Problems after problems, you solve the first one but then another one occur again. It's like, the heaven has a grudge on you that's why they continuously throwing those problems at you, it won't just go away. I know, you tried your best. I know, you give your all, but to some it's still not enough. You want to give up, I felt it. You want all your problems gone I know, if I can - I'll help you without asking for anything. Aside from the loneliness that you have right now, I know you're already at your peak. You want to end it all. You're about to give up specially now you're trying your best, fighting alone.
Those people who you thought will help you in time of needs was nowhere to be found. They are gone, they already turned their back at you. They already judge you without even asking what really happened. Why is it so easy for them to judge people like they know the real story behind it? They are cursing you, throwing different accusations like you're not in pain. Branding you different names like you didn't do a good deeds in your life, ever. Even if they already witnessed and experience your kindness.
They only believe on what they saw outside but they didn't even bother asking what really happened. They are afraid now to even look at you. And their gaze, their gaze that cut like knife in your heart, those doubt was written in their faces and it was already marked on your head. They taunt you and set aside your feeling like you are the biggest criminal in the world. They already forgot the times that you lend them your hands when they are the one who's asking for help. Your good deeds was covered by that one mistakes that you did.
You feel like your world was shattered into pieces and now you don't know how to put those pieces back. But you know that there's still a hope but you don't know where to start and how. You are currently missing, you can't find yourself anymore. You lost you! You find yourself in the darkness. You don't want to be save anymore. The hope? It was all gone. You let your demons got the best of you. They easily take over because you don't have the will to fight back! You let them decide for yourself. You let the darkness succumb the little sanity that you have.
I know, you tried you best and hardest to fight back, but luck was not on your side, I saw it. And the hole in your heart that was just a bit smaller become bigger and bigger and bigger to the point that a piece of cloth was not enough to cover it. It can't be save anymore but there's still a way. For sure there's still a way. But why? Why you didn't fight back? Are you gonna let those demons in your head permanently destroy you? Is that really your end? You know a small step, just one small step can change everything!
I should be happy, you're smiling now. But what have you done to yourself? You said you found yourself a hero. Someone who will save you from your misery and loneliness. Someone who will cure the doubt in yourself. Someone who will heal the big hole in your heart. And someone who will help you pick those scattered pieces of your broken world? But what have you done? You're happy, you're in euphoria, you're smiling but why you look like who haven't sleep for a week? You're eyes is red and you smell different. The thing in your hand, you're smoking it, you're still not yourself.
You doing good, you're dancing with your own music but I can see the opposite in your looks. You look wasted, those lively eyes that you had before was gone, it was replace by you're glare, pokerface. It's like you're about to do something bad. You're smiling but it was a dirty smile with some malice. You're alive but you're still dead inside. What have you done! Why you choose that path? Why you didn't avoid it while still early? Why you have to take the wrong way? I told you, you still have hope. You can still rise from that dump you are kn. You're not hopeless yet. Now look at you having a hard time in breathing.
You become addicted in it instead of finding yourself. You forgot your purpose and the drugs consume you. I thought it was your hero? But why it was killing you instead? I thought it will save you? But why you're still in pain and having a hard time in breathing. You're gasping too much like you're about to die. Where is the saving in there? It should be saving you from your misery but instead, it destroyed you. It helps you forget your pain but in the end, permanently, you will never face any more problem because you're already gone. You died because of your Heroine.
By the way, I get the idea of my topic today because of this song - Heroine of Silverstein. This is one of my favorite song gusyuuu, I just love it. I can listen to it for a thousand times and I will never get tired if it. I don't know if my article is making any sense or connected to this song but, I think the thought is similar. I'm not sure pala 😖.
Drugs is not the cure to all of our problems. It will get us a little high like you're the happiest man alive in the earth. But it will also destroy your system. The happiness you feel is just for a short time. And you will just notice that you're not yourself anymore. You'll get more addicted into it, and the bad effect? You.can.die.
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I know some people personally who were drug addicts before and now, I know that they already changed.
And hearing from them, talagang walang naidudulot na maganda yang drugs na yan. True may panandaliang feels na wala silang nararamdaman and sobrang high talaga pero after non wala e, sumisira ng buhay, sumisira ng pamilya. Buti nalang talaga nagbago sila.
Ang nakakalungkot pa, ang daming kabataan ngayon yung naeengganyo magtry ng ganyan. Grabe lang talaga. Ang hirap solusyunan nito pero sana makahanap sila ng tamang paggabay mula sa mga taong nakapaligid sakanila.