Face that could stop a clock!
****Beauty?**** Who told you that you dont have one?
***Beauty is in the eye of the beholder,***No matter how many times i heard this old adage, still I'm not convinced because i grew up with a thought that i have a kind of face that could stop a clock, it means i find myself plain and ugly! That's why at the end of this article I'm writing a short letter to myself to fully convince her that looks is not just about for an outside beauty,but it's more on the inside and being true to yourself. All of these perception started from here:
**Elementary days**
Eversince when I was a kid, I grew up thinking that I'm extremely ugly. Ugly for me, which means in a real sense! This feeling of insecurity started from elementary grade up to the time that i graduated highschool. I don't know why I'm one of my classmate's favorite in terms of bullying. Perhaps my immaturity and being childish lead them to do such! I admit I used to fight with them also in such a manner that I acted how the way boys act during those times! I used to act like them before that others mistook me as a lesbian. I love to wear shorts and t-shirts and prefer to hang out with boys while all the girls at my age often talked about their crushes. Others even engaged into relationship that early while as for me all I'm thinking about was to play all the time, although i have crushes then but it never occurred to me to enter into a relationship that early. For me it's a big no-no in my part! Maybe i think differently from other normal girls who already love to wear make up in such an early stage. Im asking, am i really normal at my age? Maybe there's something wrong about me that holds me back to become normal like others
**Highschool Days**
My inferiority complex started to get worst during my highschool days. Why? Im not confident with who I am. Everytime I look at my other classmates, i can feel I'm different! They are very womanly while I'm not. Everyday I kept on comparing myself to them and I can tell that they are attractive girls that most of the boys in class can make head turns and others even fall for them! I can't help myself get jealous of their stunning beauty particularly during those times when I started to have feelings towards opposite sex! I thought i was immune to their charms until one day I'm starting to have this deep desire towards this particular boy. Though i have so many crushes but here's this one guy who outstand them all. At first, i just let my feelings grow, I'm not even expecting them to love me in return. I know my limitations, i know where i stand! Seeing them from afar, i mean my crushes is already enough for me! But they wont leave me in peace, they keep on bothering me, pestering me, especially with with my looks! I blamed my father for that because he's one of the reasons why I'm always being bullied. Father used to have my hair boycut, his reasons, so i can have it ready all the time even without fixing much!
The bullying continue and it goes on and on until it became a daily routine and I'm already get used to it! Anyway they're the ones getting hurt physically because i hit them real hard everytime they teased me!
My highschool memories is all about bullying, studies, and puppy love. To sum it all, those memories aren't that bad at all but it leaves a marked and contributed a lot of how I perceived life today. With this reason, I'm writing a letter to my inner self hoping for a positive result.
**Dearest Inner Self:**
***You may stop from there! Stop thinking about yourself that you're not pretty because you are!***
***You may not exude a beauty like britney but you have your own that makes you unique.***
***I know you started it all wrong, you started the wrong perception from the beginning! It's not just about the outside beauty but it's more than meets the eye!***
***Remember we are wonderfully made and created by God according to his image. All of his creations are beautiful and so are you. You might think that you aren't pretty because you're just as shallow as what you think,sometimes what you see is what you get! You're so stupid! There are many opportunities in life that you didn't take because of that negativity.***
***No! It's time for you to change and flush that out in your body. Look behind with the things that cannot be seen by the naked eye!***
***Perhaps you only have the wrong notion about beauty because of your negative outlook in life that blinded you to see the reality.***
***It's time for you know that every woman is different, every woman has it's own potentials and that's what makes everyone special including you! Imagine when god created us with the same physical attributes, everyone is just like someone else then no one will stand-out, how boring life could be if that's the case.***
***Everytime you criticise yourself, you're doing it with God. Im sure you're still not convinced, but one little secret to become beautiful is when you know that you have it in yourself. If you think that you aren't, then that's how others also sees in you.***
***Learn to appreciate what God has given you, enhance it the way you can because everything you feel about yourself will reflect and radiate from within.***
***Stop comparing yourself from others and embrace the reality! Each one of us is different and that differences made us all unique. You'll never know that being beautiful equates bigger responsibilities and consequences. In fact, others find beauty as a curse. Why? Many beautiful woman are not happy, they are prone to earthly temptations. Some of them were being raped and harassed and become a victim of this world's cruelty. Can you handle that situation? So if not, the best thing that you can do is discover your potentials that god gave you and make the most out of it in order for you to become the best version of your self.***
***Believe it! Feel it! Remember what you believe, and what you feel is what you are.***
**Truly yours,**
Other self
**Im writing this article , knowing that there are lots of people whose confidence level are extremely low like mine but I already conquered it all by embracing the reality behind the beauty of life. Enjoy reading and I'm hoping you will learn from it.**
**By the way thank you to all my generous and supportive sponsors old and new for trusting and believing in me! You're a great help and you're one of my motivation to write more in this journey. Thanks!!!**
God bless everyone!!!
Dont cry over spilled milk. (My Regrets)
**If only i could turn back the time, I would have done it better and made a better choice.** I often think about these and even came to the point when I'm thinking of the impossible things just to make possible things happened. What if time machine do really exist? Is it beneficial to me or it could make my life even worst! If ever there is, I would be the first one to try by going back to the time it happened and undo all of my wrong decisions and choices I've made in the past to make a better one.
Regrets! That's what I'm feeling everytime I've encountered trials which i find difficult to handle myself! When it happens, i took a paused and reflected all of the wrong choices I've made that affect my today's life and even my tomorrow that only the future can tell what kind of life there awaits.
**One of My Regrets in Life**
****First- Choosing our life's partner**** is one of the factor that can affect of what kind of life we have today and with the kind of life we will have in the future. It's one of the reality that I failed to examine during my younger days. For all the singles out there, you have to be very careful in choosing yours. Sometimes you need to reign your heart and let your mind in control of your decisions particularly in deciding over matters when it comes to love. Out heart sometimes will be blinded with extreme emotions that we only see the love's facade beauty and not what's behind underneath it's surface. It's not that I dont love my husband, because I do. I won't settle for him if I dont. I admit, there are instances that triggers me to stop loving him. What made me feel this way? Many times we do experienced this on and off relationship because of how we deal with our circumstances. We even experienced breaking up for 4 months just recently, maybe i will tell all the details in my next article if you like!
Then I came to ask these myself, what if I've waited for right the one to come along, i mean the better one. What if I've waited for all of my crushes to settle down first before i had mine. I married early at the age of 26 and some of my crushes married late at the age 32 and others still single up to now.
I'm sorry but this is how i feel everytime my husband failed to show the expectations I have for our marriage. I'm not a perfect wife and he's not a perfect husband either but I'm trying my best to accept each of his imperfections coz surely I have mine too in order for this marriage to last for our kids welfare.
Honestly, before, I do have someone in particular that I like and adore so much. He's my classmate way back in my highschool days. During that time, I did a lot of funny and weird things just to make him fall for me. I even tried putting his picture under my pillow with the thought that he's gonna be dreaming of me and think of me too. Aside from that, I even resorted writing his name a thousand times in a whole sheet of paper and soaked it in a glass of water and drink it at exactly 12 midnight and make a wish out of it. Haven't you tried this weird things just to get the affection that you wanted to. Lol. I won't mentioned his real name. Anyway, it's already in the past. He's already had a life of his own and i have mine. Im just sharing it because it's one of the things I've regretted the most even up to now. I even considered him as the Man of my dreams. We we're classmates back then and I have lots of good and bad memories with him during that time. I've never expect that his wicked ways was just a front to get my attention. Yes, we fought a lot during those days but can't help myself to feel kilig a little because of the attention he gave me though it's not in a good way but still i have a moment with him anyway. I even hit and spanked him everytime he teased me for something. I'm thankful that he never tried even once to fight back and that's one thing that made me love him even more.
Why not wait for him then if I truly love him? It's because I thought there would be no chance for us and also i was blinded with insecurities at that time. I'll tell you guys a secret about woman, sometimes we chose to marry not because we are in love but we chose to marry because we are being loved.
Go back to my stories about my puppy love,I have this inkling feeling of regret when i discovered just recently through our group chat conversation with our batchmates because we created one during the onset of this pandemic. Our bonding and closeness made even closer and that's the time he revealed that He too has feelings towards me during our high school days, i really want to post a screenshot of our conversation but i want to keep our privacy . It's useless anyway! Though i cant really believe it at first because tell you what, I'm just plain and ordinary. In fact I have this inferiority complex, and it all started when I became my classmates favorite when it comes to their bullying. But they already told their reasons why they did those things. They're just making fun of me because I'm sensitive (pikon in Filipino term) and they told me I'm fun to be with! They even told me that our high school moments would be that boring without me! Yay!
I can sense that maybe that's the quality that my crush likes me about! I dont want to brag more but I'm always in the honor's list during highschool.LOL
****2nd-Choosing my career-**** I've already mentioned this in my fb account about this one. Choosing what career to pursue will affect what kind of path were going to take in the future. I came to ask this myself also, what if i didn't pursue Education and enrolled in DBET( Diploma in Basic Education Teaching) Im sure I'm not in my teaching career today. Actually I'm a graduate of Bachelor of Science in Agri-Business . I dont have much confidence in my first profession. Most of the Agri-Business graduates worked mostly in bank, Microfinance and other lending company. Since i have this inferiority complex, i pursue my 2nd course which is education. I didn't say education is only for someone with mediocre personality. Absolutely not, I just feel no discrimination in this field, as long as you met all the requirements then you're qualified to be one. This became one of my regret because it's my dream to work abroad which i could no longer do now because of my health. It's been my dream to travel outside the country so being here as a teacher, i feel im stuck and won't make my dreams into reality.
Closing thoughts
***Our life is not like a computer. It has no undo and redo button. Everytime we made a decision, we have to consider the fact that it would become a permanent thing. You can't erase nor edit after the decision is being made it would only left a mark, a permanent mark.***
***Our life also is not like an article, that once you hit the publish button you still have the chance to update and change some mistakes for the better.***
***In other words don't cry over spilled milk, we could no longer claim back the lost time and spend in regrets of the things that has been done already. The only thing we can do is embrace the reality. Embrace the future. We will only be disappointed and feel that regret if we keep on thinking of the memories in the past. Let's just learn to let go from it and let's face the reality together without regret.***
*****This is my 5th article, hope you will enjoy reading this without regret.*****
****Lead image source from unsplash****
What brought me here in read.cash?
You probably hear a lot of most people talking nowadays is all about their read.cash and noise.cash journey. In fact I've read a lot of articles about this topic, how they share their wonderful experienced in this platform. Since I was amazed of the growing popularity about this thing, I am even motivated to dig in and try it myself if i can make it. Four days to be exact when i started seeing read.cash as means of opportunities. http://read.cash http://noise.cash
Do you believe in the sayings "***Everything happens not by accident, but everything happens for a reason.*** All of the happenings even our bad times though not authored by God but it's part of his plan and purpose.
For me, I would definitely agree . By the time Im desperate to find an additional income to support my family, that's when I bumped into my cousin @gwapojohn and introduced me about this read.cash thingy. Since I'm interested, because who would refused such a tempting opportunities and tempting offer. What he told me about this platform is that, in order for you to succeed, all you need is hardwork, patience and consistency in everything that involves read.cash. For you to earn here, you need to work hard and earned the trust of everyone and it takes time I told you. He even told me about how much his total earnings for the first month, ang I'm amazed coz it's already a great help. If you put your heart and passion into it, for sure you will earn more when you least expect it. I dont know if what he said about read.cash is true.
Upon hearing all of my cousin's story, it excites and motivates me to join and pursue this long over-due passion of mine which is to become a writer.
To experience it, is to believe! http://read.cash
What brought me here exactly: ****Because someone created this platform that opens a lot of opportunities not for the sake of getting extra penny but it brings out a whole lot of experience and a new set of perspective on how to deal and see the world from today's point of view.****
To give you specifics, here's some of my reasons:
**TO ACHIEVE**
One of my biggest dreamed in life is to become a writer so I could write my own article and stories someday. I even want to try finding it in other platform but it requires a great amount of time. Since i only have my spare time, I decided why not try this one. And during my high school days, I spend most of my time reading books because i know it would help me one day in achieving my dreams. This is one way also to improve my vocabulary and my writing skills. Being here, I could share my experiences in life where I'm able to write anything that I want to, my dreams in life slowly came into reality . Im hoping this platform would help me realized my goals for me to improve and grow in here for the better.
**TO EARN EXTRA-INCOME**
Aside from relying on one's monthly income, people nowadays are innovative enough to try something new. And apart of my monthly income , I'm still looking for another opportunities to earn-extra penny for saving purposes. I'm searching what website that would help me generate money through online. The kind of services that do not take much of your time. And I'm glad I found this platform . One thing that motivates me also is when i happened to know some of the users here who did great in read.cash,. I would like to mention @bmjc98 for earning this big in just 1 article. http://read.cash
I'm sure you inspire a lot of writers here especially the new ones just like me.
**TO EXPRESS**
****Im not here to impress but to express******.** Actually, I'm so excited and at the same time I'm scared being here because lots of people will surely have different impression about me so I'm hoping i left you with a good one coz I'm trying my best to become better in here.
The day i discover read cash, im hesitant at first knowing my capabilities when it comes to writing is just limited.
After my registration, i wasn't able to publish right away. I really wanted to get familiar with other writer's articles. Im still observing how others manage through their writing styles and techniques. I admit i really love expressing myself without thinking about anything. Im telling everything what's in my mind randomly.I do realized lately, being hesitant won't do any good and just block my hidden desire which is to write freely and at the same time doing my passion as well.
**TO CONNECT**
I've heard it somewhere particularly during the time when I attended this particular Sunday worship and one of the topic there is to become successful. And one way of getting into the top, is for you to be able to find the ****right connection,**** either from the people or from the one who made us. It is the biggest among of all, connection from God. But the connection im talking about here in read.cash is, for you to achieve your desired goal,you should know how to interact and connect with the read.cash users through giving some comments or if possible upvoting some of of their article if you find them good enough to upvote. Find someone who would encourage to bring out the best in you. Though i tell you it takes time and effort of getting to know them, you have to earn their trust for you to stay longer in this journey! http://read.cash
By the way, i will not forget my first day here in read.cash . http://read.cash
***As you can see, most of the people here are friendly and accommodating. So thank you guys for giving me such a warm welcome. Your positive comments and feedbacks gives me a good heads up and I'm looking forward to getting to know each one of you in this writing platform. Your encouraging words inspire me even more to continue. I will gonna treasure it as I go along, even if how bumpy the journey is, i will keep on going no matter what!T***
***Thank you, once again enjoy reading my blog!***
@cutiejen
How Did I end up having Financial Setback
Financial setback can eventually happen to everyone including me. While working as a government employee, this is not a guarantee that I won't be experiencing anymore this so called financial setback. There comes a time when we're at the lowest point in terms of our finances especially when we all care about is spending every dime of our earned income without thinking of saving which is intended for the rainy days. What i mean is we don't have enough savings in case of emergency. Im sure everyone does experience the same thing based on the current situation we have for now when we're all affected as covid-19 virus hits us tremendously way back 2019. Yes, it's been two years since this virus affects us in so many ways not just in our economy but it has detrimental effect to us every human beings.
But of course Jinkee Pacquiao is an exemption to this whom just recently featured in one of the famous world magazine. It was featured there how she live luxuriously. For sure everyone knows about her when she's always been the talks of social media when it comes to her lifestyle and wealth which is the exact opposite of my current state and status.
Anyway this article is not about her, but I can't help myself not to associate her name when we talk about financial matter and wealth. This article will serves again as an introduction for you to know me better.
As I've said, I worked as a government employee but I won't tell you the agency where I exactly work with to keep my privacy. For sure I will mention it here my exact profession if the need arise in the future. But for the meantime I will just give you a lot of hint in this article so it's up to you to guess freely what it is.
Being able to work as one is of great honor and previledge where you can enjoy it's full benefits equivalent of your rendered service. Many who are working in a private company or private sector wish to have this kind of job. I've been working here for so long and I can tell you it's a fullfiling job and profession, knowing I helped a lot of individuals to become a better person, by molding and honing their character so that they become fully equipped with the skills they need to become professional in the end. Perhaps you can guess already my exact profession. Anyway this is not the issue here why I did experienced financial setback. For 11 long years of working, I can say, the said profession did help me to survive especially in this competitive world where we live in. In fact my one month income before is more than enough to feed my whole family and to give them also all the essentials they need for survival. I'm sure I'm not the only one who experienced this kind of financial crisis. Nowadays, it is very common and this is somewhat a prevalent situation particularly during this time of pandemic. But how did I end up to be in this kind of great financial losses?
****Buying of Essential properties****-Year 2010, during my first year of service. I was assigned in a very remote and far-flung barangay where I need to buy my own motorcycle for my daily travel. Yes! It is a 30 minute drive from home up to my working place. It did gave me an idea to buy one. Its no longer practical for me to allot the daily fair which takes much of my salary then at that time. For me to cater the needed amount, I did apply for loan application enough for the motorcycle I need and also for other important stuffs since I just started working then. I dont have regret buying those coz even until now , I'm still using that motorcycle, though I already bought a new one now for safety reasons. Imagine 11 years of usage, surely it gets old and damage due to wear and tear. As what I've said , I don't feel any regret because it's a need and it's not just a caprice to fulfill.
****Maternity Matters****-Year 2011, one year after I was hired in service, i did gave birth to my first born daughter .
It's not just a normal delivery. Due to the baby's position, I underwent a ceasarean operation. During that time, though its not as expensive as of today's operation, still it's of high value and can cause great loss in our finances too.
****Health Problem Issues****-Year 2013, when i was diagnosed that i have GERD or acid reflux condition ( Gastroesophageal Reflux Disease) I'm already mentioned this in my noise.cash account for further details @jenn84. Im still new also in that platform. http://noise.cash
Since Acid reflux is a chronic disease. It means, once its there, it is always going to be there, you can't eliminate it totally but can be avoided by eliminating food in the diet, food rich in purines and food high in uric acid content. Unfortunately, year 2015 when i was being hospitalized again with the above condition I've mentioned. It's getting even worst because that leads me to apply sick-leave for one month. Yes, you got it right, I need one month for full recovery. Why? I'm not just physically but I'm emotionally and mentally down because of my depression. I almost had an emotional breakdown if i didn't fight for it. I'm nearly going crazy. I'm not ashamed to admit it. This happening made me resort for loan application again for my hospital bills and 3-month medication .
Year 2016, another ceasarean operation i went through. And just recently, last April, I was being hospitalized again and undergo medication for treating my kidney because it was found out that there's crystals in it that requires immediate treatment.
I will no longer mention the specific details why it happened because this article is too long already and might bore you perhaps. All of it is again makes a great financial loss in our part.
****Wrong Investment-****After so many months of fighting to survive I slowly recover from my condition, though it attacks sometimes but I already know how to handle if ever it triggers. For all the financial crisis we've been through, we decided to open up a business to sustain our daily needs. A sari-sari store business, i spent great amount for the investment. I took a risk and gamble everything that's left, thinking it's the only way we could gain back our financial losses and gain from it instead. It's a risky decision because I'm not the one who managed the store but my husband. Though he has part-time job, it doesn't give us the financial stability we need. At first, it turns out well and it did gave us income for a while. After months, or year of operation, it didn't went well and resulted to total great loss again financially.
****Financial Management****
Based on what happened to us for the past years , i can conclude that we have a mismanagement when it comes to our financial matters. We need to reflect upon it for us to recover from this crisis. I need to prioritize my needs and set aside all the things that is not neccesary! I only buy the things that we need and not just buy because we want it. I think i need to follow this rule so i can manage my finances well.
***I hope my story about financial setback doesn't bore you to death, instead you will learn from this a lot. From all the mistakes and wrong decisions I've made in the past, hope this will serve for others a lesson to remember. Im just sharing my financial status way back for others to ponder and reflect upon. Dont worry we're doing better with our finances now together with my family.***
***By the way, I just wanna say thank you for my new sponsors. Im so grateful for your support and warmest welcome here. This will give me an encouragement to write more and more...***
This is my 3rd article and I wasn't able to publish it right next to my previous one due to to slow internet connection. Honestly, this is all about me again. If ever you have some queries, just comment down below and I will gladly answer all of it
Thank you once again and enjoy reading!!!
Living the life at 37
This is not supposed to be the topic that I'm going to publish today. In fact I already have something in mind different from this one. Im thinking, maybe some of you may not give this article a glance when you see it in your homepage. Some of you might lose interest upon seeing only even just the title of it. I'm hoping that this 2nd article of mine may not give you a negative impression about me, because honestly I'm having hard time doing this, I thought I can easily extract a thought about the topic because it's just all about me. But i was wrong. Perhaps I dont know myself at all.( In fact it takes 3 hours for me to finish this one, lots of distraction at home. Lol) Anyway, It suits for this day's occasion because today is my birthday. And I'm really hoping this will give a you a little introduction to know me better.
And this is the good thing of being in this platform, you are given a chance to express and write anything you want. As long as you didn't violate the read.cash rules you are very much welcome and free to do so whatever you like. http://read.cash
We're getting far from the topic, anyway, this past weeks, I've been spending most of my time either in noise.cash or here in read.cash that I almost forgot that today is my birthday! I don't really have plan to celebrate anyway for practical reasons and we're simply following the safety protocols that any mass gathering activities are prohibited here in our place especially during this time of pandemic. As a law abiding citizen, i just want to follow the safety protocols for safety reasons. What I'm trying to say when I dont celebrate, it means i dont have to prepare food extravagantly to host a birthday party. But I do celebrate my birthday in my own my way! Saying a little prayer,and a moment talking to God is enough as my way of thanking him for the life he gave us coz life itself is already a blessings. Being able to survive until now is already a blessing and a chance for us to live the way God wants us to live. Let us continue asking Him for guidance that he will show us the way how to live life at it's best! But I dont think I live that kind of life at 37. http://noise.cash http://read.cash
Yes i did turn 37 today and i can say that I dont live a good life. If your definition of a good life is to live life the way how wealthy people live then I don't belong to that category. In fact my life is in the exact opposite. I dont have a good life if your basis is the richness of this world then I'm very poor at this very age. Yes I'm poor when it comes to material things. But i do feel rich in other aspect. Im rich because im contented with what i am and have for now. Getting safe and healthy all the time is enough for me continue living life together with my family and live life as best as I could
**Now that I am 37.....**
***I consider myself not yet financially stable***
If I consider myself stable then I wont be here hoping to get some extra. But I know it will take time that's why I'm taking it slow. Though I have a stable job but it's not enough for my family's growing needs and demands. Being here in read.cash for two days, not all will earn from this if you didn't put too much hardwork in it. I dont mind not getting income. Anyway im not just here to earn but I want to express myself sometimes through writing my own story and I'm starting it now.
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***I consider myself getting old already***
I dont know it it's just me, but i think most of you can relate with what i feel. As we age i feel getting old each and every passing day. But that's the reality of life, the more we age, the more we became mature on how to deal life for the better.
***I consider happiness in different perspective***
Being happy for me is being with my family. Seeing them safe and healthy everyday made me happier even more
***I can still enjoy things the way a***
***teenager do***
I dont know if it is normal but at my age, i still enjoy watching K-drama series. I still enjoy reading wattpad to the point that I spent too much time on these knowing it takes much of my spare time which supposedly this would be for my family. I feel guilty everytime I do all these, because it doesn't suit my age already but thanks to this platform, I'm now slowly changing my routine. Hoping this would continue and help me to become better
***Im already a mother of two kids***
Even at this age, i still have hard time dealing with them. i dont know if
I'm a good mother, i dont have much patience, i easily get mad but i love them with all my heart. Despite our situation, I want to give them the best things in this world. Though there were times when I'm taken them for granted because of my work but everything i do is for their own good. I love my kids so much that I grabbed every opportunity just to give them the best life they truly deserved.
***I'm still aiming to achieve something that i really wanted to.***
It's not yet too late for me to dream big, that one day i find a way to change our situation for the better, i will not give you the specific details but in my next articles i will mention it there what kind of situation we have for now.
***I still want to continue being in love***
Despite all the hardships that I've been dealing about my married life, i choose to stay in love no matter what. In life we can't avoid making wrong decision. Why? Because sometimes we choose to do the wrong things to make things right. That's what i did, i choose to stay even if it's no longer healthy, i choose to stay because i know that would make my kids happy. And that would me make me happy too. I want to stay in love with him despite of his flaws.
**This is my own story on how to live life at my age. How about you guys? How you live yours at your age?**
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Good day everyone!
( This is my 2nd article)
Hope you like it even if i dont, Lol
If not today, When
Don't wait for tomorrow, what you can do today. This passage means a lot to me and gives me a little push of my today's decision.
If not today, then when is the right time to start my very first journey here in read.cash? http://read.cash
This question motivates me and drives me to start the things that I really wanted to pursue, which is writing.
Yes,writing is one of my passion,though I admit I really have a lot of things to improve when it comes to my writing skills. I know, a newbie writer can relate with what I'm trying to say. Just like the other, whom just started their journey in blogging or any other writing platform, I'm very much open for suggestions, if it is the only way for me to become better, then why not accept this as a challenge.
Yes, I did find read.cash a challenge. Tell you honestly, I'm not really confident with my writing skills. As what I've said earlier , I still have so many things to learn particularly with my grammar and spelling. Besides I only have limited vocabulary that's why I wanted to increase my list and enhance my vocabulary along the way of my journey by being here. http://read.cash
Fortunately, a month ago someone introduced me this platform because by that time, im desperate to earn
an extra-income to support the growing needs of my family. Since I'm interested, I register immediately, though I dont have plan to publish at that time. I did some research first about the platform. I read some articles of some writers for pointers. It will serves me as guide and to know some of their techniques and styles in writing for future used and reference.
Instead of being motivated, i got cold feet, and its the outcome of my research. As you can see in my profile, it took me month to decide to give it a try and publish my very first article.
Here are the reasons why it took me so long to be here:
**Potential**
I dont see myself having that potentials as a writer. I know my negativity would bring me down someday and didn't do me any good but that's what i feel before after seeing how good the other writer's articles are, it gives me a notion that i dont have the skills in this field. I dont want to go to the battle without weapon carrying with me. I admit, I'm not that organized person, I dont do things in haste either when it comes to writing. I believe that others will only based on what they want to believe and will probably think that what you've written will reflect with the kind of person that you are.
**Rejection**
Who among us here is not afraid of rejection? Im sure everyone does and afraid of how it feels being one. As for me, Im scared being rejected by the people who believe in me. Im scared, what if they dont approve of my opinion and ideas. I have so many doubts in mind, what if they dont find my article worthy of reading. Perhaps, I'm just paranoid.
So im challenging myself, why not give it a try and give in to this great opportunity. That's why I'm here now. I do realized one thing, even the most successful person in this world experienced being rejected and they also failed many times. The only difference, they dont give up easily and they're able to stand up after everytime they fall. why? Because they have set a desired goals to achieve and they never stop until they succeed. Now I'm willing to take a chance, whatever the result, I'm going to accept it. What really matters is that, i did try my best and did give myself a chance of a lifetime.
**Criticism**
At some point in our lives , we can't avoid not being criticised by others especially when it comes to our working abilities and with our kind reputation. Even if how harder we try, others still have time to criticize us either they're doing it intentionally or unintentionally. They will have ways to drag us down to the very core. They're doing it sometimes out of hatred and insecurities. Perhaps, others have nothing to do in their lives that they're busy finding faults and flaws in the life of others.
This is also the reason why I'm hesitant to try this good opportunity. I'm scared being criticised by others, knowing this will give me a long-term effect on my self-esteem. I'm just playing safe maybe that's why I didn't try harder. But then again I realized, instead of taking the criticism negatively, I'm going to use it in a positive way for me to improve for the better. And this it, Im here at last to try my luck.
**Time**
Many times I'm tempted to start because i believed, every missed opportunities is a delayed blessings. The only problem is Time or when. There is a conflict of time due to hectic schedule and that's what I'm trying to resolve for now. I need to manage my time wisely for my work, for my family and for my passion. I need to know my other priorities without neglecting the important one's. I just want to make it balance. If I'm willing to earn an extra-income, i have to weigh the pros and cons . Anyway, everything that is for my kid's welfare and for their own good.
This is my story why there's a delay in my part in engaging myself in this great opportunity to express and showcase what I've got.
For a newbie writer like me. Hope you conquer your reasons of what's been keeping you so long to be here coz I already overcome mine.
All i need is a little consideration about the outcome of this article. Promise I'm going to do it better, as I go along in my next journey.
Everyone wish me Goodluck!
(This is **My First Ever Article)**
*Some photos are taken from Google and Pinterest*
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