So lately, I can't type well because yung hand ko is super masakit. Which is I don't know if I got hurt nung nagpalatrinidad kami or what. It's just I'm having a hard time to give force to my hand since it's hard very well.

So tonight, we don't have aby story telling since I know some of you hate the story of ghost. But since the November is near, I will share some of my Baguio creepy experience hahaha.

So let's start!

What inspires you the most?

When someone told me to be back on track, actually being inactive here is not ob my plan. Sadyang I'm not feeling okay lamg this past few months because of something thag I can't explain. Pero I realized na at the end, I'm still me. It's still me who loves writing and engaging with new people and random personalities. I am still the old me but the motivation was lost, maybe because I just need a little more time to be back on track. And here I am, smiling and laughing and starting writing again after many months of suffering.

Best compliment you've been given.

Some of you knew na I'm a call center agent. Actually, working in BPO is my long term goal pero what happened is my health can't hold it and I need to let go of my dreams than letting myself suffered because of anemia.

So I have this experience where I am taking calls and I'm crying. One of the caller is an old lady and she sounds sweet, most of our callers are rude so working on BPO needs a mentally preparation. That lady told me that my voice is sad and she can't explain it, I just cried and cried. Later on, she told me, "Sweetie, you know what? There are days where everything was not easy. But I know you can do it, hang in there because I know to myself that you're a fighter." After she told me that I can't help but to smile.

This may not be part of compliment, hut I want to share my best experience as a customer service <3

What will you do to make today great?

Sleep? Haha idk. I'm just listening to Papa Dudut horror stories since I'm not doing anything. I can't move well because of my hand, it's sore and I can't explain the feeling. So what the best thing that I can do is to make some food, eat, taking bath and also watching something. But since the internet was slow, I'm just reading some of the open forums on facebook.

What are you afraid of?

Many things haha. To be honest.. I'm so afraid of everything, going back to the place where it hurt me the most. There are so many things that I can't explain, it's hard to say being bread winner makes you feel afraid of what's going on.

STORY TIME!

Speaking of breadwinner, I'm planning go reapply again on a call center company here at Baguio, I'm wishing that this time everything will be in a good condition na talaga. Last time, I was declared that I have Anemia, that causes me to resign and to took a long enough to accept everything, when I resigned to my old job, or let say awol, everything was not become easy. It's hard for me to accept the reality that I need give up the job that I have. It's really hard for me since I know that I need a stable job to sustain everything,

I can't help but to keep crying all the time about what's happening around me.

I can't even tell my partner the real reason why I choose to give up my job. But it's hard asf and it's becoming worst day by day, I'm not good enough to sustain everything and I feel useless and worthless at the same time. I want to explain to my partner everything but I don't know where will I start. When the doctor said that I need to undergo to some laboratory, I agreed.

What happened is, my red blood are quite a bit and the doctor asked me if I feel something inside my body. I told the doctor about what happened when I was still working. I can't remember what day it is, I'm in the middle of tsking calls when I feel that my eyes were becoming blurry and blurry and It feels like I will throw up. I suddenly took my 1st 15mins break because I'm not sure of what will happened. After that, I put my head on my shoulder at the table and that's the time where I felt like I will loss my consciousness any time and I'm not wrong. Minutes after that I can't remember anything.

I just hear a lot of voices calling my name and when I opened my eyes, I saw the male coach asking me if I'm alright or what. I asked them what happened, they told me that they are wondering why I'm still not logged in and it's already more than 20mins passed. He said, one of the agent tried to call me and tap my shoulder but I have no response at all. When they tried to lift my head up, they saw that I'm so pale. That's the time where they try hard to wake me up, when I woke up they bring me in the nurse office and I throw up.

My learning specialist told me that beforbthe shift started, she already noticed thay I'm not in a good condition and I have no choice but to tell them the truth about what I feel.

But I am regretting it because of my health, I really hate it because of my health.

Authors Note

I am praying to God that I hope, right now everything is already good.