Let the voice be Yours
Hello Beautiful Souls. I hope you're doing well, feeling healthy and fit and you had a great day. It's evening here, so let me wish you A Happy Evening to all of you.
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Some of us are really blessed with the merci and grace of Allah, the almighty. We can express our feelings, our thoughts, our state of mind , we can walk, we can see, we can hear, we can do work.
**Why some of us are lucky and the rest are not?** Because there are lots of people who can't express their feelings, they can't talk, they can't walk, they can't see,, I'm not talking about those innocent mentally and physically challenged people. I'm talking about those people who are afraid to stand up for truth, who are afraid to see the truth, who are afraid to speak the truth, who are afraid to hear the truth.
I'm not saying that I'm not afraid, sometimes I also fail to say or hear the truth or stand up for the truth, but I tries my best to overcome my fears.
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As you all know that schools, colleges, offices are going to open very soon, so I had to go to my college yesterday to submit my vaccination certificate and some other documents.
There is a private hospital near my college whenever we go to college we have to pass that hospital first. After submitting my all necessary documents, I with my friends started preparing to return back home. Shortly after that I had to halt for some couple of minutes in front of that exact hospital with thousands of questions and with my dizzy & unprepared mind.
We saw a fragile, mild and small dead body of new born baby which was occupying a tiny place in the huge pile of garbage.
Yesterday I was the unprepared victim of the biggest and most heinous irony of my life. **Irony? Why**? Let me give you an explanation.
That child who could not make a place in the hearts of his (he was a boy) parents. That child who could not achieve his own innate right to live in this earth___ that baby boy was lying down peacefully grabbing a big place in a garbage area.
I do not know why that baby had to lost her life without making any mistake, any crime. We stood there for almost a pair of hours until he was taken away. I came to know that child was alive and healthy when he was thrown away and turned into an abandoned object.
***We have no power to create a life then why and how some people are killing a life for no reason?*** He did not commit any crime. He did no harm to anyone. Then why was he killed for no reason? Can we tag them as ***'Human Being?'***
Even if someone is guilty, commited any crime , then too we have no right to murder them, to snatch away their valuable life. ***Valuable??*** Yess every single soul is valuable it doesn't matter he/she is bad or good. Our world will be a beautiful place filled with beautiful hearts and minds if we give them a chance to rectify their character.
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**25.04.2020__4.38pm**
These are the exact time and date when my happy day turned into a devastated, gloomy day.
***Happy?? Why??*** I was feeling happy and peaceful because I returned home back from my hostel after four long months.
***Devastated & gloomy?? Why??*** At about 4.20 0' clock in the afternoon , I took a bunch of newspapers from my parents room and started to read.
Shortly after that, I mean 4.38pm a single line broke my heart into pieces, what was the line??
**"A fourteen year old girl was brutally raped and murdered yesterday"**
When I finished reading the whole article, I could feel that my face was wet coz unbeknownst to me my tears were rolling down.
*What was the exact incident??*
A girl in eighth grade was returning home at night all alone after taking her class(tuition or coaching) . In the middle of her way, 5 middle- aged people and 2 teenager pounced on her Immature and soft body like a hungry jackle to tear her apart ( I can't address them animal because animals are not as bestial and cruel as human).
She was gang raped in a feral way then they set her body on fire while she was alive just to wipe away the evidence.
Just think about her situation, her pain she had gone through. How do people hide their poisonous character behind a veil of a sweet character. Those people have shameless eyes which follows, hunts and kills womens just to get some fun.
In addiction to these fatal incidents many similar incidents are happening each and every day, already happend in past and unfortunately I'm sure will continue to happen in the future too.
I know we can't control or stop this kind of acts completely but we can at least try. Instead of carrying candles or protesting after those incidents it is better to raise our voice now.
One small droplet of water can't cause flood but billions of small droplets of water when they merge with each other they can cause flood.
We can't change the whole society in an instant but we can make ourselves enough brave and we can make ourselves enough rebellious against these types of heinous act, it will definitely work one day.
Maybe our small step, maybe our small word, maybe our low voice are able to save someone's life, we will not be harmed if we try.
Are you afraid of how to resist them from doing this? Actually we do not need any language to show our kindness, our concerns, our responsibility, our feelings, remember HUMANITY has no language. We do not need to use any language to show our kindness.
I experienced all the things I have mentioned above, not as a victim but as an eye-witness.
How did I write the exact dates? Actually I have a habit of writing diary. Everyday I try to write down every single thing which happens to me(good or bad).
When I was a little kid I read a story about Anne Frank, from that time I'm cherishing this habit of mine.
I have engraved lots of real incidents in my diary, but I do not want to make anyone feel more sad by writing them one by one.
Let the Voice be YOURS which is capable of changing our society and bringing a new spring to this winter like earth.
Erum 12.11.2021___(6.10pm). Lead image :— Pixabay.Com
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Can I grab my past again?
Hello Beautiful & Handsome readers and writers, I hope you all had a beautiful day just like your. Can I start today's article?
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We not just human being made up of flesh and blood apart from this there is an endless and vast Ocean of emotions lies within us. I'm not deprived of this blessing either.
Our topic is not about any kind of emotions, so it is better to leave this context here and dive into our main topic.
Though I do not know you're interested or not , to know about myself , I'm going to share something about me.
Sorry for lots of unnecessary photos.
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Actually I was cleaning my room after eight long months because my mom forced me to do that(I'm too lazy to do any work on my own). Shortly after that I found out some old pages , those torn and old pages actually were my drawings which drew about eight or nine years ago. Luckily I got a golden chance to ruminate and reminisce my old hobbies and passion.
As we all know that we are totally different from each other as a consequence we all have different talents, passions, hobbies, likes and dislikes.
What are my Hobbies??? Let's see__
**Painting:—** It is one of my most cherished desires, I did not took any classes for this. I used to draw just to keep myself happy and content. When I was a kid I made up my mind when I grew up little bit I would definitely learn how to draw properly. Unfortunately I couldn't take any classes for my studies.
Here are some of the ones I drew when I was in class -7.
For many months I stopped drawing again but my father told me that I should continue to draw as I love to draw, that's why I awakened my hidden passion but this time I started to make paintings with a new style by using 'Threads and Clothes.'. Here is one of them which I made recently (5mnths ago).
**Traveling** :— Some of you already knew that I love to travel. We can't gain everything just by reading books. By traveling one can learn and experience different kinds of customs, tradition, food, different ways of living.
**"If you never go, You will never know."** That is why we need to enjoy and embrace every new things. It is always better to collect good Memories instead of sorrows and negetivities.
There is a saying,_**"Jobs fill your pocket, Adventures fill your soul."**
By traveling one can find their true self. The world is so big filled with different kinds of beauties. So **"Wonder, Wander, Repeat."**
I love traveling coz I want to reinvent myself, to experience new things, to feel more alive more positive. Our life is too short to enjoy, we need to cherish every single moment. Believe me you will never regret for this.
**Gardening :—** I'm a plantita, I inherited this special trait from my mother. She loves plants and animals.
Whenever I get some leisure time , I prefer to spend them with nature. I'm not saying that I do not enjoy the companionship of humans. I like to talk to people but sometimes I love to stay alone with nature.
When I spend time with nature, I feel my soul, my inner self. Nature can not hurt or make any harm to us but mortal people can. So it is better to stay away from them.
**How can I forget about my pets ?**
My second most favourite thing is to spend time with my lovelies. I have already showed some of them, here are others.
**"Those who teach the most about Humanity are not always Humans"**(Sorry I forgot the name of the owner of this particular line). This sentence is absolutely true, today we can believe animals but we can't put our faith on Humans.
I consider my pets as my family members, I can't even think one single minute without them.
It is true that **'It is not a home without fur-kids . '** Animals can't talk but they shows their affection, their love through their gestures. There love is the purest love in this world.
I feel very lucky and blessed to have them in my life.
**Collecting Coins :—** When I was a little child I had a hobby of collecting Coins(currencies). Basically I used to collect old(INR) and other country's currencies too. I do not know what kind of fun I gained and achieved that time by collecting Coins. Whenever someone had to go abroad for study or some other purposes I used to ask them to bring just one coin of that country as a gift.
Unfortunately we have shifted to a new house last year so I lost most of my beloved coins luckily still I have some of them.
So Can I stop here? Actually I'm losing my words and mind too. Now my sleepy eyes are continuously reminding me "You need some break now, you should sleep early".
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I hope you enjoyed 🙂.
`Erum 10.11.2021 9.09pm`
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Look What You Made Me : — My Past
Hello Beautiful & handsone readers and writers of Read.Cash. Hope you all are having a good, sound, happy and healthy day. Hope you are doing great and best too.
I'm here again, this time I'm experimenting with my writing skill.
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I saw lots of articles where other writers was talking about their achievements, that was the first time when I asked myself_. *Do I have any special achievements to write down here?* I got the answer instantly, yes I do have too. Though I did not achieve much more things in my life as I wanted to but I have lots of stories to share.
Before mentioning my achievements, you all have to go in my past. I believe that we all have some failures, some achievements to tell to the people, I never hesitate to confess my failures , my mistakes in front of people because those are the thing which helped me to become what I'm now.
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****#MyBiggestAchievementsInLife****
20years ago on a cold afternoon, a girl was born in a typical joint family, that girl is me. My parents still talks about their that special moment when they first saw me. My parents were really happy for having me in their life and vise versa, but some people were not too much happy I think because of my gender identity.
I was really a happy, content, cheerful child who loved to play, study, who love to enjoy her freedom to the fullest. I was very good at making friends too I had many friends of different ages.
When I scarcely nine years old I got depression for the first time as my second and inseparable best friend for lifetime untill now. That time I lost my first best friend, my grandfather with whom I had a very close and profound relationship, he always tried his best to put on a veil on my every mistakes. Shortly after that my two uncles cheated on my parents financially, that was the first time I became silent, numb , quiet forever.
My mental state became so worst that I was not even in a position to talk to anyone, I lost almost everything even myself. I suffered from that depression for about five long years, during those five years I was completely cut off from my studies, social life. After five years, luckily I recovered from that depression, I told my parents that I wanted to study again away from home. First they did not allowe me but then they sent me away to a new institute (boarding school) far away from home, fortunately I could not suffer there more than three days so I returned back home.
Three years later I gave my first board exam. Those three years were not easy and smooth for me as a result of being completely away from studies, I lost my both mentality and desire to study. I was very bright and good student back then so luckily I secured 2nd position in my whole school. I still can remember that day when I got my marksheet, my parents started to cry but I was the only one who was not crying. My family was happy for me but I was not, I was standing in a corner with my marksheet on my shaky and unsteady hands . To be honest, I was not happy coz I did not feel that I achieved something, I only made some promises to myself. ***'It's just one milestone, I still have a long way to go. I have to overcome my fears first so that no one can dare to think of intimidating me again.'.*** I was still surrounded by many friends but I do not know if they can be called friends or not. In fact what I thought were prescious diamonds were originally sharp pieces of glass, they were actually nightmares dressed as Day-Dream. I felt as if it was raining even though the sky was bright and clear. Actually that was not the rain if nature, those heavy droplets were my pains, longings, sorrows which were then pouring and falling like rain. That time I needed a place to hide myself, but fortunately or unfortunately I couldn't find one.
I decided to overcome all my fears one by one, my first fear was to be away from my family. After somedays later, I again told my parents to study away from them. They gave me the permission after requesting them, but another bad luck was waiting for me. I was the last student who got the admission very late, I took art stream instead of science, my family members laughed and mocked at my decision (because most of my family members are fond of science , this is only reason for choosing arts stream even I do love science more than anything). Thanks to my parents who gave their love and support to my decision.
25th June 2019 , that was the exact time when I began my journey towards my dream. At that new institute, I found out what depression really means. I used to go to the bathroom and cry so that no one could hear the noise of my crying and make fun of me.
As I was very silent that time, my classmates started to bully me, they even began to tear my notebooks and texts, I was too weak to raise my voice. Their persecution became so painful and unbearable that I can't remember or I do not count how many times I thought about committing suicide, I even tried for twice but I failed to do that.
After enduring and going through lots of things, I asked myself again__. ***Why am I afraid of them?*** ***I must try to remember who I am. I must try to face my own self. I must try to love my own self. I must try to accept my own self. I'm brave enough to tackle them.*** After bullying me for a year and half, they became my friends, I accepted their friendship. After facing so many ebbs and flows I got little bit relief.
I think happiness and good luck are not meant for me as I'm not meant for read.cash, I was gifted with typhoid and fracture in my left hand 16 days before my second important exam(12th board exam) . I swallowed so many medicines(first they gave me wrong medicine for almost 5days as they couldnot find what happened to me in real) my body became so weak and fragile I could not even stand on myself.
That time I needed my parents badly but I requested my teachers not to give any information to my parents. (We did not have any cellphone that time, we were allowed to call our parents just for 10 minutes in a week with our official phone Infront of our warden). I gave my second most important exam with that condition, luckily I secured first position in that exam though I could not secure my coveted rank. I achieved my 2nd millstone, that time I was really happy with myself. Now I'm waliking in the exact path in which I want to.
****What I have learnt from my Past?****
🔹Overthinking, worrying, doubting yourself will give you nothing but failures and tension.
🔹Your story may not have such a happy and bright beginning but that doesn't not make you who you are, it is the rest of it who you choose to be.
🔹We should appreciate our work, tell ourselves '***You did an extraordinary job of overcoming your obstacles and troubles to build a life you deserve***'.
🔹We all talks about we should show our kindness, our love to others, just ask yourself__ ***"Have I showed any love, any care, any respect, any kindness towards my own self?"***
🔹We are all different from each other, having different dreams, aims does not mean you're any less significant. You're worthy too.
🔹We should teach ourselves to move in, it is our inborn right. We can look back at our past and can learn something from that but we should not stick to our unchangeable person.
🔹 Everyone has their own flaws, drawbacks, try to make yourself better by accepting all this things.
🔹Do not rely on someone. Be your own best friend and advisor, because you're the one who knows yourself the most.
🔹Be courageous, be brave. You're totally allowed to say necessary goodbyes and to welcome to Hello.
🔹We should try to make someone happy but remember you are one of them.
🔹 We should remember that __"**The flower that blooms in adversity is the most rare and beautiful of all.".**
🔹 Flower is flower no matter it is withered or fully bloomed & fresh . Time can destroy her beauty, she can decay over time but no one even most powerful **"Time"** can not take or diminish her identity.
I understand__. Life is not as smooth as butter. Life is not as sweet as my favourite Rasmalai. Life is not as supportive as my parents. Life is not as beautiful as my heart.
Life is as bitter as bitter gourd(more than this). Life is as poisonous as fake people. Life is as uncertain as death.
****Closing Thoughts :—**** I hope you enjoyed, this is the story which happened to me in real in my past. I learned lots of things and I succeeded to change myself too. Now I'm too strong to break. As I had no intention to bother all of you with my long article that's why I had cut many incidents and achievements of mine.
Thank you soo much @MJAYTECH for this beautiful chance, because of this prompt I got a new opportunity to ruminate all my achievements I had achieved.
Thank you soo much all my readers, upvoters, commentators and sopnsors.
`Erum 09.11.2021 10.40am Lead image :— Pixabay.Com`
Every Picture has it's own story to tell
Hello Beautiful readers and writers of Read.Cash. How was your day? Mine was super duper excited and beautiful as I spent most of time in my garden with my mom and sister. Actually today, we planted a lots of flower seeds so I was there to help them. Now I'm little bit tired but I can't deny the fact that I had so much fun and entertainment there. I took lots of pictures too , so here they are__
**1.My Cute Night Jasmine :—**
First of all , I want show my beautiful night jasmine. I do not have any particular favourite flower but I like this flower the most because of it's sweet fragrance. If you plant this flower then you do not need to buy any room freshner , honestly I have this flower plant in my room for a sweet and fragrant environment. If someone is allergic to synthetic perfumes then they can use this flowers as body perfume. All you have to do is run this flower on your clothes(Just kidding). All of you can see the small and cute bucket of flower, actually my younger sister made this on her own, she can do everything I'm proud of her but at the same time jealous too.
**2.My Beloved Rose :—**
This is my beloved daughter miss rose. Why am I addressing this flower as my daughter? I planted the seed of this flower with my own hands, I raised it with my care, love and affection. Even when I was not in home I used to worry about it as my pet cats are so mischievous that they always try to destroy my beautiful garden.
**3.Meet My New Friend :—**
When I was busy digging the soil to plant flower seeds I heard an unknown yet familier noise of buzzing I got up and I saw this bee was busy collecting and sucking the nector of flower with peace. It was an wild bee and we became friends in an instant. As my friend gave me the permission to take her picture I hurriedly took her permission and save her both in my memory and phone.
**4.My Little Sunshine :—**
She is my little sunshine, she is too lazy to do anything. She fells asleep wherever and whenever she get a chance. But she loves sleeping on my books specially, she annoys so much that she comes to me even if I'm taking a class or doing a important work. She was in sleeping when she went to the garden with us.
**5.My Cute Gummela :—**
She is my cute hibiscus flower which my mom planted. I have four types of hibiscus flower in my garden(White, Red,Pink and this one) bit I love this colour the most. Do you know that some people uses white hibiscus in medicinal purposes?
**6.12 O' clock :—**
This is my gorgeous 12 O' clock flower. I have one different species of moss rose too , I will share them later. It looked so beautiful to me when I was watering this little flower plant.
**7.The Gorgeous Sky :—**
Most of my time, I go and sit on my roof . I do not know why but I find peace and comfort by staring to the vast and generous sky all the time. As usual when I went to my roof at afternoon I saw this sight then I decided to save this on both my memory and phone.
**8.Burning Sunset :—**
I have already attached a picture of sunset above, this particular picture I captured shortly after taking the above one. It seemed to me as if someone had set fire to the sky and the White clouds seemed to be working like wood. I was really fascinated with that scenario.
**9.My Lovely Cockshead :—**
You can see my lovely Cockshead flower was posing for a picture. She was enjoying the cold breeze and the warmth of sun when I first met her in the afternoon. She was not alone in her family she has a huge family next to her but I choose her to represent here. Is not she Beautiful?
**10.My Sketches :—**
As I have already told all of you before, I was really happy today so I tried to sketch something after a long span of time. I can't draw now properly but I love to draw that's why I tried after so many months. Someday, I will learn drawing when will be free from my studies. You can give your valuable opinions about these.
**11.Last but not the Least :—**
Here I am resting in my favourite place. I was very tired but since I was happy I took as many pictures as I could you all can see that.
**Closing Thoughts :—** I hope you enjoyed this article and photos too. Thank you soo much to my daily readers, commentators upvoters and sponsors. Thank you soo much for your kind support and love. Sorry for the unnecessary photos
All pictures belongs to mine including lead Image too.
`Erum 07.11.2021 7.33pm`
I am not perfect BUT I can Love you
Hello Beautiful Souls and Strong Hearts all over the world. I assume that you are having a beautiful and healthy day.
Today's topic is Love. We all have tasted this feeling at some point in our life, I'm not deprived of this either. Actually I did not know about this feeling until somedays ago that I love someone so dearly. I know, that person will never be able to know about my feelings that is why I'm writing here.
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My Dear Love.....
It's been almost 16 years from when I am in love with you. I can proudly recall that golden moment when I saw you for the first time, I guess I was 3 years old then when I instantly fell in love with you. I can say that I found an eternal love for me. I never knew that you are the one who was created just for me.
I can give all the things up what I have but I can't never give you up. You're the only treasure I have ever found. I do not want anything from you just hold my hand and walk by my side until the last moment of my death.
Are you a magician? If not then how do you hear and understand my unspoken words and hidden desires , pains and sorrows?
You're stronger than anyone. You're my perfect dream, you shares all your good fortune, happiness, achievements even your Dreams with me. You're my favourite song which I can listen again and again all day long.
I found a precious gem with whom I can share my most hidden secrets too. I had no believe in Angeles but now I know I have met an angel in person before tasting the bitter death.
Love can hurt sometimes but it is the only thing that I know and I can give you. Whenever I meet you I want to freeze that moment. I believe, you will never break my heart into millions of pieces just like others .
I'm a silent fan of yours. I'm a silent lover of yours. Can you feel me? Can you feel my feelings which I engraved in my heart?
When I look at you with my two hungry eyes , I find hard to breath. I do not know what you have done to me, even if you are not with me I can't resist myself from thinking about you. I do hate love but at the same time I want to fall in love with you again and again.
In my past , I learned there is no one to save me but I was wrong. You were always there to protect and save me even now. The more I try not to love you , the more I become attracted towards you.
I used to pray that I want someone who would love me a lot. I want someone who always would walk by my side. Allah fulfilled my wish by sending you in my life.
A lot of times you stay far from me but it's perfectly okay. The first page of my story was bright and beautiful, everyone read that sweet first page but you were the only one who was interested reading the whole story of my life. I'm still surprised about that.
The hurtful words everyone throws my way, you always tries your best to put those hurtful words aside. You're still trying to make my way smoother and more beautiful than my past.
The world is changing with time but you're always in me. Luckily I'm walking exactly on the same path I dreamed once just because of you.
It's easy to judge someone than to believe, everyone sees everything in me what they want to see but you're the one who reinvented my own true self.
Sometimes I can hear those thoughts , dreams which I once burried deep down in my mind. You're the one who taught me that I can shine too. To be honest, I really do not know myself but you do.
I was afraid that someday I will change, start to act and think in the same way people want but you were there who gave me comfort.
Everyone next to me was glowing more but I was the only one whose shadow was growing. When I looked back I saw my own past was not mine, I was broken and devastated then but you were there next to me. You told me that I can still fly with my broken wings. You told me that I should not let myself fall again. You gave me the courage to fly higher and higher without any fear.
Now I have the courage to draw my Life on my own. Now I do not have to rely on someone to paint my life. Finally, I can smile again fully. Finally, I can face my own self after so many years just because of you. I can bloom myself again. I had half of my own being. You have come into my life and perfected half of my being.
Thank you soo much for being born as my sister. You are my living angel who completely changed my life. Thank you for giving me the courage to be who I am. Thank you so much for reinventing me. Thank you so much for always being for by my side. Thank you so much for healing my wounds. Thank you so much for always fighting for me. I know I am not perfect but I can love you with all my hearts.
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I hope you all enjoyed... Thank you much my readers, commentators, upvoters and sponsors for always being by my side and thank you so much for always supporting me.
`Erum 06.11.2021 9.58 am Image Source :— Unsplash.Com`
The Emotions which Hugged Me Today
Hello beautiful Souls and Gorgeous Hearts all over the world. How was your day? I assume that you are doing grate and you all had a healthy, sound, productive day.
Before starting today's topic , we must know what Emotion is__
I know we all have some basics ideas about it, but I a writing again.
**What is Emotion :—** According to Oxford Dictionary "A strong feeling deriving from one's circumstances mood or relationships with other.
In simple words_'An emotion is a feeling which shows our love , respect, hatred, happiness, joys, fear , shame and anger towards something or someone.'
Here are some of the emotions I felt today__ let's start with positive emotions.
**1.Contentment :—** My day was quite boring and filled with inactiveness untill I received a good news that my favourite relatives are coming today on a sudden.
I think it was 8am in the morning when I was lying in my bed when my mom entered my room in a hurry and said _*"I know you're awake so do not pretend to be asleep, get up and take a bath. Don't be so lazy"* I woke up with my sleepy eyes. Actually my mother is familiar with my lazyness just like other moms. I caught red-handed by her that time. I had no option except waking up and a taking bath. They are my most favourite relatives and I'm really fond of them because they know how to respect other's feelings , they know how to love someone, they know how to console someone, they never try to take people's for granted, this why I like them.
**2.Excitement :—** It was 11am then in the morning then , when I saw them for the first time after 4 long years. it was my most beloved aunty who hugged me tightly and kissed me on my both cheeks,I can't describe that feeling I felt that time. I love her motherly affection towards me.
Though I set my foot in the world of adulthood some day ago, I loves to collect toys specially soft toys and watches since my childhood even now. I can share everything what I have except my toys and watches. She knew that fact and that's why she gifted me my favourite teddy bear and a brand new watch . I was very excited then , this is how my feeling of excitement ended.
**3 Anger :—** I was busy helping my mom with cooking and other house chores. Since my mother does all the work alone, so today I decided to help her. As I was busy helping my mom in kitchen, my cellphone was lying alone in my room.
In the meantime, one of my little and mischievous neighbor came to my house and attacked my cellphone as usual. She loves playing games and watching cartoons whenever she wants my mobile I always give her without hesitation.
I do not have password on my mobile, everyone can open and use my phone in light of the fact that I never feel that I should lock my phone.
She was having a very good time with the device untill I took that thing from her. After calling my father when I opened my galary I was shocked. You all can imagine what happened that time, she mistakenly deleted all my photos, Important videos, audios and documents. I was so angry that I scolded her and shouted at her in my loudest voice. She did not cry that time but stopped laughing for a while.
**4.Shame :—** When I saw that unexpected and shocking thing, I have told that I shouted at her as loud as possible Infront of my relatives. When I was leaving my room in anger ,I saw my mom and that aunty were standing on the threshold of my room and staring at me with a weird look. By seeing them, I was really ashamed then but I could not change what I already did.
**5.Frustration :—** After observing me quietly for a while,my mom started to scolding and insulting me infront of them.
After enduring her words , I also started to talk with my mother in a angry and crazy manner for the first time. I was so frustrated with her behaviour that I could not control and bursted in anger. She did not even listen to my words or did not ask me what is the reason of my anger before shouting at me.
**6.Regret :—** After that incident, I ran to the our roof with teary and gloomy eyes. I barely saw everything as a uncontrollable river of my tears were zigzagging from my eyes.
I cried almost 2hours , I wanted to stop but I could not do nothig except crying and crying. A flock of thoughts was floating and roaming in my mind hither and thither like a newly released prisoner .
I can see the sun is waving his last good bye for today behind the beautiful white cotton like clouds. The birds are chirping merrily and preparing themselves to go home. A pair of squirrels are fighting with each other but in a very good way. I stopped crying long ago but I'm observing this thing now.
I can clearly hear a sweet and affectionate voice is calling me. Am I hearing this words for real or Am I just dreaming? No I'm not dreaming anymore, this voice belongs to my mother. She is calling me to go downstairs and finally came to me on her own.
I can feel that a cold and sweet hand caressing my head in a very gentle way. My eyes still closed until I heard something. ***"Please go with me my little princess. I will never scold you again. I'm really sorry. I have not had my lunch yet. Do you want to join me?"*** After saying these words she hugged me, then i could not resist myself from crying again, I was embarrassed that time and I was regretting too.
Now I'm writing this article Infront of my mother, I do not know why she is smiling looking at me? I think she is ruminating those moments.
**Closing Thoughts :—**
I hope you enjoyed this article. This article is not Imaginary, all the things I have written actually happened to me today.
Thank you soo much everyone for stopping here and giving your valuable time for reading.
`Erum 04.11.2021(9.34pm). Lead image :— Unsplash.Com`
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I was very sad yesterday and turned off my cellphone, but when today I opened read.cash I got a new sopnsorship, I was really happy to see that name in my notification.
Thank you soo much #Ling for making me more happy .
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How Do You Define Yourself as a Person?
Hello Beautiful Souls and Strong Hearts all over the world. I hope you all had a healthy and beautiful day. Another new day is going to lose it's existence. Actually today I did nothing, I was totally unproductive.
Today I did not want to write anything but later I made up my mind to write. Coz I promised myself to write at least 25 articles this month. As you all know that schools and colleges will open very soon, so I will be busy with my studies and I would not be able to write as now. Actually, I'm dealing with some emotional issues , let's forget about my personal problems.
Now I should start my today's topic, so here it is___
I am totally confused about myself, about my likes and dislikes. But I can call myself as a sensitive person whose tears easily rolls down from her eyes . I love to learn new things. I'm really curious almost about everything and this curiosity forced me to write this.
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Words can't define and describe one's personality, one's true self. I do not know you're interested to know about me or not, but I have to write it coz I have already said about my aim.
Here are some specific words by which I can partially define myself.
**Pluviophile :—** I think some of us already heard about this word. "Pluviophile" __ this particular word suggest to those persons who love rain. I'm a typical rain lover who finds joys and happiness during rainy weather. The sweet sound of rain gives me a sweet feeling to my ears and heart.. The rain not only clears the dust that has accumulated on the leaves, but it also removes the pain from my mind in an instant.
Rain gives me the energy and courage to rejuvenate me along with nature. I love the magical sound of massive rain and roar of thunder these two mysterious thing fills my inner soul with delight. Rain has it's own rythm and music, we just need to give our attention to them if we want to hear the enchanting music of rain.
**Dendrophile :—** "Dendrophile" refers to those people who loves trees. Whenever I went to spend some leisure time alone, I always go under my most familiar trees with which my late grandfather's memory is involved. I can feel his presence through the swaying leaves in gusty wind.
**Nyctophile :—** The word "Nyctophile" refers to those who finds joys and peace in darkness. Although darkness can sometimes be scarry but it creates a beautiful phenomenon that can not be expressed in words. The profound black darkness of the night is like a symbol of millions sorrows of mine.
I'm a nyctophile, I can't resist myself from falling in love for the immense darkness. Night seems more real than day to me. The comfort and calmness I finds at night, I think I can never find in anything. The soundless nights gives me nothing but peace and satisfaction.
**Opacarophile :—** This particular word refers to those who love sunset. I love to watch sunset alone sitting under the lights of millions of stars. The setting sun always gives me the hope for tomorrow. I love those burning paintings on clouds which the setting sun makes skillfully, I guess he use the vast sky as his own canvas.
**Limnophile :—** "Limnophile" refers to those who love lakes and oceans. I'm a passive lover of seas, lakes and rivers as I have water phoebia I can't enjoy and show my love fully. This picture was taken by me elder cousin from which I knew about read.cash who is a solo traveler.
If you enter her room then you will see two beautifully arranged bags, it shows her love for traveling. Last time, She went to the Maldives, I also passionately wanted to be a part of that journey but unfortunately my over protective parents did not give me the permission. Someday I will be able to go alone to travel too , I'm hopeful about it.
**Selenophile :—** This word refers to those who can't resist her/himself from adorning and loving the moon. We can learn a lot from nature if we want to. We can't see the sweet and bright moonlit of her's everyday, eclipse also come in her life too but she doesn't even think about giving up. We need to learn the habit of not giving up easily from the moon.
**Cynophile :—** The word "Cynophile" refers to those who love dogs. I can proudly call myself a dog lover. A couple of days ago, my parents gifted me a cute dog and we did not take too much time to become friends. Now she became one of my most important family member, I can't even think my life without her. She has a bad habit, she never wants to take a batch , she loves to stay untidy.
**Hodophile :—** "Hodophile" refers to those who loves to travel, I'm one of those persons. I have already said that j wanted to go Maldives with my cousin but my parents did not allow me.
Luckily my parents surprised me with an unplanned trip to Darjeeling. Everyone who is familiar with India knows that Darjeeling is famous for it's natural beauty and delicious & fragrant tea. It is world heritage site too, Darjeeling is also famous for mountain Kanchenjunga, Darjeeling Himalayan Railway (Famous Toy Train) and there are lots of things too.
**Closing Thoughts :—** I hope you enjoyed while reading this article. I did not focus on my words in this article, it can make all of you bored so please bear with me. All photos and words are mine(Except Maldives 😶).
Thank you soo much my daily readers, upvoters, commentators and sopnsors.
I think I will never be able to meet Rusty again, but I am hoping that Rusty will notice me soon.
Erum(03.11.2021)(8.32pm)
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The Art of Self-Love
Hello Beautiful Souls and Gorgeous Hearts. So finally I'm here again. I hope you all are fit & fine.
Without taking your too much time, let's start today's topic.
****What Is Self-Love ?**** It is really great that we all have some ideas about what love is. But since, today's topic is about Self-Love so first of all we need to know what Self-Love is.
Self-Love simply means respecting,loving and taking care of one's own self. Self-Love means not sacrificing yourself, your well-being just to please others.
We all are different from each other. We all have different perspective, different thoughts. We all have different ways to take care of ourselves.
****What Does Self-Love Means to You?**** We all may have different opinions about it, but here I'm mentioning my own opinions__
***1.Talking to yourself with love and care. 2.Giving Oneself the most importance. 3.Putting one's trust on him/herself. 4.Being true and kind to oneself. 5.Forgetting and forgiving all your mistakes.***
Self-Love simply means accepting yourself as who you are right now.
****How Do We Can Practice Self-Love?**** Now we have the idea about Self-Love, then let's see how we can practice it__.
***1.Try to be kind to yourself. 2.Try to be gentle and patient with yourself. 3.Stop comparing yourself to others. 4.Do not worry about other's opinions. 5.Allow yourself to make mistakes. 6.Put yourself first always. 7.Feel both pain and joy as fully as possible. 8.Do not be afraid to get rid of poisonous people.***
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We are always trying to fix and fit ourselves in the cookie cutter mold of our society. Our modern and developed society is formed in such a way that we are not only competing with others, but also competing with ourselves. If we can't live up to our society's expectation then we start to blame ourselves. As a result, we end up being hard , unkind on ourselves.
Love is the thing that motivate and encourage us to move forward, to achieve more. We all are Human being. We all have emotions. We all need love and care. We all talk about spreading love among each other, but the real questions are__. **"Have we ever thought of loving ourselves"? "Do we value ourselves as much as as we value others"?**
A person who love him/ herself never has to rely on anyone else to make him/herself happy. The love given by others will oneday run out, but your love for your own self will never end.
There is a misconception about Self-Love that **'Self-Love leads a person towards selfishness'** but it is wrong. Self-Love do not teach us to be selfish. The real meaning of Self-Love is to put ourselves first in all cases and not to hurt ourselves for others.
When our dear and near ones make a mistake , we often forgive them in an instant. But when we make a mistake then _"**Why do we become so tough on ourselves?"**
The foremost and important thing is , we are human and it is absolutely okay to make mistakes and the other most important thing is to love yourself and is to be honest to yourself.
I hope you all are living a life that you can be proud of. But if you think you're not proud of your life, your life is going against your expectations and will, then you're definitely allowd to start your life from the beginning. We all have the secret courage strength to start all over again.
Some of us think that we will never be able to flourish, to bloom again after ruined ourselves by others then we have again a misconception about this. We will all blossom again, this is how our life has already been fixed and pre-destined like this, we must need to water ourselves with Self-Love.
We consider ourselves as cowered , as weak but at the end of our day we will see that we have endured much more pain than we think we can, this is how the magic of Self-Love works.
****What are the benefits of Self-Love?**** There are lots of benefits of Self-Love, I'm not talking about all. Some of the benefits are__
**1.When we learn to love ourselves only then our satisfaction and contentment in our life will grow.**
**2.Self-Love will always helps us to adopt good habits in our life.**
**3.The most important benefit of Self-Love is when we start to admire ourselves , we will not suffer more in our life. We will get relief from unnecessary depression and anxiety.**
Try to love yourself as much as you love your friends and family. Lack of Self-Love comes when_. We consider ourselves more inferior than others, We think we are not worthy , we have to overcome this fear & illusion. The concept of Self-Love is nothing but about loving and enjoying who you are. Self-Love gives the courage to find one's own being within oneself.
Another meaning of Self-Love is to accept one's true self. It is the perfect time to gift yourself Self-Love. The real key and secret weapon of our happiness and contentment is Self-Love.
Before giving your love, respect and care to others try to love yourself first. When you feel that something is trying to knock you down, something is trying to stop you from loving yourself then please remove that thing from your mind.
Do you want some good news? If you want to hear some good news then Try to love yourself. Try to feed you soul. Try to train your mind, only then you will become the version of yourself. Do not forget that Self-Love has the profound impact in our life.
Self-Love works as glue , it helps us to attach our inner and outer soul together. No one in this earth has a better understanding of our inner self than us. You're the one who can only understand what is going inside you. Without Self-Love you're decreasing your own ability to be successful in life.
Do not murder yourself in order to make yourself perfect, in order to get rid of your weaknesses. Take your time to praise yourself, to congratulate yourself for your achievements. The one and only thing is standing between you and your success__is YOURSELF.
Is Self-Love selfish? The answer is absolutely NO. I'm not going to discuss about "Why Self-Love is not selfish", right now maybe someday I will talk about this in one of my next articles.
**Self-Love implies considering yourself as valuable and worthy as others, NO LESS__NO NORE.** Loving yourself doesn't make anyone selfish.
**Closing Thoughts :—** I hope you enjoyed while reading this article. Thank you soo much to my daily readers, commentators, and upvoters. Thank you soo much for unconditional love and support.
I'm not a professional and wise motivator or adviser, I just wrote down my thoughts about Self-Love.
Please remember this things
Celebrate your succes. Give priority to your want. Listen to your body and to yourself. Try to know your strengths and weaknesses. Trust yourself. Don't hold the bitter past. Surround yourself with positive people.
`Erum(02.11.2021)(8.54pm)`
Our Life Is A Day-Dream
Hello Beautiful Souls and Strong Hearts all over the world. I hope you all are fit and fine. Finally another new month has come with lots of hopes, mysteries, magical things, joys, happiness, sorrows and pains too, let's set negetive thoughts and negetive things aside this month. I saw that many of my fellow friends have already set their goals, aims and objectives, unfortunately I'm not one of them. Because whenever I set goals even a single aim everything goes wrong in an instant, that's why I do not expect much. But I hope I will be able to achieve all my secret wishes and desires just like my other fellow friends.
Oh sorry, I forgot that I need to start my today's topic___
Before starting my article, we need to know what a Dream is__. We all are familiar with this particular thing, Are Not We??? Still, let's see what a Dream is in actual.
**Dream** :— **(Noun)**. ***"A series of images, events, feelings that happen in our mind" __is called dream (According to Oxford Dictionary).***
**What A Day-Dream is :—(Noun).** ***"A series of thoughts that distracts one's attention from the present" is called Day-Dream.***
Now we have the idea about Dream and Day- Dream, we can start our topic__
Actually I'm a proud Day-Dreamer, You?
Let's forget about it for once and let's go to the real context__
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**Our Life Is A Day-Dream.....**
Many of us think our lives are very easy and simple, we can achieve everything very easily and smoothly.
*Is that really so??* The answer is Absolutely "NO". Our life is much more difficult and hard than we actually think. Honestly, none of us has the slightest idea about our life, we just can assume it like the value of "X".
When I was a little child, I was fascinated and in love with the charm and grace of Animation Films. I had no idea about my life. I never tried to ponder why I'm breathing and what my true existence is. I guess it doesn't matter that much, I still do not know. Whenever I watch cartoons I used to imagine their life, their lifestyle as mine. Even when I was standing in the threshold of my adulthood, when my age was scarcely fifteen or sixteen, I had the same energy, same love , same fascination, same compassion for those animation films.
My thoughts were too childish and immature then to compose now. Actually I made lots of dreams catcher in my life just to catch and hold my most beloved and cherished dreams. It sounds foolish. Is not it?
But when I saw few hard and tough tests of life with the help of my dreamy eyes and with the help of my inexperienced & unbothered mind. My perception towards life then changed not completely but a little bit. Now I have given up imagining, dreaming. Now you can address me as **'A Beloved of Reality.'**
Now I know that our life has ebbs and flows. Now I know that our life has ups and downs. Our lives are a lot like a Roller Coaster in which we can enjoy the fun & joy and at the same time there is also a presence of the **'*****Feeling of Fear '.*** If once you rode on this ride I mean to say that if once you got your life__ You have to live your life. You have to enjoy your journey.
Sometimes in my past, I used to think that the things which I can't understand right now maybe someday when I grow up in future will make some sense, will make some enough meaning. But I had no idea that the answers, I was looking would one day stab me like a double edged keen dagger.
***Life is really interesting and exciting if you can accept everything positively. Life is really easy if you are a Dreamer. Life is really easy if you are a Imaginer. Life is really easy if you are warrior. Life is really easy if you are realistic. Life is really easy if you are strong.***
But what about us??? What about those people who are emotional and sensitive???
***Life is really hard for people like me who are sensitive. Life is really hard for people like me who breaks easily. Life is really hard for people like me who are fragile. Life is really hard for people like me who are foolish. Life is hard for people like me who accepts their defeat easily. Life is hard for people like me who love to live in the realm of imagination. Life is hard for people like me who gains happiness easily from a tiny thing. Life is hard for people like me who gains pains easily form a single thing too.***
Almost everyone misunderstood me. I was not mad , but I was just little bit foolish and innocent that time , but now I grew up alot. Am I Sorry about That? Of Course "NO" , I'm happy for that.
The people , the friends I once considered were precious diamonds , They were actually sharp broken pieces of glass which I found out after completely destroyed my inner soul by them.
I received **"Depression"** as an **"Eternal** **Friendship Gift"** at a very young age. Thanks to Allah, the almighty and thanks to my family__
Who have always been by my side still now. They made me strong. They made me courageous. They made me faithful towards everyone. They taught me how to think & accept everything positively. They taught me how to give value to others. They taught me how to love & accept others. They taught me we got one life , they also taught me how to make it worth a thousand times.
We all are the same in diversity. We all received black clouds in our own sky but when we will dare to move and clear those black clouds up then a rainbow will definitely appear in our lives too.
I learned a lot of things from my parents here one of those___
**"When people around you will talk about their pains, about sorrows, about their joys, about their happiness,, you do not dare to talk about yours just listen to their words**". Believe me this suggestion from my parents saved my life several times and is also saving myself now too.
It is normal that sometimes you maybe think or feel that you're the only one who stuck in past,, believe me you will too find a way very soon. That is how our life works.
**Closing Thoughts :—.** Our life is like a Day - Dream , even if it gives peace, joy , even if it seems peaceful & joyful just like a Dream, in reality it is contrary to our idea. Our life is more painful, more tough, more fatal from inside like we can't measure the depth of ocean just by seeing the surface of that ocean our life is exactly like that. I can just wish that our lives will be more happier than now.
I hope you enjoyed while reading. Thank you soo much my sponsors, daily readers , commentators and upvoters.
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`Erum (01.11.2021.) (8.23pm)`
To my Youth
Hello Beautiful Souls and Strong Hearts of Read.Cash. I'm here again but this time with a heavy mind filled with confusion & chaos and with a wounded heart. Actually I'm little bit tired ,not depressed.
Let's get started without wasting your time__
***What do you think our ability to remember is a blessing or a curse?***
Some of us will say it's a blessing. For this blessing we have been able to preserve our most cherished moments in our memory.
**On the other hand___** Some of us will say it is a curse, I'm one of those persons. Many times the beloved Memories of my past that happened to me want to hunt & kill me like a hungry wolf. Sometimes I save myself from that demon and sometimes he succeed to hunt me.
`Let's reminisce my memories__`
It's 2.45pm and I returned back home forever after spending 4 long and sad years in a hostel ( Actually in a cage).
I'm feeling better and healthy now, let's take a little evening nap , I told to myself. I did not knew that time that this nap will not give me peace rather it will refresh my wounds of past. I'm recalling and ruminating those memories which I made in four years.
My mother said a while ago that '***You are lucky that you made a lot friends and you have had so much there'.***
***"Really?? Then why can't I feel those joys and pleasures?"*** *I asked my mother****.*** She replied ***, 'I think you're tired and you need some rest , that's why.'***
`Let's forget about our conversation for once__` *I can feel that everyone around me* is moving forward & enjoying their lives. I am the only one who still stuck in the past. It seems I have no friends. It seems I have no passion. It seems I have no desire. It seems that I am never going to be anything. It seems living my life is too tiring. I feel I want to give up my life, but wait a second Dying is to scary and fearful to me too.
A couple of days later, my mom started to yelling and shouting at me for my lazyness, for my unproductive nature. I think she is totally unaware about my mental state. She do not know that her beloved daughter losing herself slowly. She do not know I'm tired. She do not know I want to do nothing. She do not know I want to sit under a tree and look at the wide sky. She do not know I want to feel the nature. She do not know I want to taste nature's healing medicine. She do not know that I want to rest in quite place all alone.
I'm observing myself that I'm crying from the bottom of my heart but not a single drop of tears is coming out from my lonely eyes why? Am I dying inside? I do not know anything.
Often I feel sorry for my parents, for my sister for having me as their daughter,for having me as her sister. I feel such a failure as their daughter. I feel such a failure as her elder sister. I feel such a burden for them.
At one point in my life, I used to wish and pray that if I could disappear from this world, form their life then it would be really better. It seemed that the whole world is covered with so darkness that I can't see anything even myself. I continually cried and cried every single night, still now. What should I do?
I can't deny that those memories were indeed too beautiful to describe in words but those memories were painful too for me. Sometimes I feel that I should not be happy because I'm shaking with fears , I feel like I will be pain again if I start to celebrate my happiness. The expectation of my family , the expectation of my society pierce me like a dagger. I can't say 'No' to them. I can't do these things. I can't fail too.
When I told my parents that I'm not feeling well ,I think I'm depressed. They laughed and said ,"***You're too young to be depressed. You're too young to lose yourself."***
I just want to tell them that Depression do not choose her lover by judging their age. It seems I'm living in a big bubble from which I can easily and clearly see the world but I can't enjoy, I can't touch anything. It seems I'm losing my interest in everything. It seems I can not keep the fire burning inside me after trying a lot, I think now I'm out of wood. I think this is how our life is going, one need to break her own heart to survive in this cruel world.
Now losing everything, I want to be as bright as a star as I used to be. I know it is not possible anymore, but I hope if I continue to bear these pains, these sorrows then I can be as bright and cheerful as before.
I feel that I'm becoming greedy because now I want to sleep peacefully just for once which will help me to heal my wounds like infallible medicine. I just want to be appreciated by my parents. I just want to be proud of me just for once. Sometimes I want to share my secrets with someone but every time I do it , I feel remorse.
After so many year , I asked myself again **"Am I Happy?"** The answer is fortunately 'Yess'. I'm happy and fully content with my life. I'm proud of myself too for surviving so many years.
I'm indebted to my soul, to my heart, to my mind and to my body for overcoming all obstacles, all fears.
My Dear Youth I know you have endured so much for this I'm sorry that I could not support you , I could not love you, I can't do nothing but regret.
I know there are many more thinng that happened to you, I can't express all those things anywhere. You're 20 years old now__. I'm glad that you're happy & healthy. I'm glad that you're now improving. I'm glad now you're progressing. I'm glad that you're now prospering. I'm glad that you're blooming. I'm glad that you always made me proud. What can I expect than this??
I want to tell you that ' I'm proud of you, you have gone through so many things worst and best but you never gave up easily, you never forgot to encourage myself by telling that ,**"Strong Soul please live, please survive".'**
****Message :—.**** It is my an open letter to my strong youth. I have already told all of you in my previous article that I can't give shape to my thoughts, even now millions of words are crwaling in the floor of my mind, but I failed to bind them together. I hope someday I will be able to train them and use them wisely. But now I want to apologize to all of you, I hope you enjoyed it.
Thank you for Reading. Erum(30.10.2021//5.46pm) Lead picture source —https://pin.it/4fNrO7a
Kind Words Are Like Honey
Hello Beautiful Souls of Read.Cash. How are you?? How is your day going? I assume you are well & fit and your days are going well too.
Please grant me to thanks the Beautiful lady @Sweetiepie . Thank you soo much for your sponsorship and thanks again for putting your faith on me and for motivating me
I do not want to take or waste too much time of yours , so let's get started__
****Do**** ****you ever wondered what your small & a single word can do?**** I do not think any of us including myself have ever thought or imagined about this topic. **M**aybe we do not consider it as a big deal or we avoide it as a inferior matter. But do you know that a small word can do more harm than a sword. It can cause more terrible & fatal wound than a keen weapon.
****What Can a Small Word Do?****
*let's find out___* According to my immature opinion, "Words" are the most powerful thing in this world. We can't even imagine what a single word can do, actually it is beyond of our imagination.
**A** single Word can break a person fully. **A** single Word can tear your soul apart. **A** single Word can dissect your mild heart. **A** single Word can ruin someone's whole life. **A** single Word can numb a person for ever. **A** single word can paralyze a person for eternal. **A** single Word can destroy someone's present & future. **A** single Word can act as Poison. **A** single Word can trample down many hearts. **A** single Word can devastate many relationships.
***On the other hand,___***
**A** single Word can change a person from bad to good one. **A** single Word can inspire someone.
**A** single Word can make someone's life beautiful. **A** single Word can work as a medicine. **A** single Word can act as honey. **A** single Word can uplift someone. **A** single Word can heal someone's wound. **A** single Word can corkscrew the feeling of deep love, joy.
"**Words**" can give us the pleasing and beautiful feeling of being loved, being cared, being valued, being seen, even being heard by someone, they can be our near & dear ones or they can be some strangers.
**A** single word can give us peace, delight. One small sentence of compliment can change one's life, can change our mindset, can change our thinking capability, can improve our mental as well as our physical health too.
***On the other side___***
**"Human** **tongue is a beast, is a demon that few people can master"__** *Unknown.*
**We** all are well familiar and known to this fact that__"**What we say once is never returned."**
**We** can't even imagine that how smoothly and easily a negetive Words can cause a knap & smack in a person both inside and outside, it is beyond our repair.
**A** bad Word can benumb and inert a beating heart , a cheerful soul forever. Once we hurt a person, it remains there for a lifetime, we can't heal that specific wound anymore, it doesn't matter how hard we try to heal.
**We** often forget that 'Word' are more powerful than anything else. They can change many lives in a positive and negetive way.
**'Words'** can be used both to protect or to destroy, it's up to us , it's up to our mindset which one we choose.
*Have you ever heard this quote??*
**"Kind Words can be short and easy to speak but their echoes are truely endless"**___*Mother Teresa.*
**Did** you ever thought?? ___That your five seconds of spoken words can give such kind of wounds if you meet that person 20 years later you will see that her/his wound is still fresh.
**Often** we take Words lightly, we often forget that Words have a deep and heavy impact. They can echo for weeks, months or even years too.
****How Can You Prevent Yourself from Saying This Bad Words?**** **Al**ways try to control your mouth, the source of bitter & sweet words. Always try to control your anger and emotions. **Do** not say anything that can hurt someone and that can trigger you again and again to feel guilty to your own self.
**We** forgot that our verbal insults can murder someone. We forgot that our bad words can stab one person deeply like a sharp dagger. For this reason, we always need to choose our words seriously which we use .
****How Do Words Have the Power to Inspire?**** **Do** you know that our Words give life to our thoughts? Do you know that our Words give shape to your unshaped thoughts? Do you know that our Words enlight our fantasy, our imagination?
**It** can motivate a person or it can demotivate a person too. It takes the same amount of time & energy to say a good & a bad Word. A good Word can change one's life then what prevents us from saying a good word???? Think again before uttering a word.
**What Negetive Words Can Do?** **The** words we use in our daily life have a great & profound impact & effect on our lives. Our Words can bring tears to someone's eyes. Our Words can bring smile on someone's face.
**A** bunch of negetive words even a small hurtful word can make a patient of depression more anxious, more worse. They continue to ruminate those words, they can lose their mental health too. Our bad Words can disrupt someone's sleep, someone's appetite, someone's happiness, someone's satisfaction.
**N**egetive Words,spoken with anger, do more damage, can make a person mentally sick.
**So** first of all, try to identify the negetive and hurtful words which you use in your daily life then try to filter ,reframe and alter them with a good word.
**O**ur positive thoughts can help someone to increase their love and interest towards their life.
**Our Words Have a Great Meaning :—** Often the biggest mistake we make is believing that our Words have no value or meaning.
**T**he words we choose can mean something, it can be bad or good, it's up to us.
**I'm** not an experienced or wise person but I heard these things from my parents that __***"If you want to make a good impression of yours in this world? Then try to start your day by uttering some good and positive words."***
****Have you ever imagined that our Words have meaning??**** **Our** words have some specific meaning Then our words will rememberd too. That is why we need to choose our words very carefully and wisely. Our chosen words can make a negetive and positive contribution our lives, on other's lives even on our society too.
**Our** positive words can bring the best in others. Our good words can boost someone's soul. Our Words can encourage someone to do her/his best.
**Do** you know that just changing a bad Word into a good one can change the whole meaning of our sentences??
**Closing Thoughts :—** I hope we all will try to utter something good, something positive instead of hurtful and negetive words. We can change our whole world just by changing our words. Let's take small step towards a better future. I know, **"I"** __ **"We"** can do it....
`Erum(29.10.2021//3.45pm)`
You're My Favourite Murderer
Hello Beautiful Souls and Strong Hearts all over the World. How are you? How was your day? I wish and hope you all are well and healthy.
First of all I want to thanks @Bloghound and at the same time I want to show my immense gratitude towards you for your sponsorship. Thank you again for believing and putting your trust & faith on me, sorry for tagging you without seeking your approval or permission.
Let's get started today's topic ___
**What is Love?** Can we define Love just by using some words step by step? The answer is absolutely NO. There is no one who can give the perfect and exact defination of Love.
But we can say that Love is a kind of feeling which lead us to take care for someone.
***Have you ever loved someone?*** I think most of us have the experience about Love at some point including me. I also fell in love with someone, that was unfortunately or fortunately one sided love. I learned a lot from that unsuccessful love since then I have no courage or time to love anyone else again.
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***My Dear Killer of Mine***
**Do** you remember that I sacrificed myself for you, but you did not accept my love or me for even once. That love ended with a painful and sad ending, this is the most expected outcome of one-sided love in almost all cases.
**I** can still imagine or feel those beautiful moments and memories when I first planted my love feelings and affections for you.
**I** was very happy when you accepted me and my childish love in an instant but I did not knew that time that you never accepted my love or me with all your heart, you were just pretending to love me back. I think I took at about five long and sad seasons of cycle to fully understand and digest that beautiful but bitter feeling.
**L**et's forget about this sad ending and my shattered heart for once.
**I'**m pretty much sure that__. You knew that I was crazy for you. You knew that I gave my all heart to you. You knew that I could not imagine one single moment without you, but you took advantages of my love , of my simplicity.
**M**y relationship with you is a snail's to it's shell(according to myself). You took one second to forget that you were my only sun in my lonely life. You forgot that I was just blooming for you, but I was one of those millions of options you had. You counted me among the other stars but even after realising that I didn't mind it.
**D**o you remember that when you were feeling thirsty I quenched your thirst with my blood and soul.
**D**o you remember that even when I was drowning in a fiery Ocean , I was only thinking and talking about you, about your love.
**D**o you remember that I used to search only you but you were trying your best just to hide from me.
**I** never stopped for a single moment thinking about you. I engraved your existence, your name in my every breath. Your position was eternal in every dream of mine, my each & every dream was only about you. *Can I call them Dreams or it will be better and more accurate to call them an illusion?*
You torn my body limb from limb. You dissected my soul. But still I did not stop loving you. You were well acquainted with this fact maybe that was why you got the scope to ignore me, to hurt me, to neglect me even more.
I kept running towards you, but you kept running just to get rid of me, my most precious and pure love. I kept loving you more than before even after your uncountable attempts to hurt me.
I was a fool, I did not understand that_. I was chasing a mirage. I forgot that you were not my beloved & peaceful dream actually you were just a nightmare which never failed to hunt me specially on the dark helpless and sleepless nights. Your love like ignorance forced me to run after you until I had blisters on my legs and wounds in my heart.
I always made yourself strong and smile whenever I saw your shinning face just to make you sure and showing my love for you, but you never missed a chance to trampled down my feelings.
I loved you with all my heart, with all my soul that is what I can do easily even now. I'm not saying that I knew everything, I just knew how to love you, how to care for you, how to protect you from all the evil eyes, how to make myself available every single moment just for you. *I used to follow your every foot steps. I used to follow your every heart throb. I used to follow your every breath. I used to follow your long dark shadow like a lighthouse.*
Your ignorance did not allow me to express my love to you. I wanted to tell you that I'm okay with my eternal one-sided love. I will keep loving you in my uncertain future too.
Do you remember when you bid me your last good bye, I was shouting & screaming with all my energy, I kept saying to you that I would not be able to live without you , to breath without you ,my eyes were bleeding with the tears of blood , but you did not notice or listen to me.
*You made me cry. You made me weak. You made me fragile.*
Even your lovely excuses could not console me, did not give me peace. That was when I noted down with my tears on my heart's dictionary **"LOVE IS A** **BIG LIE ITSELF."**
Every single person told me that you will never come back to me but I did not believe on them, I set aside all their opinions, though I was gifted with the paralysis of heart and soul.
*Have you ever seen a dead petal of flower?* I was just like that dead petal, I was simply decaying with time.. I had nothing to do but decay over time.
Then a full season of cycle had passed, I could feel that my broken heart started to beat again after a long time with a small gleam of hope and possibility.
That was the first time when I thought about anything far from your existence and shadow.
*It's okay to fall. It's okay to get hurt. It's okay to tear apart. It's okay to be rejected. It's okay not to be loved by someone. It's okay not to be okay for sometimes.*
Now look at me, look at my progress, look at my improvement. Now I'm not decaying. I'm blooming again in a new way. Just like this picture___
*Now I have learned how to love myself. Now I have learned how to accept myself. Now I'm happy, I'm in contentment. These are the only things which I wanted from you. It took so long time to learn, to accept these things. Now I'm living a new life. Now I'm enjoying my life..*
Still I'm hopeful maybe in another world, in another life we were meant for a happy ending but not in this life, not this time.
**Closing Thoughts :—**. Thank you from the bottom of my heart for reading my article. Thank you soo much for your support and love. It is not a true story, I was just wandering my thoughts lying on my bed , this is the fruit of my that thoughts.
I don't understand when will I see Rusty in my article. Now I'm waiting and I'm hopeful that it will happen very soon. Let's hope and wait for better.
Erum(17.10.2021/7.12pm)
Am I A Happy Soul?
**Hello** Beautiful People of this wonderful site. **I'm** here again by the grace of Allah. **How** was your day? **Mine** was pretty good coz I went out with my family to spend some time with them, there is no doubt that I enjoyed a lot . **Today's** sky was too beautiful to describe,it seemed that some one lighted up the whole sky and for this reason the clouds were burning, I captured a photo of that beautiful yet mysterious scenario, here it is____
**Let's** get started without wasting a single minute____
****What does the word 'Happy' means :—******Almost** all of us has heard this term before, am I right?
'**Happy**' the word suggest a different kind of emotion through which a person show or express her/ his extreme delight pleasure, satisfaction, gratitude and contentment towards someone or something. **It** is one of the emotional state just like sadness, gloominess etc.
**When** most of people including me talk about our happy emotion, I think they want to express their most favourite feelings. We can't define Happiness properly and fully just by weaving some words , we just can feel and enjoy this beautiful state.
****What is the Key Components of Happiness ?****
***1.Balance of Emotion*** **:**— **We** are human being, we must have to suffer from both negetive and positive emotions, it is an inseparable part of our life.
**None** of us can give us the exact defination of Happiness, but I think when a person face or experience more positive and good things than the negetive and bad things, that is when they are in happy state.
***2.Satisfaction*** :— **Satisfaction** is really important for leading a healthy (both mentally and physically) as well as a happy life. We need to feel satisfied with our work, with what we have at present, with our achievements, with our near & dear ones, with our relationships and with some other areas too whether we want or not.
***3.Mindset or Attitude*** :—Our mindset plays a vital role in our daily life, if one has the positive attitude and mindset towards everything then no matter what the situation is she / he will try her/ his best to find a solution related to that problem and he/ she will try to live happily with Positive mindset instead of accepting and loving their negetive thoughts.
***4.Exesive or unnecessary demand :—*** There is no end or death of our needs or demands. We always wants more and more, when one of our need is quenched somehow, another need is ready to arise in our mind instantly.
**We** need to overcome our excessive greed and needs, if we want the ray of happiness in our life then we must have to uproot our greed, our over needs.
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**We** all have to accept that science and technology has improved a lot in this current era, but we all have to accept this too that there is no device by which one can measure their happiness. It is just a mental state,we can feel it, we can enjoy it but we can't measure it.
****How do we Know that We are Happy?**** I have told you before that there is no device by which we can measure our happiness or by which we can know whether we are happy or not, bit let me tell you some basic things__
*i. If you feels that currently you are living theife you wanted to live then you're happy.*
*ii. If you feels the situation which you faces in your daily basis are good then you're happy.*
*iii. If you feels that you're already established in your life.*
*iv. If you feels you have achieved all the things you want to then you are happy.*
*v .If you feels you're satisfied with you life then you're happy.*
*vi. If you feels more positive than negetive then you're happy.*
**Can I Say One Thing ?** 'Happiness' the words is a myth itself. Happiness is not a state which is overlasting euphoria. **We** all have a full package of emotions, it can be sadness, it can be happiness, it can be anger, it can be discontentment, it can be frustration, it can be contentment.
**If** you want to cultivate and nurture the feeling of happiness the value every thing and every moment and follow some basic things ___
**1.Reduce your wants or needs.**
**2.Focus on your personal growth instead of seeing other's.**
**3.Stop to compare yourself with someone.**
**4.Try to enjoy every single moment.**
**5.Focus on your work.**
**6.Try to express or show your gratitude and satisfaction.**
**7.Try to cut down your worries, negetive thoughts.**
**8.Try to surround yourself with those people who are healthy for your physical as well as mental health.**
**9.Always remember, you're doing great enough, you're worthy of love, you can do anything, just believe yourself.**
**10.Try to thanks your Creator and accept yourself.**
I'm going to write about the main topic, let's find out am I really a happy soul or not.
****Am I Really a Happy Soul ?**** If you're asking me then I am happy and content with my life, but if you are trying to confirm yourself about my real state then I'm not really happy( maybe innerly).
**I** laugh a lot in front of people but believe me I cried a lot too Infront of no one except Allah, the almighty.
**I** can share and serve my pains, longings, aches ,my tears with my near and dear ones but I can't share with other people except my laughter and happiness.
**I** can make everyone happy instantly with my funny activities and funny talkative personality ( I have told this before) but no one even I can't wipe off my tears which always zigzagging down through my cheeks.
**I** love myself,I love my life style too but I do not like the way I'm living now.
**I** have a huge circle of friends and relatives when I feel happy but when I feel totally useless, broken, devastated I never found a single shadow of them even mine's too.
**If** you're going to say that I'm depressed then you're totally wrong. I'm not depressed but I fed up with all these things I experienced in my unforgettable past, I'm exeperincing in present and I'm damn sure that I will definitely fed up too which I am going to exeperience in my future.
**I'm** hopeful but broken.
**I'm** in contentment right now but I'm disappointed and dis- satiesfied with my life.
**I** love to dream and imagine but I'm afraid to dream at the same time.
**I** want to surround with a huge group of breathing and loving souls but I want to live alone too.
**I** love chaos(the sweet voices of my family and friends) but sometimes I prefer total silence.
**Sometimes** I want to burst into loud laughter but I failed several times to do that.
**Sometimes** I do not talk too much. Sometimes I talk a lot.
**Sometimes** I speaks in a very low and gentle voice but sometimes I screams aloud too.
**If** you want to point me as a patient of nervousness and depression then you can't coz I'm not mentally suffering maybe.
**If** you want hurt and harm me then you can't do it easily even after trying a lot of times and a lot of things because I'm too much strong to break but sometimes you can break mr me easily with your single word.
****Ending Thoughts :—**** **N**ow tell me one thing__ Am I Really a **H**appy Soul or I just Pretend to be a **H**appy Soul? **P**lease give your valuable answer. **I** have already asked this question myself several time even my mother and father too but every time I returned hopelessly and with shattered heart.
**T**his is my third article here, I know I have made a lot of mistakes here I'm sorry for that.
**If** you like my writing then let me know. Have a great and blessed night.
`This topic and all words are belongs to mine.`
`Erum(25.10.2021___7.32pm)`
**Thank you for reading, don't forget to express your thoughts about my article.**
My Journey Towards Crypto Currency
**Hello** Beautiful Souls and Gorgeous Hearts all over the world. **It's** is my first introductory article, so I need to ask all of you about something.... **How** are you? **How** was your day?
**Mine** was little bit lazy, but later my lazy and busy day turned into a super excited day filled with happiness and excitement.
**As** it is my first ever article in Read.Cash, so I need to start my crypto journey with a brief introduction about myself...
**Who I am? I'm** a simple and ordinary girl who is curious almost about everything ( My curiosity push me forward to join and enjoy Read.Cash). **Basically** I'm an introvert according to some distant people who do not know a single thing about me maybe they are not interested to know something about myself, I really don't know what the actual matter is. **But** I can say that I'm not an introvert in real, I love to talk a lot , I love to hanging out with friends just like others do(unfortunately or fortunately I never did this joyful things). **I** love to read (Except my text books), whatever I get Infront of me even a torn paper or a magazine or a destroyed piece of newspaper , without suffering I always picks up these things even when it lying in the street. **I** do not like to explain and explore my thoughts, my feelings, myself again and again to those who don't even try to understand my emotions.
**What do I do for living?** **Well**, I do not do anything for my living except wasting my life and time. **I'm** still a student now by profession who has not yet completed her degree.
**If** you are going to ask me about my passion then I can easily reply to you that **I'm** a full time dreamer and imaginer who love to dream and imagine unnecessary things.
**I'm** a kind of person who love her family and nature, I barely miss a chance or opportunity to learn something new from someone even from a tiny insect, the small yet important part of our nature.
**I** have already told you that I'm a full time dreamer actually a day dreamer and Imaginer for this reason I'm still unstable to choose a right career option for myself and my family. **I'm** trying my best and I believe that I will choose my right career option very soon.
**What are my Hobbies** :— Actually , often I can't understand myself, I'm so unstable. **I** **love** to plant different kinds of vegetables, fruits, flowers. **I** **love** to write poems specially sad and love poems. **I'm** really passionate about dancing and singing. **I'm** curious about everything.
**I** **want** to learn a lot of languages, I don't know why, currently I'm trying to learn `Turkish (From Duolingo`) and `Spanish from a Online class` because I can't join offline class because of this pandemic situation. **I** **love** to cook, I already learned some basic cooking recipes from my mother and YouTube. **I** **can** bring a wide smile on someone's face with my funny gestures, funny words, it is my favourite hobby among all.
**As** I told you I love to plant flowers, here it is my lovely daughter (Just Kidding) a lovely Rose.
**I** love to sit in the evening on my roof just to watch the burning and marvelous sunset.. **I** always carry my phone just to save those memorable moments, here I want to share one of those photos which a captured a while ago, here it is___
****When I Came to Know about Read.Cash for the First Time****:—.
**I** do not use other social media apps. I'm only active on WhatsApp for my study purpose and to communicate with my relatives and with my little circle of friends I mean real friends and for some other works.
**So** whenever my friends and any close relatives opens their social media accounts in front of me , I pounces on them and snatches away their mobile from their glued hand just like a hungry lion(Just joking, do not take it seriously) .
**One** day my elder cousin sister was enjoying her leisure but quality time by using her phone and I was sitting next to her, you all can imagine what happened that time . **My** curious eyes glued on a particular sight when she was scrolling down as usual and I took her phone and instantly started to read all the things which was written on that specific post.
***"Do you want to earn some free BCH?***"__. **This** is the exact question which was written there.
*Who would want to miss such a golden opportunity??* **I** guess no one, literally no one just like me.
**That** was the first time when heard about BCH, something new, something exciting, something interesting thing. **After** reading that article, I found out Read.Cash and I decided to join Read Cash , and now I'm here writing about my experience about BCH and Read.Cash.
**Finally** I made up my immature mind to become a full time member of Read.Cash.
**Let's** see what awaites for me at Read.Cash. **I** believe and hope both that I will be a good family member of Read.Cash.
****Why I'm Going to Join Read.Cash :-.****
**1.I** **want** to improve myself, specially my thinking capacity & capability, my writing skill, my imagining power, my knowledge about Crypto World. **I** want to give a proper shape to my thoughts and imagination.
**2.Currently** **I'm** pursuing my graduation for this reason I'm still not able to fulfill the immense hunger and demands of my society that's why often I stumbles and faces failures.
**I** **have** already secretly murdered and burried all my desires and dreams too, maybe that is why I'm still guilty to my mild and fragile heart. **But** I didn't realized that those murdered dreams and desires were still alive and hidden in my heart like a small sparkle of fire under a piled of ashes. **I** hope after joining Read.Cash, I will learn to live my life with a new dreams ,hopes and desires.
**3.Now** **I'm** financially defendant on my father, coz my mother is a house maker and I'm still a student, which I hate the most ever since I learned to understand, know about my Self-Dignity, my responsibilities towards myself , family and my society too.
**I'm** very willing to do something not only for my self, but also my family and also for my society. **I** heard from a lot of people that Read.Cash is continuously helping thousands of person to become stable and independent financially by supplying some earnings and I hope it will continue to do so in the future too. **I** think now I should stop writing coz my fingers are shouting aloud for some rest,. **I** have to listen to their's scream.
**Message** :—. **This** is mh first article in Read.Cash, and already I'm super duper excited to meet with new friends and family members.
**As** it is my first article so there is a possibility to make a lot of mistakes and **I'm** extremely sorry for that. **I** think I have to apologize to all of you for my unclear thoughts and mistakes. **I** know my thoughts is no longer able to cut a ice at this moment but I'm hopeful too that I will definitely rectify my mistakes in the future. **I** hope you all will not mind too much for my mistakes.
**If** you like my writing and want to write me more and more then do not forget to give me your support, your love. Don't forget to like and subscribe.
**Happy**, blessed and peaceful night ahead.
**Erum1 (22.10.2019)____(7.33pm)**
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