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Life, Morbid Thoughts and some Other Things So here I am in the backyard, by the way we're here in Mommy Ding's home. I'm with the oldies so I can't join in them. But to be honest I just don't want to talk, lol. I'm currently enjoying the cold breeze outside with this Tree of Valencia. Doing this is never boring to me to be honest, in fact this is where I find my own peace and being alone with just music on my playlist bring a lot of peacefulness in my system. Rawrrrrrrrrr.

But anyways, while I'm alone here enjoying my peace. I can't help myself too from thinking about some things, just about some nonsense things. This happens too sometimes, but not that too often. I don't know why I imagine that kind of things I mean, is that even normal? I already share some of my weird thought before when I'm alone in my article before but it happens again today. I imagine a lot of things everyday to be honest like some with crushes, or like it something to do with crypto etc. and then some weird stuffs.

So while looking at this, particularly in the sheet of galvanize iron basta bubong nalang, lol. So I am looking at it and I thought that if I kick that with all of my might I think my fit will be cut in half and the blood with be scattered everywhere. It will be painful for sure but I will continue kicking it because I just want to do it and I want to see it's really that sharp. I also imagine that while having a storm, our roofs will fly and because I'm outside it will fly where my direction at and there's a chance that that galvanize iron sheet will fly to where I am. It will bump in my head and there's a chance that my head will also fly in that happens. Just how sharp that galvanized iron sheet right. I'm curious. So yeah, I can imagine things like that just like what happened in the movie Final Destination. That's just how weird my thoughts are. I imagine a morbid thought and a thought that like some accidents. Just the other day a thought just suddenly appear in my head like I am walking in the dark alley when suddenly a man with a mask appear with an axe in his hand and swing it like a mad man and behead me. Just how weird my thoughts are.

I just can't help it sometimes you know, thinking about that I mean. Specially that even if I don't want to it will just suddenly appear in my head. It's not like I'm afraid or what it's just that, nuts weird yeah. So just to remove and forget that morbid thoughts, I opted to just listen to some of my favorite music. I always have this headset in my pocket because I love music and listening into it become my routine everyday. Like every morning when I woke up after fixing my bed I will start my say with some music and my mood for the whole day will be filled with positivity only. And to stop myself too from thinking weird things.

But let's forget about that now. Change topic, let me just share to you what happened a while ago. I had to stop writing for a while just so I can go home and travel alone for like 13 to 15 minutes. As I've said in my noise.cash post I'm used to traveling alone. I always have my Moms on my side so I'm not sure on how am I gonna do it. I felt anxious just but thinking about it. I overthink that's why my hand is so cold like what If I something went wrong, something like that yeah. That's why, Mommy Ding had to go with me while waiting for the car.

She's with me saying that they will ask for your destination and they will give you a ticket so after that you will give them your fare. I still feel different but thanks good heavens because I was able to do it. This is what happened if you're not going outside that often. I always travel with my Moms that's why I didn't bother learning on how to travel alone. I'm not fond on going outside, I just want to stay on our house in my bed that's why I know nothings about everything lol. I sound like a child here my goodness lol. What's gonna happen to me if not for them right, lol. -- So this is another nonsense article eh. I wrote this yesterday actually while I'm at the backyard of Mommy Ding's house. I am alone that time that I thought of just writing my thoughts and some other things. I'll end it here now. Ciao. Yo' marengskieeee @Zhyne06 thanks for the sponsorship eh 🥳🥳🥳😎 -- **Recent Article** https://read.cash/@Ruffa/your-guardian-angel-415f8896#recent-article *↗️****Laughter of Sorrow*** https://read.cash/@Ruffa/laughter-of-sorrow-ec1a336b *↗️****The Only Hope for me is You*** https://read.cash/@Ruffa/the-only-hope-for-me-is-you-433d3256 *↗️****Material Girl*** https://read.cash/@Ruffa/material-girl-ca0f0246 *↗️****Dance with the Devil*** https://read.cash/@Ruffa/dance-with-the-devil-ef6b8d09 *↗️****No Meat, it's just a Bone*** https://read.cash/@Ruffa/no-meat-its-just-a-bone-10d580e6 **Read these to Start in** **Club1BCH** https://read.cash/@Ruffa/memories-with-mama-and-aaron-2ea8bbe8#read-this-to-start-in-club1bch ***↗️******Club1BCH - The Genesis*** https://read.cash/@PVMihalache/club1bch-the-genesis-dbb27252 ***↗️******Club 1BCH 😱*** https://read.cash/@Eybyoung/club-1bch-df96508b ***↗️******What Is #Club1BCH?*** https://read.cash/@bmjc98/what-is-club1bch-914bdccd ***↗️******Club1BCH is Up!*** https://read.cash/@Eybyoung/club1bch-is-up-fbf69cde January 13, 2022 --

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