“I’m Still Here, Standing and Fighting” (Nababaliw nako sa kurso ko)

How many times have you thought of giving up?

How many times have you thought not to continue?

How many times have you thought of giving up and leave all everything behind?

All of the questions above, are also the questions I ask myself. How many times have I thought of giving up? How many times did I give up my dreams before reaching this decision?. Madami eh, even if I can’t count them one by one but I’m still proud of myself. Because I continue to go on, I continue to fight and I continue to walk again.

I’m too lazy to fight, I’m too lazy to listen to myself. I’m lazy to think that I can, that I have to fight. But there is one voice in my mind and in my heart that keeps saying, “Fight back”.

If I’m outside and wandering around, mas nagiging observant ako.

And then, I just suddenly realized that I’m not the only one who’s struggling and fighting for life.

What Did I Learn About Life?

Stop doubting, start trusting.

- In this world I have never had confidence. I always have one belief in my mind, that’s the betrayal of everyone and I’m afraid to face the fact that there are people who are only good when they need something. During this time, I began to trust myself. .I regained my lost self -confidence, I believed more in my decision for myself than in the decisions of others. Back then, I often doubted things like this, and things like that. I was further away from myself.

Don’t be selfish, be a giver than being a receiver.

- In my last article, nabanggit ko na makasarili all before. Like I hate to say thank you and ayaw na ayaw kong namimigay. Pero everything changed since magteenager ako. I learn na it’s better to give than to receive.

Ang daming bagay na pumapasok sa isipan ko, like what is my mission in this world? If there’s something important ba na I need to do before I passed away.

I know that this life is a give from above for us to enjoy what the life is, for us to see the beauty of the world. And I know some of us is already questioning ourself into something that we can’t do, or into something that we know na we want to give up already.

Willingness of accepting self mistakes rather than proving a point

- I hate accepting mistakes before, I didn’t learn to accept everything when it comes to myself. I am not reflecting my mistakes to my action, I just always do whatever I think that it’s right or whatever it is. Kung tutuusin, mas gusto ko pang nag poprove ng point para mas maexplain sarili ko even though na I’m wrong. That’s why I hate the old me, I didn’t know that in every mistakes or wrong that I’m doing is already reflecting of what I am.

As days passed, there’s a willingness from me to accept and change everything na nagiging mali sa pananaw ko. Well, everything is wrong from my eyesight. There’s no way that everything is correct, that’s how selfish I am.

Can you imagine that? I’m supposed to accept everything and to accept me, but in the end I’d rather choose the wrong path because of my beliefs.

I didn’t plan of giving up or whatsoever, it’s just me or my mind and the people who surrounds me who wants me step down as becoming of who I am. I’m ashamed.

But in the end, I still choose to stand up and continue fughting. Giving up isn’t my option, but to continue and to go on.

If I only had one option,

I’ll choose to change everything and choose the correct path again.

Whatever happens, it will serves for me as a life lesson.

AUTHORS NOTE PERO PARANT

Di ko alam kung sasaya pa ba ako sa kursong kinuha ko o maiiyak mga sis HAHAHAH eto example ng tinatranscribe namin

Tingin ko dito bulateng binuhusan ng asin tapos nagpapanic eh. Di ko alam kung saan pabako magfofocus kasi konting mali lang, mali na lahat. Yu g mga bilog naman kasi, pero diba? Mukha talaga silang uod na binudburan ng asin.

Biro lang baka may teacher ako dito HAHAHAHA, so ayun nga. Di ko alam gagawin ko masyado akong naloloka, sobra akong naloloka. Di ako makabasa ng uod kahit na ulit-ulitin kong intindihin. Siguro, next time gagawa ako ng article kung paano nakakabaliw magtranscribe ng shorthand. Halos nasapoint ako ng buhay ko na sobrang busy talaga ako.

And yes, magsisisi kalang talaga once nasa third year kana.

My this subject blessed me. Chars mga sis nababaliw na talaga ako kakatranscribe dito 🤣.

9-28-21