If You're Not Feeling Well: It's Okay Not To Be Okay.

Nightbirde once said, "You can't wait until life isn't hard anymore before you decide to be happy." You feel that? Of course, you are. No one deserves to feel bad in this world, no one deserves to cry, no one deserves to be in pain, no one deserves to be in grief, no one deserves to experience life survival.

But how can we be sure that we're strong enough without them? How can we be sure that we can face any problems without them? Life becomes meaningless, right? Everything becomes meaningless when there's no pain in life. We're just honest, we're just being honest about what we really feel and what kind of things that making us feel bad.

You're not good at english? That's okay!, not everyone can speak a correct grammer. Even the Americans or the native English speakers can pronounce their words incorrect.

You're not good at being sociable? That's okay! Not everyone can be friendly just like others because there are people who loves being alone than being surrounded by a group of people.

You're worrying about how you look? We're same, but despite that I'm always thinking that people were not basing there but it's on how I deal with a lot of peope.

They're kept on bullying you? Well show them what you've got! I've being bullied when I was still a elementary student until I become junior highschool student. No wonder why I hate school, and why I become an introvert. It's because of that.

You're depressed? And you're anxiety is bad? Hey, that's okay also. No one knows what you're going through. It's okay if you're not willing to say everything or to spill them out, always remember that problems is just a problems. Its the reason why each day we becoming strong, it's the reason why each day we decided to fight.

As you guys knew, I'm not feeling well in this past few weeks because of my family, but look at me, even if there's a tears in my eyes, I'm always choosing to feel good and to feel okay. I'm always choosing to smile, I'm always choosing to keep my chin up.

You wanna cry? Go on, you can cry and let your emotions and feelings flow. That's okay also, but once you wipe up your tears always think that you're strong okay? You'll be back stronger than before. If they told you that you're not lovable, don't ever pay attention to it. It's just them but not yourself, we ourself we need to love the bad things that we're experiencing, in that case we can find a solution on how making them much lighters than making them more heavy.

If you'll going to ask me, I hate being me and I hate being my family's daughter, I hate being with them in one house, but kept on mind that you don't have rights so judge me. Since, I have my reasons.

If you'll ask me why, this is the reason.

My mother is a greedy person, all I can hear from her is all about money, money, money and everything is about money.

If you think that everyday I feel alright? Well, no. How can you feel alright with that kind of circumstances? Maybe everyday you're just wishing that you want your head will be hitted accidentally so that you can have an amnesia, chars.

Let's go back to the topic,

Sometimes, we feel sad because of something that we didn't intend to. We're not expecting or hoping into some kind of things that can make us feel less guilt or whatsoever, everyday we feel the hatred that we wish we didn't do. We feel the sadness that we can't bare, we feel the stress that sometimes we don't want to.

Whenever that I'm sad, or about to cry. What I do is I letting myself cry until I calm again, it's hard to calm yourself when you're about to burst out. It's hard to calm yourself when I'm about to cry, all we can do is to let our feelings out and let the time pass where we can feel that we're okay again and we can go on the flow of life again.

There are a line from the song "You Say", that said, "I keep fighting voices in my mind that say I'm not enough." It's a song sang by Lauren Daigle.

Right? Sometimes we feel nonetheless and worthless, there's a voice inside our head where sometimes we about to give up to. We also forgotten why we kept choosing to fight despite on how bad the situation is.

There's also a line from the song, "Every single line that tells me I will never measure up." What does this line means to you? It's like being in a corner where no one see you as who you are. It's like being in a corner where no one can touch you but only yourself.

When you think or we think that we're not measured up, no...we all got it wrong. Because we deserve anything and everything.

We deserve the pain, we deserve the hatred, we deserve being worthless, we deserve it ALL. Why? Because that's the only FIGHT that we can comeback MORE STRONGER than the usual problems that we are encountering.

And always remember,

"The stars were still shining even if there's a cloud covering them."

Final Thoughts

This article is a self reminder because I feel useless and nothing at the same time. So I make this to kept my self remembering that I am strong, we're all strong, no matter how hard the life is.

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March 9, 2022.
Article No. 9 for the month of MARCH