Am I F(s)ine?

Date: September 18,2021
Author: Sequoia

"Breath. It is just a bad day, not a bad life."

The statement above is actually my today's mantra. The moment I got up from my cozy bed, my heart feels heavy already. I have no clue why do I feel so gloomy. It feels like my heart is going along with the weather condition here in our area today.

Gloomy.

Rainy.

Sad.

Lonely.

Blue.

No matter how hard I tried to just shake it off, it won't just go away. And that's when I choose to give up and let is consume me and burn every hope and positivity in every inch of my body.

Sometimes, I think we also need to feel such things and be reminded again that it is completely okay not to be okay.

Positivity isn't always the answer. There are moments that all we need to do is to accept things. Accept the fact that there will be days where you don't feel like doing anything. Learn to accept things and don't try to suppress any emotions you feel. Face it. Deal with it. May it be good or bad. It's part of being a human.

Anyhow, this sentiment might be the best time for me to check my five Fs. And I would like to thank @FarmGirl for her article about Our Five Fs. And @emily2u for encouraging me to check my 5 Fs too hihi.

What are we waiting for? Let's get it on!

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Family

• To be honest? Me and my mom are not in good terms as of the moment. And there's a big possibility that this is the reason of my mood today. We just had a small fight last night and I feel bad about the words that I have said to her. As much as I wanted to share to you all the reason behind our misunderstanding, but I think I am just gonna do it some other day when I am finally okay. Nevertheless, I am planning to make it up to her tomorrow or later. When I got the chance and calmness to do so.

Fitness

• Okay. I must admit that I am not really doing good in this area. My fitness is getting worst every single say. I really lack of discipline. Although I am trying my best to fight my laziness, my mind would always win. Well, I am letting it to win actually. I haven't been exercising almost 2 weeks now and I have seen how it affects my holistic health. Procrastinating at its finest eh?

Financial

• I am the type of person who always get worried about my finances. I am afraid that I might run out of money and starve to death. That is why I always make sure that I will earn even just a few bucks every day. Even if I have readcash and noisecash, I still make sure to find other part time jobs and sidelines where I could earn money. As of now, I can still provide for my family and have a little savings. And I am grateful with that.

Friends

• So far so good with this area. Me and my bestfriends still do some catch ups with each other despite of having a tight schedule. Actually, we are actually planning to have a date this coming October before one of them gets married. One thing that I love about them is that they are so understanding. Our treatment to each other never changes regardless of our individual life events, distance and time. They will always be there whenever I need them. I must say that I am so lucky with my bestfriends and I wish them all the best things in life.

Fun

• Fun? Hmmmm. When was the last time that I even let myself enjoy and be pampered? I can't remember anymore. Nah, was just kidding. We just did some quick getaway last month and I must say that I really got the relaxation and rest that I need that moment. Well, sort of. Okay. Let's cut the crap and I am gonna be honest already. It's been a long time since I had a genuine fun or enjoyment. I have a lot of things that I want to do because I am so stress lately. I wanna treat myself and buy the things that I want for myself. However, I still need to save for our daily needs. I look older than my age hihi.

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Closing Thought

It is a must that we check our Five Fs and evaluate if they are all okay. Maintaining a balance to everything is the key to have a happy and peaceful life. Remember that too much of everything is toxic to the nature.