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It's Not Over

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Written by   995
1 month ago

We've meet in unexpected way, it's a mess but I'll forever treasure it. We've met because of that, it's not really a good memory but I can add that to a treasured one. When I look back to that time, I can't help myself but just to laugh at it. It's really something.

Actually, never in my wildest dream that we will have this beautiful something between us. I had the hard time at first, it's just that I can't believe it - as in me and you? I mean, it can't be - I'm sure you'll agree to this. At first, wah I mean really? Can I really go with it?

I had to make sure back then, I mean it's really hard to believe it. Coz you know it's you. You're the Mr. Popular Guy and you had a lot of fair share of those beautiful woman. I mean, they are so ready to kiss the path that you're walking. While me? You know, I'm just a nobody.

Well, I hate attention that's why I don't go with people who had a lot of set of friends. I'm all okay sitting alone on the library listening to a good music while pretending reading. I just really want my peace yeah. Also, I can become who I am doing that. I'm in my own world.

No one's gonna disturb me and people will just mind their own business and I'll do mine too. It's hard sometimes because I don't have someone to talk to especially if there's something going on in our mind, family problem yeah. That's why I'd rather stay in our School than to go home.

You know I can sleep everywhere just to avoid going home. No one understand me because they are not in my shoes. They don't have any idea of what I'm going through. Instead of listening to me they will just. . . . . Why this is so hard for me really. I hate my life.

Then you came to my life, everything's changed and I love that change. But I can't still show the real me to you. I'm afraid to hear the words that I know you will say once you find out. It's hard for me to hide something to someone's important to me that's why I told you my biggest secret even though I know that everything will change once you know it.

But the words that I'm waiting for you to throw at my face didn't happened. You just look at me there like I didn't reveal something big. Yeah, for me it's big and my whole being was at staked. But you, you accept it like it's nothing. And I feel like I saw an angel in you.

And that's where everything started. I never thought that you could be my friend who's always there to listen to my petty problems. You're there to give me your advices and always cheering me on when I needed it. You're always ready to lend your shoulder for me.

I am so lucky to have found you. You just give a new meaning of my life. Because of what you show me I couldn't stop myself from loving you. Who wouldn't anyway if you're just so amazing. I want to atop it really but it is so beautiful I just let myself enjoy what I've felt fo you.

And then you accidentally find out that love that I'm trying to hide from you. I began ignoring and avoiding you but you didn't let me. And that's where I spat this nonsense feelings I have for you in your face. But you just laugh at me. I was so hurt back then but then you hug me.

You don't the effect in me when you did that. And then you whisper in my ear "I Love You too!" You know I'm the happiest that time. But you laugh at me coz I cried and you just kiss my tears away and all of my fears disappear. You hug me and shower me with your sweet words.

What we had is a beautiful love for each other that I'm afraid of what may come later. Coz I know that after that heavenly feelings is sadness. It's always been like that. They will just let me enjoy that moment for a very short time and then after problem will occur. And I'm right. Because after the time that we had spent together as a happy couple. A big problem happened.

We can't really avoid it because they will still discover this perfect relationship that we had, because it's forbidden to some. Your family doesn't like me and they will do anything just to remove me in you life. But you fight for us. You just made feel the happiest human alive ever.

And I let you go even if you are holding my hand so tightly. I'm the first one to let go of you. It's not that I don't love you but, I still have to find myself. You know that I'm Still full of insecurities. And I'm not even sure if I already accept myself. I have fears in my heart that what if I'm still not enough?

We both cried, we both questions the heaven if why they are doing this to us. I'm sorry if I become so selfish that time. It's just that, I have to accept myself first, I have to love myself if I want our relationship to last. And I told you that we're not over yet, we will never be over.

I believe that, if you really like something a lot, you'll be led in that direction. And I hold on to this, I really love you so much so for sure I'll still end up with you. Our story is just starting. So, it's not over yet. I really believe that fate will cheer us on and in the end we will be forever together.

And just like that we part ways with tears in our eyes. But with hope.

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Present.

"Hey I'm coming home."

This is the message that I sent to you. I'm finally going home. I just hope that I'm still there in your heart. I'm sorry if I had to close the door to you. I just want to do it alone, conquering those fears and doubt that I have in me. And now that I'm all good and ready it's time to go home. And I just really hope that I'm still welcome in your life.

I am so nervous right now because I'm not sure what's gonna happen next. I just hope that you're still there - waiting for me. I know it sound selfish of me, but I just want to be selfish if it's for my happiness. I will be selfish just this once. And if ever there's someone else already, then I'll accept it coz it's my fault that It happened. But I'm still hoping.

And then the time has come. I'm not really expecting that you'll show up there. I mean, my plan is to go in your place directly. I will just show up in your door and will say "Hey." But that plan didn't happen. Because after landing and arriving, you are there. I saw you hodling a placard with your serious face. I can't really read that emotions but, I'm happy that I finally see you.

And then your gaze land at me. I'm waiting for your reaction but I see nothing. And because of it I feel more anxious. And when I'm finally closer to you. You finally show what's in your eyes. I saw longing sadness but much of happiness. We're both crying. We're just looking at each other, full of love and that's where we move and hold each others hand.

"I miss you Baby!"

"Me too, me too. I'm happy that you're here. I'm glad thay you wait for me. I really am. It's over, our suffering is over. I'm now ready to fight for us. Will you still accept me?"

"My feelings for you doesn't really change baby. You're still here, my heart is still beating just for you."

"Thank You, I Love You!"

"I Love You too damn much!"

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To some, we may look like two man giving each other a friendly hug but we're not. One of us has a man of a body, but with a woman's heart. And I'm proud to say that it's me and I am Patrick, you can call me Patricia for long. And he's my Baby - My Michael and the Love of my Life. And we have each other now.

We may face a lot of criticism because you know, some can't still accept the fact that a Man can have a woman's heart. But there's still a lot who accept my kind. But I don't give a damn anymore to those judgemental people. They can say a lot of word to us, call us names but we are who are. And that's not gonna change ever. I have a lot of love for myself and I won't be affected by that anymore!

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As long we never step others life it's not their business to rid ours 🏳️‍🌈

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1 month ago

Awww. BL story pala ito. Pero sana all parin may baby. Charot. 🤭🤣

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1 month ago

Bwahahaha, hanggang sana all nalang tayo Florieeeee huehuw

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1 month ago

Bromance is really a normal thing today. I respected them of their decision. As long as they are happy, I am happy for them. But I am really not supporting such relationship though. Nice story by the way. A love that is boundless and true.

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1 month ago

Oo nga, ang dami ng ganyan brother ko din nga gay and tanggap na tanggap namin sya. Un lang ayaw syang pag suutin ni mama ng dress haha.

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1 month ago

Ganun din Naman cguro ako, ayaw Kong nakakita Ng gay na nagmukhang babae bahala if my jowa sila Kasi If nagdadamit parin sila Ng lalaki kahit gay sila mas nirerespito sila ng mga tao at mas nakikita Kong nirerespito parin nila sarili nila. Sana marealize din Yun Ng brother mo.

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1 month ago

❤️❤️❤️

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1 month ago

Ohh Patricia found her soulmate .. He may be in a body of a man but he shows true love to his partner and that's okay..Nothing wrong with that. As long as the meaning of love is executed...love has no gender . and we shoudn't judge others if their in a relationship.

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1 month ago

Yeah, and he's just being true to his self. Nevermind those judgemental people

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1 month ago

This is the power of love when someone starts loving the person, the world becomes forgetful for him. A profound love with respect and truth

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1 month ago

Yeah, true - it's the real thing when it comes to Love.

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1 month ago

I found no wrong with something that makes people happy as long as they don't hurt anyone. 😊 Gender is not a basis of love. Everyone is worthy to be loved.

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1 month ago

Yay to that, I hope everyone is like that. Some just easily judge others if it's not pasok to their likings tsk.

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1 month ago

Dont mind the people say as long as it will result hapiness just go with it. Crab the happiness😊

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1 month ago

Yayyy, as long as they are happy and they are not doing anything bad right. Loving someone is not a sin.

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1 month ago

Well said. Its good to be in love🙈

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1 month ago

Sana all may baby diba? Buti pa story mo may baby ikaw wala hahahaha kaya ngayon hirap na kilatisin mga lalaki baka kasi lalaki din gusto 😁

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1 month ago

Bwahahaha, grabi talaga kau sakin huehue. Soon nga hahanap ako, wala lang akong mamataan dito samin ng blue eyes sana ee. Dakmain ko na agad bwahahaha. Kaso un nga, baka di natin alam lalaki din pala ang gusto. Uuwing luhaan. Or gawin nalang nating straight baka namam kaya ahahaha

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1 month ago

Madams, I hope when you found that someone who will make you feel special, be brave enough to embraced him. Don't mind the people that surrounds you, even if you think that you're not enough for him. You deserve to be happy.

Sana after 2 years eh about sa love of your life mo na ang mababasa ko, hehe.

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1 month ago

Hahahaha mga after 10 years naman madam 2 years is so madalinahahaha

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1 month ago

Madams wag naman 10 years, baka di na ko nag exist nun, hahaha

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1 month ago

Love is the purest feeling in the world and It can be felt by heart, not by mind. Just spread happiness and take happiness from everywhere. Spread happiness by smiling.

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1 month ago

That's true, just be and happy and love.

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1 month ago

Ohhh bromance po pala sya kaya pala.... But nowadays mas tanggap na sya ng society natin.. my brother is also gay.. date di tanggap ng mommy ko yun kaya two years nawala Yung kuya ko lero nung bumalik sya narealize ng mommy na di naman importante kung ano ng gender ng anak nya

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1 month ago

Haha kaya ano pala madams? Kaya nga, sana lang lahat kasi. May iba kasi diba galit na galit oa rin sa gay. Ee ang sarap kaya nila kasama. Lagi kang papatawanin.

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1 month ago

Kaya pala may hesitations hahahhaha... Opo mas masarap sila kasama ang kwekwela.... Kaya lang queer phobic po kase Ang pilipinas kaya marami pa rin di nakakatangap... Ayaw sa kakaiba at pagbabago

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1 month ago

HahHA IBA DIN ANG PLOT TWIST GRRRRR KILIG NA KILIG NA IS MEEE 😁😁😁

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1 month ago

Hahahaha, ayiehjh buti pa sila may happy ending huehue

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1 month ago

HAHAHAHA sanaol nalang.

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1 month ago

Happy ending at last. A picture of true love towards your fellow.. i am not a supporter nor against same sex relationship nga lng😁

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1 month ago

Ehhh, pero why naman huehue

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1 month ago

Ang nice naman ng story sis.kaya pla nagkaprob.kasi with the same sex buti na lng they didn't give up with each other ne.

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1 month ago

Yiehhh, thankieeeee sis UwU. Kaya nga ee he really love him, I mean her kashe awiehhhh

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1 month ago

Haha. True love waits ika nga nila sis.hehe

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1 month ago

Wow. A good life partner is always needed. It's tough to get such a supporting partner. But you already get this.It's really amaizing. Hope, all time stay together and also stay happy!!

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1 month ago

Ganda madam .. D ko ineexpect yung twist sa dulo. Sana all may magsasabi baby i miss you🤣🤣

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1 month ago

Hahahaha hanap kana jan ng baby mo para masaya naman ahahaha

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1 month ago

Thought it was your personal story until the end😂

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1 month ago

Hahaha no, it's a fiction again hihi

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1 month ago

Aweee love wins! I wasn't expecting the plot twist hahaha Ganda ng story ate ruffa 😊❣️

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1 month ago

Wahahaha, yayy thankie UwU.

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1 month ago

so much respect to the LGBTQ and no gender can break the heart of two lovers who only have feelings for each other..

bakit relate much ako dito...kakatingin ko din to nang BL series ata eh hahaha

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1 month ago

Hehehe, Noona ngaaaaa. Di ako mahilig sa BL series pero support ako sa kanila.

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1 month ago

I felt every word....i was interested thinking it was Ruffa's story. When one finds that special thing that brings happiness it will surely be the best thing that will ever happen.

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1 month ago

hala nashock ako sa last part..

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1 month ago

Ang ganda ate ruffa. 😍 hahah BROMANCE is real. 😍❤

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1 month ago

Oh, the surprise twist at the end. I am still happy with how it ended. It's rare for me to like stories with characters like these, but I liked this one. :)

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1 month ago

Oyiehhh, oi Thanks 🤧🤩. Buti pa sila may baby huehue

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1 month ago

Ang ganda ng ending ate ropa good job again sa magandang story yay! Pwede ka na talaga mag gawa ng story sa wattpadeu 😍💚🏳️‍🌈

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1 month ago

Awww that's a nice twist. I always respect people regardless of their gender. If it's a man that has a heart of a woman or vice verse that's completely fine if they are happy about themselves then I'm happy for them. At least si Patricia my happy ending, ikaw Madam? 🤣

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1 month ago

Hahaha same madam, support din ako jan. Naku sa KDrama ang daming ganyan ee bagay na bagay mandin sila huehue.

Pero grabi ka sakin madam. Huehue, hahanap na nga ee, ito na nga o. Baby Blue eyes huehue.

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1 month ago