I got this idea when I saw an article about their struggles on wearing an eyeglasses. Then I suddenly remember the first time that I had my eyes checked by an Opthalmologist. She recommended me to wear an eyeglass because I have astigmatism.
Then she deliberately told me that I should choose a frame that has a nose bridge because I am pango and needed those kind of frames. I swear, I will never go back to that Optical clinic again, lol!
I grew up in a family where there is no Pango(flat nose). My grandparents have a sharp nose. So are my father and my sisters. Besides being a Pango, I also have dark skin, unlike my two sisters who are faired skin. I got these features from my mother. I am not saying that my mother is not pretty, she may not have a sharp nose but she has a dimple on both cheeks that makes her so charming every time she smiles. And lucky my sister is because she got that dimples.
At a young age, I feel so different and they make it worst when they teased me that I'm adopted. That they got me from a pile of cow's dung. I would cry every time. I would run to my Lola's house and then my Lola would scold them while they were just laughing.
Then I started going to school(kindergarten). Most of my classmates call me names like Pango, aeta, Negra, and ugly. I tried to not mind them at first but the more they teased me, the more pain it caused me. I began to isolate myself from them. I ate my snacks separately. My teacher noticed my sudden aloofness so she asked me if something is bothering me. Then one of my classmates told her that most of my classmates were bullying me. So she talked to them and warned them not to do it again or else they will be expelled. My teacher told me that I am beautiful in my own way. That I should not let anyone trampled my personality, that I should fight back.
After she said that, I did feel a little confident about myself. Then I started to be good in our class. I was always on top of our class at that time and those who were bullying me before, become so friendly. They let me play with them and even shared their snacks. I finished kindergarten with honor. My teacher was so proud of me, I can feel that. And she told me to always believe in myself, that I am pretty.
So unfortunate that I forgot her name. I really admire her for lifting me up when I feel so down. She helped me believe in myself.
So I realized, I may not be as beautiful as they are but I have my brains that I could use to my advantage(sounds revengeful, lol!). I tried hard to be on top of my class always. My relatives began to praise me. Most people recognized me as a bright, intelligent student and I liked it. It somehow boosts my confidence.
But of course, there was still time that I am being compared to my sisters. And you know how it feels to be compared to others? I feel like trash, that I don't belong to them. So I still wish that if there is a way that I could be pretty, I would do that. I even pray that I could find a lamp that there was a genie on it so that I can have 3 wishes, lol!
But as time passed by, I learned how to deal with those kinds of feelings. I also ignored those people who keep calling me names. I started to love myself more. For me, I am unique, and being unique is good. I started to feel more confident and because of that, I gained more friends, friends who never called me ugly, friends who accepted me of who I am even if I am Pango. I also experienced love by the opposite sex which by the way is so far from my imagination. Because I thought no one would love me because of my appearance. And let me show off a little, these guys were so out of my league. Like most of their friends would even tell them, why me? why not girls who are pretty? I just laughed every time I heard them, like hello, that's none of your business*flicking hair*
Final Thought
Being pretty is not all about the pretty face, slim body, skin as fair as snow. It is all about confidence, accepting your flaws, and loving them. It is how you carry yourself in front of other people. Be confidently beautiful in your own, unique way. Just like me, I AM CONFIDENTLY BEAUTIFUL WITH ANAK.
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Date Published: September 11, 2021
I admire you sis sa kabila ng naranasan mong binubully ka nila naging matatag ka parin at pinakita mo sa lahat na you deserve more friends.
Walang matangos o pango sa mundo sadyang ang mga tao lang talaga ang mapanghusga sa kapwa.