Reasons

It's the 1st of July! We are already on the second half of the year. Do you agree that time flies so quickly these days? I have set some goals during the start of this year that I wanted to achieve by the end of the year. I even published an update on my goals during the 3rd month. However I decided to not pressure myself by taking a step back or to change direction because there are a lot of things that I needed to prioritize first.

Most of you know that I have a lot of debts and I am in the process of having that debt free life. I know that there are other goals that I set that is not related with money like getting fit and healthy. 6 months have already passed, I am still far away from my target weight and still obese. LOL. I had a lot of reasons why I did not start with my diet and exercise.

Reason no. 1 – our digital weighing scale did not have a battery
Reason no. 2 – it was so hot especially during summer and even up to now. But I know the next reason that I would be saying is during the rainy season, the floor is wet so I cannot jog. LOL. I have reasoned those 2 a couple of years ago
Reason no. 3 – it's pandemic. I need to eat. LOL.
Reason no. 4 – I do not have enough money to buy myself some chicken breast, fruits, vegetables and protein shake. You can include a blender since our blender got broken either late last year or early this year
Reason no. 5 – I always feel sleepy. LOL
Reason no. 6 – I do not have a smart watch. I need it because the last time that I exercised (in less than 5 minutes), I already felt I was going to faint that is why I stopped. I sat and had the fan directed to me but I still felt my heart was beating so fast so I laid down. After that experience, I never had any form of exercise

A lot of reasons right? LOL. One of my favorite saying "Kapag gusto may paraan. Kung ayaw maraming dahilan" or in short, "If there's a will, there's a way". Has it ever happened to you? You wanted to do something yet you had a lot of reasons and you ended up not doing it? I always have a reason for why I cannot do anything. It is something that I really need to change.

Do I lack motivation? Determination? Inspiration? With the last one I know that I am not really inspired. The last time that I was determined in getting fit was when I was in love. LOL. I was so motivated, determined and inspired back then. Now I feel like I am less motivated and less determined. My reason for getting fit is basically because of my health. I have been operated twice already yet I am still not changing my lifestyle. I am about to finish my pills in regulating my menstrual period but still I haven't lose any weight. Pills and losing weight were the things that my OB-GYNE have adviced me to do but I never exercised.

But this day I was able to weigh myself because I already bought a battery yesterday. It was around the same weight during late 2019. Should I say that I did good for maintaning that weight? So this morning I was already decided to not eat rice and bread. However when my mom and our helper called me, I forgot about my diet. LOL. When I was in the middle of eating my food, I realized that I should not be eating rice but I cannot stop since I have already eaten a few tablespoons. Reasoning out? LOL. I just continued eating and at the back of my mind I was telling myself that I can start again on the 16th of July or on August 1. Maybe by then I can already buy the things that I want to make me more motivated. Those were the things that was on my mind since lunch time.

There were numerous of instances wherein I have delayed a lot of things because of my reasons which then leads me to having wrong decisions in life. One of them was when I found out that I have a 7mm gallstone. I did not have myself operated even after finding out about it because my reason was that we do not have money for my hospitalization. I only went into surgery when my gallbladder was already inflammed causing an intense sharp pain on my upper mid abdomen. A pain that no any other medication can relieve the pain. My anaesthesiologist said that what happened to me was already life threatening.

With all the reasons that had stopped me from achieving my goal of getting fit and healthy, I never focused on the reasons "why I wanted that in the first place". It is something that can help me focus more on doing it than just basing from what I lack. I admit that I focused mainly on the reasons "why I cannot start". Over the years I kept on saying that I will get fit but only ended up not doing it. Why? Same reasons as mentioned above. But I need or I must change that kind of thinking because it intercepts from what I really want. My reasons of wanting to do a thing should be prevail over the reasons why I cannot do a thing. This applies to you as well if you are also experiencing the same thing. If there is something that we want to do, we have to do it instead of postponing it for another day. Most common reasons of many people is time and/or money. Just like with my reasons, there are a lot of conditions that I have set but in reality I can actually get fit without a smart watch or a blender. There are times that we complicate things through our reasoning and that hinders us from advancing. I hope that in the coming days, our reasons for wanting something would drive us into achieving it.

P.S. lead image was taken this morning when I weighed myself. Please excuse my chubby toes and my long toenails. LOL.