big help of my exercise which is to smile.
Grandma have some nilamaw too and she also laugh after she knows their trip HAHA so we are all happy and our food os perfect for the hot weather.
What about you guys? What is your trip for today?
Warmest greetings to my handsome and beautiful sponsors! How are you people? I hope you guys are safe, not just to my sponsors but i wish all of my read cash family a safe and happy day. Have a great day ahead!
SALAMAT ❤️
Motorcross at Center Town
First of all I would like to say Happy Feista Sr. Santiago, Banday Tomas Oppus, Southern Leyte. July 25, 2022 Monday is the most awaited day of all. Contest like festivals, motorcross, dancing and singing is about to judge. So I am supper duper excited to witness cultural dance and giving of the awards. An advance Congratulations to all of the upcoming winners this afternoon! Wish you all the best Cluster 6, Fighting for your goals!
A pleasant afternoon to all of you my dearest friends here on read cash platform. Cold evening we had last night, but hot morning we have now, so I hope you guys are taking care of yourself because climate change hits different too. I am pregnant and I have flu however, I am not allowed to take drugs because it says it will affect the baby I am having. So for those who don't want to get sick, always cover yourself with a towel or anything that could prevent you catch cold. Above all, I am very much thankful for you people with your unending support and love. Have a great Monday ahead!
So yesterday morning, me ate Cha and our friends went to Banday Tomas Oppus, our center town to witness this event.
Foe the second time of my life, I see this kind of contest, a contest that gives you nervous and at the same time excitement. A player from Liloan, Ormoc, Maasin, Bato and many more challenged the game. Galia, was one of the best player I knew, he plays expert on it, the way he enjoys himself with his DT motor made him look very good at the game. I admire him from doing that, and he always win the game, he place first runners up for so many rounds, he is from Ormoc if I am not mistaken, according to ate Cha he is rich and I see that, because he always change clothes and change a motor, like wow! Is that how rich he is? Overall, ge is the champion, and the best among all of the players.
Second on my list is player Padecio from Sogod, he is old but still he is good at it. The first attempt he git the first place, the second attempt he place second, and sadly on the third round, he surrendered, I mean he got hurt by losing his control's and a rescue came. Many have said that he needs rest, but still he is good with this game it's just he cannot take it for a long time.
We had our lunch at the event, we got our perfect spot so we never leave this place so for the next battle, we can still watch the game comfortable. Comfortable? HAHA not really because the sun gets so much angry and HAHA my face turn into red like am I drunk? Haha never mind the sun as long as we enjoy watching the contest.
A sorry for those players who got hurt during the game. I guess they are three, yeah this type of play is something like expected to have this injures, it's too dangerous to do motorcross and accident is unknown from time to time. So matter how this players takes care of themselves, when accident hits them , they will get hurt. But thank God, no one is injured very much, they just need to send to the hospital for the treatment.
I didn't expect that the contest takes more time, we went there at 9 am and it's almost 5 pm when the contest ended. And now i think we defeated HAHA we never noticed that ate Cha's car is flat like haha how did this happen?
So this is how it went HAHA so sad to see this. We just laugh out of knowing because none of us noticed this thing. Good thing we have our extra, and that solves our problem hehe.
I really enjoy the day, I really admire all of the players, they are all champion in my eyes, but I really congratulate Galia for having the overall Champion!
That will be all guys!
SALAMAT ❤️
This is to Clear Issues| I am not hiding the Truth!
Hello everybody! Warmest evening to each and everyone; how was our Saturday went? Hmmmmmmm? Hope you spent it well with your friends or with your family. So as I promised, I will be more active here from now on since I need to save $ you know for personal needs and extra income. So some of you already know that I am pregnant, some are not. So for those whoever is new or who don't know yet about me, I am three months pregnant, I am a second year student and I just stopped from schooling to focus on my pregnancy. My partner is also a student, and he is younger than me, very young, a sixteen years old man and a grade eleven student. Both of our parties are not okay with regards of what happen, problems arise, issues, concerns , judgements, conclusions, vandalism, and belittlement are the things I received.
Please allow me to great my Wonderful sponsors! Hello beautiful and handsome individuals, thank you very much for staying and keep on trusting me in behalf of my absence for almost a month. I know I don't deserve your support because of my inactivity here, but I am just so glad to see that you guys stayed and keep on supporting me. You are vulnerable people, I engaged you for being a good and supportive person. I hope you guys will stay by my side, for you are one of my reason why I am inspired to write something everyday. Have a great evening! More blessings to us, more help and more articles to made. SALAMAT ❤️
So let us go back to my main topic! When I know I am pregnant, I became crazy, I feel bad for myself and I planned to abort the baby I am carrying. Let me be honest to you, I made a move, I drink beer as my friend told !e it could help, but for some reason it doesn't work. Another days had past, I went for a check up to see how this baby is doing, and God! I feel sorry, joy, sad I dont know a mix emotions hits me the moment I saw the baby and hear the heartbeat. To that moment, I almost cried as I realized the things I've done just to abort him/her, but right after seeing my baby, I made my final decision. I will not kill this innocent, baby angel. I can't kill a person, not my own child. I went home in tears of joy. I told my partner about my final decision and he agreed. We both smile and he touched my belly.
Issues had spread around my neighborhoods, I received both good and bad feedbacks including my family and my boyfriend's parents. Their messages are hurting me, the conclusions had gotten me and it kills me whenever my anxiety attack.
So what with getting pregnant at my age? Or still a student? Life doesn't end here. I might discontinue my study, but soon as this baby is out I can still mange to continue my education. The issue is that he is still young, yeah I know, and who said I am ready for marriage? I never had the chance to talk but I just hope people around me can understand especially to those who have been in the same situation before.
I am okay with my pregnancy, I am not shy to tell people, I AM PREGNANT, why would I hide the truth when it only hurts this baby I am having? Why would I lie when all secrets are supposed to be revealed? I will never hide this baby with me. I will never cover my mistake with another mistake. I will stand for this, because no matter what, I cannot change things here, to become a mom is a woman's future right? It's just I became one at the early time.
" Congratulations dear! You might have your first baby at your early age but the advantage is that when you aged, you already have your growing child. A child that is growing which is you can have the chance to see them success in their lives because you are still young. At the age of 30 you have your 10 years old son/daughter. So never blame yourself for having a baby at early age, its a blessing that God had sent to you. "
I believe to those people who sent me positive vibes. To be more honest, these people have helped me how to be strong. Of course they know about my relationship problems, but they also hope that both of our sides will soon accept us and get reconciled.
I am not angry, nor spiteful to individuals who don't support me, what else can I do when they don't like me anymore? Letting them say what they want and give them a smile would be a great revenge. I cannot control their mouth of course, they have their own opinions and conclusions so it is always up to them about the words they want to speak.
Issues and concerns like this is natural when situation is like this, people now adays have their business to mind someone's life with negative words and actions. Me? I can't trust my neighbors, you? You should never trust anyone but yourself. Because what I have realize, is that we only have ourselves, we understand ourselves, we get advice from ourselves and we get better when we love ourselves. So might as well I should never lose me, because if that happens, I'm going to miss me someday. I will never lose myself because of their issues and conclusions. I am proud saying WOW! I HAVE SO MANY FANS IN LIFE! Many are concern, many have spent their time for me, and I thanks them for doing that because I understand people like this, it's like they are born to become a MARITES!
That will be all guys, I just made things clearer here, I just don't like to hear fake news, saying I hideaway my pregnancy, because the Truth? I am proud!
Have a great day!
SALAMAT ❤️
What have happened
Hi everyone, how are you getting along here? I bet you folks lived it up in perusing and composing web journals. How was Rusty's astonishments? Is it back to ordinary? Ahhh I just trust he has returned to the manner in which he used to. So it's been 4 weeks since I am over here. Excessively lengthy right? No doubt had such countless issues like my pregnancy, my school ventures and freedom, family issues and self discouragement. Regardless I am experiencing so muchof torment from what occur. No, I previously acknowledged the way that I am pregnant and that I am a mother, what here is that my accomplices guardians as well as mine get into ends where it cut off our friendship into a bombed one. Seeing myself crying in bed, getting through the torment and has nothing left is a sorry. I'm extremely miserable with the way that main my accomplices mother is our viewed as unfriendly. Why? Since after every last bit of her awful words conveyed, I am as yet trusting that one day she will acknowledge me and the child, even only for the child. That one day she will uphold me with my check ups and nutrients, I am as yet trusting that we could get accommodated, that we can in any case be a blissful family. That is all I need a blissful and cherishing family. In any case, it appears to be so hard to have my creative mind, in light of the fact that the family I am going to have is a family isn't in favor with me, I mean they did everything that could hurt me that drives me away from their child. What's more, I concede I am harming, I cried it constantly and the sum total of what I have is myself.
Last week, I had my supper at my sweetheart's home, I had it with her sister. Her sister is pleasant to me, she said so manupy thing and that incorporates my sweetheart's arrangement to proceed with his review to his country which is in Aklan. I asked this woman double cross just to ensure what I heard was valid. She said I thought my sibling previously let you know that, so I open it on our discussion. He never said that words to me, so he is intending to evade thing from me? I lost my craving that second, I called for himself and inquired as to whether what her sisters talking about is valid. He concurred. I returned home and never made a discussion with him.
At the point when the morning came, he visited me and that was the ideal time my grandmother and her sister was in our home. They asked him and he said that her mom believes him should proceed with his review to aklan and she will uphold me for mu check ups and drug. When my grandmother asked, what leverl would you say you are in this approaching opening of the class? Grade 11 he replied. My grandmother lash out and say awful words to him, why move to somewhere else when we have pur school close to our home? Living wonderful alone? Who do you suppose will help her when she wants assistance? You will escape ande appreciate you life thre while beautiful on the opposite side making a good attempt taking consideration pf the child? He became quiet. My grandmother let him know every one of the potential outcomes that could happen to him when he's far.
At the point when my grandmother left, I inquired as to whether he as of now grasp what is going on. He won't ever give !e a reaction, thus I let him know they as of now make sense of my side I don't have anything to tell you, If need to go then go.
Her mom generally give the child a condition. Presently she said she will uphold me yet she will not her child get close to me or to our child. For what reason would she say she is so self centered? And me? I need to proceed with my concentrate as well yet I forfeited not to on the grounds that I am pregnant, she said she generally make the right decision, presently is telling is child not to assume his liability a decent one?
I'm especially disheartened with my sweetheart's mom needs, and I am extremely much frustrated in light of the fact that anything his mom needs, he simply follow. I get this is on the grounds that He never really comprehend what is going on we are in. This present circumstance is exceptionally hard to me. At times I recently wanted that this is all a fantasy, yet regardless of how hard rest I am, the point at which I am conscious, circumstance won't ever change.
Presently it's been two days since he and I never met and convey. I surmise he is picking his mom's side rather than mw and his kid. That is fine to me, it's consistently dependent upon him who he will pick. He previously lost me the second he needed to pick, so I figure out that assuming one day he will left me, he picked his mom.
That is fine by the way, I can be content with this child I am conveying. Dislike it's my lost, one day he and her mom will understand that the child I'm conveying is a youngster and their grandkid.
I just still hope that one day, realization hits them and so I could forgive them. I can't hold grudges, I am doing anything I can do just for the baby's sake.
That would be all folks, thank you for coming to, and sorry for being idle here. I trust your folks are not losing the interest to me for sake of my non-appearance. I will be more dynamic beginning today since I want to set aside cash for myself. Much obliged to you.
Cucumber and Mango
Warm morning to al of my read cash family! First of all I would kike to thank you guys for I am now having 200+ subscribers. I am so much grateful with your support and interest even though sometimes I am absent here for some reason. I would like to thank also my sponsors @Theblackdoll @Expelliarmus30 @foryoubtc09 I am so happy to still have you on my list. Thank you for the sponsorship renewal guys, your funds are a great help of mine. I hope you guys are in great situation! Have a beautiful Wednesday to all of us.
So I would like also to welcome here my partner, glad he agreed with what I suggested him to do which is to be one of us here. So I helped him in making his account yesterday, and I am just so happy that he does what I asked. By the way he already Published his first article, an introduction blog, if you guys are interested you can check him by clicking his username @Janleo . I hope my partner will last and enjoy his journey here and met a lot of good people.
Have a blessed Wednesday to each and everyone! Might interested with my latest blog " I quickly get tired " you can just click the link I provided below.
https://read.cash/@Lovelyfaith/i-quickly-get-tired-863b89eb
Cravings
So everybody realizes here that I am pregnant in 90 days. Inside my three months I've been needing for something sharp organic product. Later on I saw that what I did truly pine for is Cucumber and Mango. I put the cucumber in vinegar with lemon and the taste is the thing precisely I am searching for, a 3 carabao mango daily isn't enough for me, in some cases when I ate cucumber I likewise have the mango and I truly do truly very much want to eat this sharp organic products.
Now and again my morning meal is mango, I don't have any idea why yet I truly do truly desire for this and If I won't eat what I need for,I felt something on my head, O don't have the foggiest idea how precisely that called is nevertheless one thing I know is the point at which I don't get what my child needs my mouth continue to water and my head harms. How could I know that?
One night I am going to rest when abruptly I pine for cucumber, it was 9 PM and I don't have stuck here in the house so I want to go to the store to get some, since it was late I just requested one from my companion, Arvie, recall! The one I played SOS with before when I am as yet chipping away at their store. I send him a message and inquired as to whether the store that sells products of the soil is as yet open. He answered no, its as of now close. However at that point he attempted to wake the proprietor only for me to have what I need. So miserable the proprietor is alert yet they are out stuck of cucumber. There could be no other store here that sells organic products, so by realizing that I get miserable and my mouth began to water and my throat is getting dry, I don't have the foggiest idea why. Later on my head damages and that evening I comprehend that this is the way it feels when I don't eat what I hunger for.
After that evening I brought both mango and cucumber so I can have it whenever I desire for it. So this is the manner by which a pregnant ladies feel. Get eager at regular intervals, in light of my experience, immediately get worn out, affection to rest, sweat-soaked body, grumpy, and some more.
Presently I comprehend that being pregnant is difficult, there are numerous things you believe should do however you can't on the grounds that it isn't permitted to pregnant ladies. Before I wash up two times each day, presently I just get one, preceding I can wear anything I need now I can't, before I am allowed to eat all that I need, however presently I can't, yet that's what I comprehend, it is for the best of my child though so I will follow what is enthusiastically prescribed to do.
My grandmother additionally guide me what to do, and she don't believe I should get more rest since she said it will develop the child greater and it's bad, however for what reason am I generally drowsy? Hayst I have no control over not to rest in light of the fact that my eyes are shutting hehe and my grandmother mumble constantly. In the first part of the day she believes me should rise and shine early and do a unit of things, she said that is superior to resting. I in all actuality do wash garments, dishes, I do the cooking and clean the house so she can say that I am truly dealing with it. However, after that I am languid, yet nit permitted! So I surmise I will rest right on time around evening time. It's difficult by any means, I am just a three months pregnant yet this is all that I got, feeling drained and sluggish hehe.
By the way while composing I have cucumber with me hehe. I'm in the temperament to compose right now since I have my desires.
That will be all guys! Thank you for reaching, have a blessed Wednesday!
SALAMAT ❤️
Rusty dear, we missed you so much
I quickly get Tired
June 26, 2022 warm Sunday to all of my read cash family! The present weather conditions appears to be so perfect, so my grandmother requested that I go to Sogod to purchase food and alcohol for our business, business? Indeed hehe we will intend to begin an independent venture and ideally our business will become solid. Ahhhhh my lunch was extraordinary on the grounds that I made some cleanser of chicken, so my lunch was truly pleasant.
Around 12 early afternoon, I did washed up and after that I list down the things my grandmother requested to purchase.
Ohh hey now folks! I sat tight for close to 60 minutes before I get the jeep. Golly my feet's were squeezing and my back is throbbing, I wouldn't fret that at first however later on, well pause.
So I showed up at 2: 30 pm in the Sogod, ahhh might you at any point envision? However, that is fine, I was simply stressed over the time since I could miss the last clump of the jeep.
So when I showed up, I went to jysmi and get the products on my list. A many individuals are doing groceries, nahhhh I completed the process of picking for very nearly 30 minutes and afterward I held up one more hour as placed my container on the line where individuals are sitting tight for the bill. Presently my feet's were squeezing my back is throbbing, my head harms and my hands are gradually losing strength, but I actually figure out how to be on the line, it was 4 in the evening and I am concerned that I could missed the last jeep.
Well beneficial thing it's my move, however stand by!
Where could the Cashier be?
Ohhhh my god! You keep me sitting tight for one more moment?
She was away for right around 10 minutes, everybody on my line is irate on the grounds that you know stand the entire time, so tiring.
Happy shes back, I can't help thinking about the thing she was doing. That's what I grasp however they ought to likewise comprehend what is going on in light of the fact that it's rarely so natural.
Simply glad that toward the finish of my process still there's a jeep. I returned home in harmony. At the point when I returned home we then, at that point, began to organize the items in general, similar to cleanser, milo, milk, cleanser and anything can be found at home.
I simply trust that our business will grow up and I trust my neighbors won't be furious to us since one of our neighbor is selling as well, I genuinely want to believe that I will not hear a word that would make us feel bad.
So I surmise that will be all, I was simply sharing to you what occur on my evening and haha I am worn out.
Trust you folks are accomplishing something beneficial, remain sound and great.
Our sound is at our main concern, so for good, when they say wear facemask, we ought to wear, it is likewise for our own security. Despite the fact that I am drained, I still mange to be alright.
Well is this since I am pregnant? Perhaps.
What about you? What causes you to feel so drained?
Hello, how are you guys here? Hehe shout out to my one and only sponsor, thank you so much for the support and blessings. I'm sorry I am not so active here I was just so busy, but i will be better here since i badly need an income and I am very much interested yo read your blogs!
SALAMAT ❤️
What did I do?
Hai hello there people. How are you everyone? I just woke up today and so I made my draft here and I was glad that even though with my one month of inactivity, Rusty dear still visits me. Thanks a lot, I was just so glad with I received.
So I've been so very lazy last month, I am worried with !y school projects and paper works so I said to myself that I will put more focused on my study. So yeah I did answer some of my modules, I did my video projects and research, I did also my exams since second semester is about to end.
Last month was very painful, yeah I think I am still not over with my ex based on my latest article, I did also had a dream with again last night. Hmmmm why o whyyy is this woman keep posting on my mind? And I read the comments on my article, one of them asked. Are you still inlove with your ex? I still miss her and yeah I still love her, I believe that we cannot unlove the person we once loved, because they have been the best part of our lives, the happiness, sadness and the memories are still there, though the person left, but the memories is still be cherished.
Do you ever have a lover? A long term relationship. Yeah
Like you got so many experiences, that you both promised that you will choose to stay no matter what happen, that both of you will last forever, that I will never fall in love to another. And you thought it will last forever and that forever you thought ends at the very short time.
I remember when Moira said at her break up. Doesn't mean two people didn't end up together it's a wrong one, instead I will be amaze and say wow I got the privilege of knowing and loving, and from now on I will remember all the happiness from our relationship.
A person who went through a lot the pain and says what she or he feels is really true. It's like accepting that people come and go. That our partners today might be strangers tomorrow. We know nothing with our tomorrow, even if we promised, we can never force ourselves to get back to that person if we were never really meant to be. If they leave they will always leave, we cannot beg them and it's a big NO to beg someone just to stay. No I've been there and when this person Said yes I will stay it's because I AM SORRY FOR YOU NOT BECAUSE I LOVE AND and we don't deserve that, we deserve pure love not that forced one. If they go then let them.
One thing I have learned this year is ACCEPTANCE
To accept to feel free and free. Now I accepted the fact that my ex and I will never be together again, and I accepted that she has her new lover. I do have mine and I also accepted this man for he have shown he's lobe and pure intention even at my bad attitude. Yeah he is.
I have my boyfriend, He is good to me, he is simple and he has the posture I was looking for a man. Sometimes I get angry to him for no reason, I want to break up with him but he never agreed. I like the part that he chose to stay even at my worst. I did say bad words to him, I did block him and unfriended him. But still he's the one to fix me and then get back with him. Maybe because he understands me?
Starting today, I will put all my love to this man, and I am really sorry with the harsh thing I did to him just for him to get hurt and agree for my break up. He never stop sending sorry, he did nothing wrong but then he was sorry, he was afraid of losing me and I am glad that I found the person who treats me better than my past.
Happy Wednesday!
SALAMAT ❤️
I had a Dream
I had a fantasy the previous evening, I witnessed my ex on the occasion we joined in. I saw her embracing other girls, I was desirous but due to my obligation which is to list down the people who where present, I became occupied and wouldn't fret what I recently saw. Later on that occasion, I saw her coming, not to me but rather to the gathering where I am incorporated. She requested one from us like she wants something, they addressed no, and afterward she asked me. I became quiet and attempting to kepp myself caught up with posting names.
It was around 4pm and the occasion was going to end. Then, she sit close to me. She open discussion and afterward we rambled about our previous encounters and what we need to fix that we couldn't . I did cry and I told her that consistently, I've been attempting to contact her by calling, but she isn't accessible, I've been sending her messages however no answer. I likewise inquired as to whether she will acknowledge me despite the fact that I am in the undeniably challenging circumstance, which is I am pregnant with !y present relationship, I cried. I cry in the wake of hearing her responses. She expressed yes with feelings. She hold !y had and said I will acknowledge ypu regardless of anything, including the child you are conveying. Furthermore, from that point forward, I recently cried.
For what reason am I seeing things like this?
For what reason am I seeing my ex through dreaming?
Is it since I missed her, I actually love her?
Or on the other hand it is on the grounds that I am upset and I don't actually adore the individual I am in my current connection?
My fantasy finished and I see myself crying as I awakened. I out of nowhere acknowledged it was only a fantasy, I thought it was without a doubt. I thought it truly worked out, I assumed I truly said my concerns to my ex, and I assumed I am acknowledged by her.
Presently I composed this article at 8:30 am. I just awakened and I made this due to the inclination I am having at present. It's nearly 30 days since I'm over here and presently I am back since I am propelled to expound on my fantasy.
Despite the fact that It was only a fantasy, I am as yet glad that I had a discussion with her, that in my fantasy, she holds my hand, she said she love me, and I saw myself grinning once more. Despite the fact that it was only a fantasy, I will treasure the brief time frame we had together. It resembles adoring her out of the loop.
Is it safe to say that you are know all about the melody Ghost by Justin Bieber? Better believe It's somewhat circumstance. Hard yet need, I'd prefer decided to have dreams with her than not seeing her for eternity.
https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=E3m8sSlDpS4
Much obliged to you for coming to! Have a decent day!
Hi, hello. How are you sponsors, I understand why some of you left, but i promise to get back your support. Still happy to have you.
Good morning
SALAMAT ❤️
Election 2022
Hello guys, warm evening to each and everyone!
How are you guys doing? Hmmmmm how was your casting of votes? Did it went well? I hope so it is. I see some part of Mindanao's election very bad especially to Muslims, they were commiting crime during the election as if they never respect themselves of chosing their leaders.
So as I was saying on my previous article, I am one of the watchers. However I am different, I don't have side to choose, I mean I stand for a neutral watcher because I represent the Parish Pastoral Council for Responsible Voting. So what is PPCRV?
The Parish Pastoral Council for Responsible Voting (PPCRV) is a non-hardliner, non-partisan, non-benefit association partnered with the Roman Catholic Church in the Philippines that attempts to guarantee free, fair and extortion free decisions in the Philippines. The association has been the "residents' arm" of the Commission of Elections beginning around 2010. PPCRV conducts the Unofficial Parallel Count of profits after the political decision.
So since I am one of the Parish Pastoral Council for Responsible Voting, I never expect any personal payments. So we the PPCRV guarantee a free, fair and extortion free decisions in the Philippines, our country.
How did I became a PPCRV watcher?
Last May 4, 2022, we had our briefing about the PPCRV's qualifications, do's and dont's, the attitude that every watchers must have during the election day.
Last May 6, 2022 we had our Final Testing and Sealing of the machine to be used on the election day. We met the Chairperson, Third member, and the Poll clerk on the precinct we assigned. On that day we witness how the machine is turn on, how to start voting, counting of votes, transmitting ER ( Electoral Reports ) and so on. After witnesses, I can really say that the EB ( Electoral Board ) must learn the right process of the machine because in my precinct they find it hard, and they've been repeatedly found problem while following the instructions they are reading. After so many attempts, luckily our teachers have learned, as well as us, poll watchers.
Last May 6, 2022, we had our seminar at our Lady of Fatima Parish together with our priest. On that day they discuss again the qualifications that every watchers must have like ( registered voter of course, good occupation, has not been convicted by final judgement of any election offense or any crime, knows how to read and write in short literate, and not related to the Fourth Civil Degree Of Consanguinity or Affinity to the polling BEI's in the polling place where he seeks appointment as a watcher ) ,how election works, our tasks as a watcher, our rights as a watchers, how does counting pf votes works, how cheating is done before and during the election hours, and many more.
So as a watcher are we allowed to use phone during the election hours?
Yes! We are allowed, because if any problems occur like cheating or a voter is taking photo of his/ her ballot, we could use our cellphones to record the crime that e voter has done and report it directly to the comelec, or it could be use if ever one of the EB members don't allow us or harass us to step outside, we can take a record or a photo during the incident and so we could report it directly to the highest.
What is not allowed to be done as a watcher?
Taking a zoom photo/video of the voter ( ballots and their shaded candidates ) during their voting time.
looking and asking for their opinions
communicating to voters,
blackmailing,
Are voters allowed to bring list of their candidates to be vote?
Yes they are allowed, as long as they are not taking photo on their ballots.
So yesterday May 9, 2022 we arrived at our assigned precinct at 4:30 am. Watchers must arrived first so we could witness the opening of the machine. At exactly 5 am, the Chairperson started the operations and we did our part, to watch. At exactly 6 am, voting hours started. Senior citizens, PWD, pregnants are allowed to vote first.
So far, on my whole day experience of being a watcher, none of our voters committed crime and the voting hours has went very well. At exactly 7 in the evening the Chairperson close the voting hours. After that we had our tasks which is to print and seal important papers. We finished our tasks together with the EB at 11 pm. It's late at night and we still needs to deliver our sealed and the VCM to the LGU.
After sealing, we reported our machine comelec things like ( marking pens, ballot secrecy folder, envelopes, and etc. ) So after we deliver our machine at the Local Government Unit, we take our exit and we ask for the ER ( ELECTORAL REPORT ) and send it on our Parish.
Yesterday was tiring but exciting. It was my first time and my first time is great. I am happy to witness how election works and I did also cast my first ever vote. How about you? Did you successfully cast your vote?
The EB members are great, so far they never treat us poorly nor harass us.
My experience was great and even though i feel so tired, I am glad because I contributed my help to my country. Being a watcher is a challenge, but being a watcher is good. It was a great experience I ever had, and I would love to be a watcher till the next season of voting.
Congratulations to all winners!
I hope your choosen leaders deserved your votes. Thank you!
That would be all guys, have a great evening!
SALAMAT ❤️
Happy Mother's Day
Hello everyone, good evening, I will never let this night end without sending my greetings and gratitude to all of the mothers around the world. Even though I am very busy because of the election for tomorrow, I will still make my time here.
Happy Mother's Day
*A short message to great woman I know*
To my Grandma
Happy mother's day nay. First of all I would like to thank you for taking the responsibility of raising me as a cool kid. I know at the very beginning that taking responsibility is not easy, that being a mother is not that easy, and I know you went through a lot of struggles and pain. I may not be able to help you back then but I promise to return all of you hardships, I promise to finish my study and I can't wait to spoil you with my own money, can't wait to serve you and let you rest like a queen. I'm sorry if sometimes I won't listen to you, I'm sorry if sometimes I get mad at you for some reasons, and I'm sorry if sometimes I answer you with my angry voice. We both know that for some reason we had a fight, but after that fight, I will cook you dinner so we could talk and open to each other.
Why is it hard to say sorry to your parents?
I told grandma sorry once, that was when I realized I was over, that I am wrong and I hurt her feelings, I realized that when I heard her crying at dawn, and I see her teary eyes at morning. I felt guilty, and so I can't take my pride anymore, I ask her for forgiveness and she cried. From that moment I've been hating myself for hurting my grandma or for giving her the treatment she never deserved. On that day I promised to myself and I also promised to God that I will make a change.
To you grandma, I love you, you are very important to me and I will never let anyone hurt you or say bad words towards you. I will protect you no matter what, until the very end I will give back the love that you and I had.
To my Sister Maria
I know being a mom for the first time is quite hard. I can really say that sometimes you are so much worried with your daughter when you find she is not okay or you feel uncomfortable with the response she had. I understand that because you've been through a lot of tears and pain, we all went through with out prayers to save our baby girl, and it's a miracle that she is fine now. That's why we should always be thankful to God for He is very kind to us.
I hope your mommy journey will be blessed and you and your partner will leave a healthy living.
Happy mother's day.
To all mother around the world
Happy mother's to all mother around the world. You guys are all the best. A mother's love is priceless and a mother's care is unique. I hope all mother on this day is happy with their family.
Happy mother's day to all mom.
Have a great evening!
For those who have hurt me... Thank you
Hello everyone, how are you guys doing? I've been so very busy these days because just this morning I went to San Isidro Elementary School my old school for the final testing and sealing as a member of the watchers this coming election. Last May 4, 2022 we had our PPCRV seminar at banday LGU, and so just this morning we had our testing pf the machine and observe how does election works.
I went there at 9 am and the sun was so angry with me like haha burning the whole me, but I don't have a choice haha, just for this coming election I needed to sacrifice myself with the heat weather. Almost fainted haha I forget to bring a bottle of water, yeah because I am not used to exposing myself or over exposed to sunlight, I usually stayed home, and so If going out with a jacket or umbrella ohhhh common! My head hurts and my skin would go red.
So it is very important that we should apply a sunscreen guys, for the sun protection.
So anyways, got home from that old school, trying to relax myself here making this blog. I got this topic just now, I was just writing, a free writing you know something like, you don't have any topics but because of your hands, you had it free, so you can write haha. Just like that.
I just realized while laying, I see those people who have hurt me happy. I am not saying I am not happy, I am as well. I was just like questioning myself. Aren't they guilty? Aren't they sad or feeling sorry?
I was just wondering.... If those who have hurt me remembered me. If they are sorry or they have realized that what they have done wrong to me.
Anyways for you guys here's my message for you.
I thank you for the experience, I thank you because of the lesson and the growth. I have been growing and now I realize I was wrong in begging you from the very first place. I was wrong of afraid losing you when you were not scared of not having me. I thank you because you made !e strong, now I am ready to face the same and new pain. I thank you for the tears I have wasted because it proves that I can manage to comfort myself and heal my own pain. I thank you because you were one of my inspirations, because of you I am eager to fight with my own battle.
You guys made a soft hearted person into solid. And now that I am one, I am no longer needing you, yet you came, approaching me and saying sorry.
Forgiving is easy, but the memories and the things you have done is hard to forget.
So in the end I would always be thankful to you.
I am not angry nor planting eagerness with you guys, I am very much thankful as I said. You were once my friends, and I love you guys, and they said You can never unlove a person you once loved, so I guess I understand why I found it hard in getting over you. However I accepted the fact that there are people who came for lesson, some are for pain. And I know who you are, and I clearly understand your purpose. So I thank you all.
That would be all guys, actually I made this on my drafts yesterday since I'm very busy, and I finished it today in a hurry because I'm about to attend my seminar for the PPCRV watcher this coming election 2022.
Have a great day everyone!
SALAMAT ❤️
Hiking with the Boys
So hello everybody! After five days now I made my blog here, can't deny the fact that I've been so very busy these days, and so I cannot make my work here.
So hi, just waiving for you!
I am busy with my projects and any other school works. You know !any were stressed students, including me! Haha so many chuchu, especially to us college student, life is really hard hehe. So many sent modules. But the fact that I am learning, yeah all I need to do is to study hard. Being a student in the morning and a worker at night.
So since I have my P.E subject, it is expected that some activities can be done alone or in a team and in close door or outdoor. So on this module, we are asked to make a blog to a place which is good for hiking. So it is an outdoor activity.
Of course when we say hike, we should always bring our essential system, so we have here ten essential system, navigation, first aid kid, fire, sun protection, headland or flashlight, knife, emergency shelter, extra water, extra food, extra clothing. So why are those essential? Because it is all needed for emergency, and it is required for our own safety.
Yesterday around 2pm, me and my male classmates decided to finally do our task, later on that day, we all met at our classmates house as he knows where we are going to hike. So we all agreed that we will be going to Busay, Falls at Punong Southern Leyte. Busay can be found in the mountain, so maybe my classmate recommend this one because it is said the place is cool and the water is so refreshing.
So from their house to our spot, we need to walk for 20-30 minutes before we arrive.
At first we are all looking good hehe. We all decided that each of us will lead the vlog so that our teachers will appreciate all of our presence in one video.
While walking, we need to talk about anything else, just doing vlog for our p.e subject haha. The sun is very angry so we need a cover for our face to avoid redness,you know, the heat of the sun now is very different from before.
So while doing the vlog we can't stop ourselves from laughing, and haha this is a great memory we had.
As we arrived at our spot, I can really say that this place is cute, not so wide it has a cute falls and the water is so refreshing. It is surrounded with tree's and stones, the water falls is so cold and so clean. We could enjoy our moment here as we relax breathing fresh air.
We all had accomplished one of our activity as a team and that is a great achievement for all of us.
On our way home, I got this photo requested because this spot for me is quite cool. Only shadow of ourselves can be seen because of the reflection, that is cool. Hehe even though during our vlog, sun has been very angry, we just go with the flow as it it for our grades.
As we arrived at my classmates house, we had pancit Canton and sandwiches, and satisfied ourselves.
That would be all guys thank you. Its good to be back!
How are you everyone? I've been so very busy and missing you around, I thank you again for staying on my list and for the support you guys gave. You all are beat among the best!
SALAMAT ❤️
Living life to the fullest
Hello everyone how are you guys? How was the weather? Here in Philippines, hotness overload! So anyways, I have seen so many sad articles today, I just hope that what you guys are going through will be okay. I suggest you to pray and trust God. With Him nothing is impossible.
So I just finished my photoshoot, kinda tire but still doing my job here, of course I needed to be here. I need to keep working, everyday, even though feeling tired and almost give, I still keep on moving.
I started my photoshoot at 10 am and ends at 4 pm, so tired. For 7hours I am standing and exchanging clothes. So hard but just like I said, I must keep moving.
So anyways I am okay now, resting here in bed. So these past few weeks, I've been so busy too, because of the summer feels, the hotness and because mr.sun is very angry I need to get shower hehe.
Last April 16, 2022 me ate Cha, Ate Cha's friends and my man went to Libhu Hill Resort Restaurant at Maasin City. It was my first time and I found it very fun. The place is wide and perfect! The food we ordered is quite tasty and it satisfied ourselves.
After we had our food, we then enjoy ourselves at the pool. I never had the chance to take photos since it was around 6 pm and it's too dark there. And i never had the chance to take photo which swimming because my phone might dropped to the pool, no no way.
This experience was great. I am very happy that I went to that kind of resort. The food are so expensive and as usual ate Cha payed for it. Hehe
The next day, April 17 Me, Ate Cha, and ate cha's friend the three of us went to Bal's Event Pavilion and Resort at Libagon Philippines, I made my article about this one but I just want to include it again here hehe.
The place is great! So refreshing, they also had pool here for adults and for kids. So here we had street foods and it was perfect for the weather. The place is quite expensive too, the entrance per head is almost 200 pesos, since we are 3 ate Cha's payment was great also haha.
So after we had our food and enjoy talking, we had our swimming time hehhe. We had night swimming same at Libhu, so i never had a photo.
So yesterday, Ate Cha invited me to go at sogod to her friends house and there we will have foods and drinks. So since, I am bored I said okay and we went there happily.
I am very happy to have these people, invites me to hang out with, without them I never had the chance to met new place, to explore. Now I can really say that I am living a happy life because I am enjoying. The important thing here is that I love what I am doing nothing else.
Life is so short and it should be spent happily. We all should be happy living, and everyday is a reason for us to be happy.
Thanks tp Almighty for giving us the very good weather after so much pain of Typhoon Odette and Agaton.
Hope all the victims could recover as soon as possible and with the help of everyone.
That will be all guys, I was just sharing to you my happy moments. Have a great day!
SALAMAT ❤️
If only I am Rich
Good evening fellow Americans charot! What a beautiful evening, peaceful and sound! How was your day went? Was it good enough? Good? Or bad? Or very bad? My day was great! I had my gym at 3 pm and ends at 5 pm. So I have my two hours of losing calories hehe. I'll show you my progress on my next blog.
So I just got home from work, you know I'm a part time worker, and I like to work. Instead of just playing mobile games, I'd rather watch the store and receive my payment, and I can never had that while doing nothing, right? This stage of life should be in a practical, and at my age, I guess this is a small practice on my future job. Soon!
So laying here in bed, feeling tired, my mind suddenly think about the life of being rich. Looking at those living a very comfortable life, financially stable life made me think of myself.
What if I am rich?
Would that be possible in my future? Hmmmmm this pushed me to work hard, and study hard.
I wonder what those rich person doing right now.. Having a yaya doing the house chores, cooking and serves them their meal and carry their things. I wonder if their used clothes will be use twice, I wonder if they eat the same restaurant everyday. How are they doing? Hmmm maybe some of then right now are celebrating, shooting, or some were just laying, do nothing but still can afford.
Now do you like their living? Because me I do, I do love to become rich, and if given the chance I will use my power to help other people.
If I am rich, I will help those who badly needed help, I will give them the inspiration to continue living and change their lives. I mean, been feeling sorry watching this kid, looking around for food and ask someone to give them money, like this kid should be smiling, he or she should be studying, they deserve to be happy, and looking at their smile right after they received a small help? Is the greatest. You know they are happy enough with five peso, one piece of biscuit, how much !ore if they will be given the chance to live in a normal way. And if only i could afford, i will never turn my back to those people.
If I am rich I will still be good to my family, friends and neighbors. I heard someone sharing, her auntie was once living in a very poor family, one day she met this guy and then it change her life and her attitude. Before she asked for any seasoning that can be found on their area but now they never talk and this lady change a lot. She never share what she had and became strict, and even her own family, she never give the support that they need. How sad this situation could be. If ever I will soon become rich, I will never forget those people who helped me when I have nothing, who assists me through my ups and downs, and especially I will never abandon my family with my blessings. Instead, I will be more grateful and friendly, the more the merrier, so If i will be rich I will still remain the same.
If I am rich I will give my grandmother's thing. All she wants, all the things she wished for, all that could make her happy. I will give her tour around the world, I will let her live like a queen, then of that will happen, then grandma should never had her pains and sickness. She should just be waiting for the to rise and the sun to set. Because if i am rich, I will spoil my family with my own money. I hate it when I feel that my grandma wants this or that but she cannot have because of the short of the money. If only I am rich, if only, grandma will never experience this very painful and awful life.
If i a rich, i will buy things I wished for. I will go to places I want, i will do whatever i want, i will go to school, and i will finish !y study with my favorite course, i will spoil myself with the things i love and i will be happy and always be thankful and will always share my blessings.
And if only I am rich?
I will always be thankful to God. I will never forget all of !y prayers before having this blessings, I will be forever thankful for his kindness and love. And O will be forever his worshiper, say his name loud and i will share everything he will provide.
How about you, what would you like to have if ever you are born rich?
That will be all guys thanks for reaching!
Have a great day!
SALAMAT ❤️
Letting my keyboard type its sentence
Hello everyone! How are you feeling? Me I had a great day today because I had my second day of work out hehe. Working out is so refreshing, you know losing calories is not a big deal to me since I am already skinny, but I just want to gain strength and make my body shape more shaper haha. Just like that. I am doing my modeling so this is also a great advantage of me.
I just had my photoshoot yesterday, I am very an occupied person hayst no resting. Here are some of my shots
So for this blog, since I am bored right now I'll do crazy thing I usually do. Hehe this is just for fun and I am doing this to make you happy hehe.
I am letting my keyboard its sentence, I mean I will start with the word HI and them I'm going to click the middle part pf the keyboards suggested word hehe.
Just like this, so I'm going to click for, and so on.
So let's start hehehhe I guess I will be making 2-3 paragraph hehhe just for fun.
Let the game begin!
Part I
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HAHAHA so we have our first paragraph now, HAHAHHA I can't stop from laughing, I think I'm crazy right now haha. So This part talks about Terence McKenna and Frankie, haha who are those people? Can't stop from laughing right now.
Okay I'll make another one haha. But this time, I'm going to click anywhere on my keyboards choice.
Part II
Hello everyone I know that is a good idea to flight turkey and I am not so sure about the same time as I can say is beautiful I am now on the list I have a great idea to just imagine something else I need to go there and I can get you too baby girl in the end of this week of the month of April will do it for you guys are having this feeling of the following statements about the halo store are they still there for a few minutes and I don't know why rain here is that ok I love you too baby too much to you later love you guys are having a great day with your achievement friend and believe that is how I love Jesus Christ is the best way to clean the house chores and while I love you and miss my high school group of people in Baybay in the morning and before I leave for work for me to come over to play mobile legends of the hidden temple in Jerusalem I'm going to bed and cover it is not that skillful enough with the food and anything else you need be I can say is beautiful and I am not so active due date with ate cha bhabe wakoy lingaw ba ba diay ka reply from you and give you things are going to be happy birthday to you friend and happy to be there for you guys are doing well and he was and I will be all the way to get rid the body and hope you are doing ok and I will send it to you and your time sa ka account for the first time and I will send it out in the end of your time sa ka reply to my email is the best time.
HAHAHA I'm sorry but I cannot control myself! HAHAHHA this is so fun and I am now suffering from stomach ache due to over laugh haha.
I'm sorry about this thing hehe I am just bored guys so please be with me, you will promise will laugh if you read my Work haha.
Anyways, how are you handsome and lovely sponsors of mine? Doing great? I am happy for having you here guys for staying on my sponsors list. So much grateful for you guys. Thank you again.
Have a great day guys! And Good night!
SALAMAT ❤️
Been losing friends, and feeling ignored
Hello everyone, you guys still awake? Hmm I guess I can still have your attention at this time. You know writing blog at this midnight hour is quite good, you can focus on writing in everything in silence and peace. I found peace at midnights, no more crying baby, no more children shouting, no more footsteps, music, and any other noise that is usually made in the morning.
So as I lay here on my bed, this topic came into my mind, and I feel like I want to write something about this thing.
You know, your Elementary, secondary and tertiary friends are changing right? And some of our elementary friends are no longer with us, even at secondary, we had our closure but something is like changing. One of your friend will ignore you, one will step aside you, will leave your circle and will no longer connected to you.
Have you ever been is a circle of friend were you give your each other's Facebook password account, borrows your phone anytime, anywhere, buy you and give you things you love, cant walk without you, made your their happiness, set you on their phone lockscreen something like so close. A BFF they called. Best Friend Forever.
Way back on my elementary, I have my Bff's, we are five and we do things like I mentioned above. When pur grade level were up and our section is separated, it already had the gap. Something like awkward. The longer the time we separate the less talk and bonding we had. Unlike when we are still classmates, we sit in a one table, or next to each other.
As the years goes by and I graduated my grade 6 level, that circle were broken.
I even started to get jealous, have you? Because in a circle there will always be a favorite person of you, and you will also be one of their favorite, and I get jealous when I feel like I am not their favorite. It all started when I am in my secondary, I had here four friends also, all female. I noticed that they set lockscreen only their face not those photo that I am in. I just let them, I am always good and understanding. One day, I had my dysmenorrhea and this one friend asked to go with her at the canteen to buy snacks, I refused her offer and said ask those two because I cannot get myself to walk with her since I'm so much in pain. Sadly these two other lady were busy on thier phones and she the one who asked for a walk gets mad.
Sending message or Group message was so useful before, we are not yet too exposed with Facebook and any other online media's. Now we got e message saying, #fakefriends, #useless kinda upsetting word to us. That day started the awkwardness on our friendship. The fact that we get mad to each other was the main reason we forgot our friendship. Our relationship was all good, we had so many bondings and crazy memories, how sad the reality that these person were no longer connected and broken. So my high school group of friend is also broken.
Now that I am currently in my college level, I can really sy that I am losing and had been ignored with the people I treated as my friend. Now I never had them on my side, they never like or react on my Facebook status, they always do it before. Now they never tag me on their shared post status, never add me on their group chats and never been able to have bonding with them.
We used to have food trips, but now, I guess they do but without me.
Realizing that they are no longer want me to be with them made me question myself. What did I do wrong? Am I a bad person?
One day, I open my TikTok account and scroll. I saw this video of Alex Gonzaga saying, You will never get mature of you dont lose friend, now after hearing those words, I realize she was right, because I am still happy now without my treated bff's, and I am now more mature and my life still gets better without them. The saddest thing here is that you still want your friendship but it is hard to get back the trust and love to each othe.
It is painful to watch them happy with their new friends, it was painful and I am jealous. But now that I grew up and understand the Friendship life, I'm fine. I just have to support them with their happiness.
Now most of my friends are males, having a make friends is really cool. They don't talk so much , like making a single person a subject, no men are different and I can really differentiate that.
On my last article I showed to you my male friends, yeah they're my college friends now, and I am now living a happy life. I just realize that I need to love myself more before anything else, because in the end we always have ourselves nothing else.
Now those people were no longer connected with me, when we crossed our path it's like we never knew our each other's name. I'm afraid to say hi first, knowing that they will never wave me back. So i just let it go with the flow, if they sau hi, I will say hello, if they will ignore me then I will also ignore them.
Its like giving back the treatment they give on me. They get what they deserve and i get what i deserve. Because when it comes to friendship, I am really good. I am good to those who's good to me. And your actions really matter, if you do bad, I'll give it back to you, if you do good, I'll be good to you. Just like that.
And right now? I am just living, not anymore afraid of losing, not anymore when I am already contented with myself. I can still be happy without them, and I believe I can still have few but real friends. That enough and good for me.
Self love really is the best. Losing a friend is close to heartbreak, it is painful and sad. Just saying what I felt before. Am I wrong? And after that we also need to move on and accept that we are no longer the friend that they need.
Your friend today will never be your friend tomorrow and for the step of your life. Some are extra, some are for reason, for inspiration and some are just the seasoning of your life.
So I just accepted the fact that some will ignore me, just let it be, life must go on with or without them.
Life is everyday changing.
That will be all thank you! Have a great day!
SALAMAT ❤️
@Lovelyfaith
