It's 4 days unproductive day for me, not 4days, its 1week and 3 days rather. I have this feeling that suddenly disappears from my mood and suddenly gone from those who have been happy lately and want to grind here on two platforms, but suddenly disappears also because of my emotions that it's easy to change. you know i hate this feeling, i get angry quickly, i get angry and chocky even with a little things really. Arrghh! Mr. squidward in sponge bob anime i feel you now, 🤧 maybe when you get older, you get annoyed all of a sudden without realizing it, and I also let the person ruin my mood or should I say my day.
I hate the feeling that you always look wrong even if you don't do anything wrong, i hate the people in my circle, or should i say with me here at home, they always make you look bad or you are always wrong,that you don't do anything good at home but the truth is that day by day you improve your self, you always do the things that they want but what they can see is you're wrong always, and I hate that, I really hate this kind of people. I can say my life right now is just living for the sake of living because I can't do what I want to do, I want to be able to save so i can go home next year.
I also want to work hard every day and spend my time on noisecash but I'm always distracted on facebook and at the end of the day I'm just wasting my precious time playing video games and watching tiktok videos and short videos as well in Facebook. .this has been my hobby for a long time, even before that im not joining here at readcash im just wasting my time to my social media accounts. that when I'm not in the mood, the funny videos that I see in my newsfeed are my stress relievers that the anger, annoyance and problems I feel are slowly disappearing. They bring my mood back to normal and I just become quiet but still scrolling my social media accounts.
Its really hard to be like this, that it's easy to change the mood because it's hard to handle, it's like I'm eng-eng (crazy) who gets angry all of a sudden which shouldn't be. This is the mood I want to change but I can't, but I wasn't like this before, I suddenly became like this. Maybe because stress is also on things and problems at home as well.
It's September 29 now that I'm not aware haha I guess it's really like this when you're not studying and you don't do much, you don't know what day and date it is, as long as you wake up every day, it's that okay for you haha. (talking my self) I posted that this morning on noisecash lol. So of course september report is tomorrow again, it's just a matter of time! When I just reported my august earnings but tomorrow is the end of september nanaman haha. Gosh! but I can't report my September monthly tommorrow because I converted all my earnings into fiat the whole month to buy more household necessities and also pay for our electricity at home, and even rusty didn't visit me the whole week since I got busy on my sister's occasion. So i didn't much accumulate bch here the whole month. It's also one of the things that annoys me because no matter what I do, my income doesn't grow in my wallet lol. Highs! Mahirap maging mahirap. 🤧
All i want to do is play video games and watch videos on facebook the whole day, but i also visit noisecash so that somehow i can still earn money, and also here in readcash im active reading some of articles here, if only i could earn to read I'll just do it haha, it's easier to read here rather than to write, I have a hard time writing especially now that I only write the title haha lol.
Reading some other article here it makes me motivated too, I remember my life plans and things I want to do when I have enough money and I save, I will continue it no matter what. I want to think about it especially when I lose my interest to write and read here even grind. reading article here is it brings me back to my trance that I need to work hard, to reach everything I dream of in life. Thanks for you all article that makes me inspired and motivated too.
Thank you for reading my dramas and rants in life, im also sorry if i wasted your time on my useless article. Keepsafe 💖
~Sensaii 🦋
Same sis. Feel ko napaka unproductive ko kasi may mga times talaga na hindi ako nakakapag online dito eh