"Feeling ill Monday with a sudden Twist!"

|#238| 3rd Article of the Month

|04.04.2022 @7:52 PM|

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Good day my ever supportive Readcash fam!😊👋 How are you today? What makes your day busy? Office work? Modules? Or Household routine?

Its the first Monday of the month, I should start it with an overwhelming feeling but I ended up feeling ill today. I've got a headache due to weather changes. I felt tired from a sleepless night, last night. I felt tired to move around the house. I even missed a day of my new morning routine, which is zumba. I just want to sleep the whole day but I can't neglect the fact that I need to help out my mother in doing the household chores. While she was doing their papa's laundries, I was the one who did the laundries. And she fed our pigs while I was the one who gave food for our pet dog. As an assistant I am to her, I did the best I can to divert my attention from feeling ill, but unfortunately, while writing this piece, I can't help myself but cry.

Let me ask you, what would you feel when you ask your special someone, "Do you still love me?" And he/she will answer you, "Tog na diha" (Just go to sleep). Aigoo! Its a very long story to tell but I think, this is not the right time for me to share the whole story.

Earlier this morning, I was being scolded because I went home late. Very late. It was almost 12 midnight and I was the only one who was left in the waiting shed, where the owner of the house put the Internet Vendo Machine. My mama asked me why I came home pretty late, I just told her that the Internet connection was not stable. I lied to her and papa. I don't want them to know that MGD was the reason. I don't want them to know that MGD and I are not okay.

I chatted his elder sister about it. She said, maybe he said it all because he was drunk. I even told myself that maybe it was just a prank or whatsoever, but knowing that he chatted me in that way, its impossible for a drunk man. Even if we are drunk, we can still remember everything. (Insert: Kaya nga ayaw ko maniwala sa excuse nang isang taong lasing kapag nahuli na nagloko, tas sasabihing, "lasing ako nun."Tch) Earlier today, MGD messaged me, giving me another excuses. At talagang inaway ko siya. I embarrassed myself, I even cried last night for that very reason. I told him a lot, this and that, especially about our future, but he gave his replies, sounding like he pushes me away. Ang sakit lang sa feeling na, you invested yourself to someone pero ganun lang kadali sa kanya na ipagtulakan ka palayo.

As for now, iniisip ko nalang, baka need lang namin nang space and time. That maybe, we can still work it out, hoping that there's still something for the both of us to work out.

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What is that "sudden twist" I mean?

At around 2 pm, my mama woke me up and told me that we should go to our barrio proper because she will be paying our debt for the feeds they bought for our pigs. I told her that I don't want to but she said, "Get up in there. You want to lose weight but you keep on lying down in bed. Argh!" Hindi nalang din ako pumalag kasi parang tigre si mader. Lols. We just walked going there with my pet dog and I watched TikTok videos almost an hour. Around 3:30 pm, we go home. A sudden twist of mood, I made TikTok contents because I don't want to drain myself from thinking about my relationship problem. If you want to watch my craziness, here's the links;

https://vt.tiktok.com/ZSdjEjANR/

https://vt.tiktok.com/ZSdjKoqQA/

After making those videos, I just laughed at myself. I am gone crazy, right? But, I feel better naman kahit papa'no. I think, "parang" ma-aaply ko yung mga previous blogs patungkol sa break up. Oh crap! (Laughing) And that's it for this blog my lovely and handsome Readcash sisters and brothers. I really thought na hindi ako makakagawa na naman ng article for today. Thank God at nairaos naman. Thank you for spending your time. Take good care of yourselves!❣️

PRAISE AND GLORY BE ALL TO GOD!😇

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Just Love!❤️

@renren16

xoxo(*˘︶˘*).｡*♡

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