A year Later

Date: 30th December 2021

Hello everyone! How are you doing today? I hope you are having a fantastic week and staying hydrated. There is only one day left until we enter the new year, and I can’t believe we are finally down to only a day before 2022.

Today I want to write something for the Christmas season, and it would be a letter! I hope you enjoy it.

“I want you to see the world through my eyes because my world has been so beautiful since you came into my life.

To: IKE

Hello Ike! How are you doing? I hope you are having an exciting Christmas; I almost forgot Merry Christmas to you and your family! It is weird sending a letter to you since we haven’t met in a year.

I wonder how tall you are now, lol! You were so short back then, but you were so cute when I teased you about it, and sometimes I would come close to you to see that we aren’t the same height. You hated that I was taller than you, and I teased you about it.

I remember the day of resumption; I was shocked because you had gotten taller than me, and you made sure to brag about it; I would never forget the day you came close to me to check our heights; that was the first time I felt so nervous around you.

I didn’t understand why my heart was reacting the way it did, I experienced it every time we talked to each other, but I ignored it because I didn’t know what it was.

I remember the start of the rainy season, the day I had forgotten to bring my umbrella to school. We looked like idiots as we held a single umbrella and walked to school, but I loved it when you shifted the umbrella to my side so that the rain wouldn’t pour down on me.

Even when the rain ruined your uniform, you still prioritized me over it.

I loved how you held my hand as we walked to school; I could feel your warmth, which made me feel so safe.

You were the son of a baker, and I was a homely sadist! We weren’t a good match in any way, and I didn’t understand you sometimes.

You always made a quiet humming noise when you were thinking, and even though I pretended to hate it, I enjoyed it very much.

I always loved your fingers, and when you touched my hand, I always blushed, but I covered my face so you wouldn’t see ha-ha.

Whenever I asked you to do something ridiculous, you always said yes like an idiot, making me happy.

Sometimes you seem to have gotten taller all of a sudden, but when I look down, I realize you are walking on your toes to deceive me, hahaha.

Whenever we fought, you always apologized right away even though it was always my fault; that part of you pissed me off.

I can remember when you sometimes played with my hair when we sat down; you said you were good at doing braids, but you were terrible, haha. But I loved it when you did my hair for me; I love all the things you did for me.

I was shocked when I saw the letter you dropped in my bag, and even if you didn’t tell me it was you, I knew. 

In a way, this is my response to your letter from a year ago. I am sorry if it is coming late, forgive me😌

I felt happy as I read the letter, and found out you had feelings for me for a long time. I couldn’t believe you would like a girl like me that constantly bullied and teased you. But in a way, I did all that to get your attention.

You waited for me to tell you how I felt, but I never did.

We always met each other after school, but I stopped going home with you after that day.

I wanted to go over and talk to you, but I didn’t know what to say. I felt so sad. I felt like you would start hating me because I ignored you.

We often met in the hallways, and when our eyes met, I could see your feelings in your eyes, but I couldn’t pull up the courage to say a word. 

It was frustrating seeing you getting farther from me, and the more I reached my hand out to you, the farther you got, it seemed like I could never get to you no matter what I did.

It was our first experience in this situation called love, and I understand how scared you must have felt when you told me your feelings; you are brave because I couldn’t do that.

Even if a year has passed, I still have the letter you gave me that day, and even as I read it now, I can still feel your love. 

I was a coward back then for not telling you how I felt, and that is why even though it may be late now, I want to tell you that “I love you.”

Those words may not mean much now, but if there were anyone I would love to spend my whole life with, it would be you, and I wish we could go back to how we were before.

If the world were to end today, I would love to spend my last day with you, hahaha. Thank you for all you did for me; I am glad I met you.

Merry Christmas!