Hello everyone! How's it going? I wish you all the best today. I hope you don't have any regret in life that keeps on haunting you every night. It's not easy to live with regrets. I have been there and I am still living with it now. I had chosen a path last year that I wish I have never chosen. I was overwhelmed with so much joy and was carried away with temporary fun. In short, I played with my life carelessly and neglected the mechanics. In the end, I lose and I don't know how to stand and play again. I lost some people who are dear to me. I lost someone who deeply loved me. I lost myself and my dreams. And for that, I failed as a friend, a lover and a daughter.
But even though misfortune happened, I am very much thankful because I was blessed with a little ball of sunshine - my baby girl. Honestly, my pregnancy wasn't planned but it never crossed my mind to abort the baby. I know I am not ready and I know I will be missing my single life but what can I do? My baby's here already and I know for now that she's still a baby, I am her world and I should take care of myself so I can take care of her too.
Being a mom isn't a joke. I thought it's just easy because I saw our neighbors of my age who are just chill like having a baby doesn't limit them in everything they do. In fact, I can see that things are easy for them. Unlike me, I even found it hard to change my baby's diaper. It will took me more minutes to clean her and change her diaper. The struggle doesn't stop there. Changing her clothes is also a challenge for me. Since she's small (she turned 2.4 kg from 1.9 kg), it's hard for me to move her for I need to be gentle with everything. And so it took me time again which will make my baby cry. Sometimes, I want to cry too because I felt like I am not doing it right. I feel the urge to go home and ask help from my mom and grandma. Sometimes, I also don't want to get close to my baby because I had a trauma from what had happened to her. There are times that my mind thinks about the previous happenings. I tried to erased those memories but they keep on coming back. I cannot take it anymore when my baby will get sick again. Whenever I feel this, I will pray to God to keep my baby safe all the time. I am not into praying before but now, I don't skip praying.
While I am writing this, my baby is now asleep. I am watching her most of the time because I felt like I abandoned her everytime I fix my gaze to someone else. It seems like my eyes were made for her. But, I also have this worry since there are some rashes on her face. I don't know exactly where she get that but I think it's from the baby shampoo we used to bathe her. My boyfriend's auntie was the one who bathes my baby since I don't know how. I am happy she's here to help. However, it's not all the time that she's helping because she has kids to look after. As a result, my baby won't get an everyday bath. I felt sorry for her but I don't have a choice since I am afraid I might do a wrong move when I try to bathe her. I also think that she got those rashes from the baby shampoo which we also use for her body. I told everyone here that maybe we shouldn't use that shampoo all over her body because that can't cleanse the skin since it's intended for the hair. They just answered me that it's just the same with body wash soap. They even told me that shampoo is better since it bubbles while the body wash soap doesn't. Oh my! Here we are again. This is what I don't like in living with in-laws. I cannot decide on my own because they're there to contradict. I am not against their advices tho but I am sure that this issue about the shampoo should be talked with and with or without their permission, I will buy my baby a baby body wash.
It pained me seeing her with those rashes all over her face. Especially that they're taking a large portion of my baby's face.
The above photo is also what happened to my baby's face. Can anyone advice me how to get rid of these? Please. I already searched on the internet but I want an answer from a mommy who cured this one on her baby too.
Please let me know in the comment section what baby soap shall I use and what should I do to cure and avoid this. I will appreciate it.
Thank you so much again for reading! Gotta go for I don't have much time for a conclusion. Lol.
Have a great night read fam! Ciao! ❤️
Sis! Try mo mag Dove Baby Wash, ganyan din Kay Prince dati pero sa leeg naman sya nagka rashes. From Johnson nag switch ako ng Dove and since then mabilis na nawawala ang rashes nya. Meron yung pang sensitive ang skin pero ang gamit ko is yung 'rich moisture'. Saka wag ka matakot paliguan si LO mo. Dapat everyday sila napapaliguan just make sure na warm water ang gagamitin mo tapos make sure na takpan ang ears para di mapasukan ng tubig. Sending hugs!