Forgetfulness

Where did I place my wallet? Have you seen my keys? Where are my glasses? Those are just some of the questions that we usually hear from the elderly people when we were a kid. But these questions are now common not only from the oldies but also to some young adults. What is it that you usually forget? Was it your phone or something that you needed to do but you forgot about it because of other things? Being the errands girl in the family, I usually forget to buy some common pantry items. Yes, I do have a market list before going to the supermarket but there were some items wherein my parents or our helper would tell me about that item when I am about to step out of the house. Of course I cannot write it on my list anymore since I was already in a rush so I tend to forget about those last minute requests. I would only realize about it after I left or when I am already at home. Sometimes my dad would get mad at me because I did not write it down.

I am not sure if you have remembered it but I said before that one of the reasons why I joined read.cash was because I feel like my brain has been getting a little rusty. I have been at home for half a decade now and I have not been using my brain that much ever since I resigned. In 2018, I used my brain when I started my own business. I thought of the business name and even the logo. I also did some food costing and when I made a Facebook page for my business 2 years ago, it was a challenge for my brain because of the captions that I had to say in my posts. I even level it up  during Christmas countdown as I had to design every picture for 100 days and thought of a caption. It would be too plain if I will just write "100 days to go until Christmas" on the photo and no caption or whatsoever right? Let us be honest, making quality captions are really challenging don't you think? Pretty sure all of us have experienced it on noise.cash. I know it is easy for some but there are also those who have struggled and is struggling on what they have to say.

Late 2019, I joined a photoblogging platform where I met a lot of great people like @ARTicLEE, @bbghitte, @Bloghound @Bjorn, @bmjc98, @Firenze, @Grecy095 and @Judith1969. I apologize if I missed your name. This is the reason why my article is entitled, "forgetfulness". Since I have a lot of pictures of food from the restaurants that I have eaten in the past or the places that I have been to, I blogged about it. I needed to talk more because 1 photo is considered as 1 slide and the minimum per slide is 200 characters. Was it characters or words? I told you I forgot about it. LOL. So other than giving a restaurant review or a little background history, I also recalled what transpired when those pictures were taken. It was a good way for me to test my memory right? The platform started to have problems just around the time when COVID was starting to hit all of us.

However, when we experienced pandemic, it was also the same year when I was hospitalized for my surgery. Then after a few months, I noticed that I became forgetful but only to recent events. I was emotional during the first few weeks probably because of my surgery and I was quarantined for safety precaution. I can still remember some past events prior to my second surgery but not after my surgery. I blamed the anaesthesia that was used on me because it was spinal anaesthesia. It was not the case when I had general anaesthesia during my first surgery. That is why I was so thankful when I joined read.cash late 2020 because I will be able to use my brain to produce quality articles. As much as I wanted to use the food photos that I have years ago, I couldn't because I do not know if those restaurants are still in business or even if they do, I do not know if they still have the same quality of food and service. With regards to the places that I have been to, I am really not good with regards to travel blog even if I have read some articles from ARTicLEE, @Momentswithmatti and @LykeLyca.

Did you notice that I had to push myself everyday to publish an article whether it was only about how my day went or a story of my life but with a little lesson towards the end? It is because I wanted to put my brain into use. I love it when I had to make a recap on how my 2021 went because I had to recall the important events that happened each month and I was glad that I was able to make an article about it without cheating. I did not check my Gallery for photos that I took during all the months of 2021. You see, I actually "had" a sharp memory when growing up. Every important dates or events, I remember all of it. I was really good with numbers and memorization. One of the many reasons why my dad wanted me to also be a lawyer. Even my friends would sometimes let me recall a particular past event because they know that I will be able to enlighten them whenever we would go down memory lane. Sometimes I even remembered the clothes that we wore. But all of a sudden with just a *poof* or with just a snap of a finger, I became forgetful. There were incidents that happened and then I would forget about it after a week or 2. My dad who is a senior would have to remind me about that particular incident or conversation and I had this loading face. LOL. I have really forgotten about a lot things ever since my second surgery. Even some people that I had constant communication virtually on noise.cash. Probably because I find it hard to remember some things now. Too much stress maybe. Am I stress? I have already forgotten. LOL. Based on my smartwatch, I am mot.

Have you ever thought about that day when all your memory will slowly fade away? I am scared just by thinking about it. *teary-eyed* If you were in my place, what do you think should I do? Should I make a written diary of my day? Or save it on my Notes app so that it would be easier if I were to recall or search for some events or conversations? Should I drink some memory enhancers medicine? I guess I should learn how to play some memory game like mahjong or any other games available on PlayStore to improve my brain function don't you think? Let us just hope and pray that this forgetfulness is not something serious and just a slight side effect of anaesthesia or being at home for half a decade.

April 10, 2022

P.S. lead image is a photo of me.