Growing up, doing such risky things are not my thing. I grew up aloof, silent and distant from everyone. Part of my childhood has a great influence on it.
If I feel like I will go through a stressful situation then I would refuse to do so. Because of this, I have missed a lot of opportunities which I thought to myself that things would turn out differently if only I took the risk.
I refuse to join the Journalism Club in grade school.
From Grades 1 to 3, I attended a private school. The competition there was not so tight although I can say that I'm one of those achievers in the classroom. I'm quiet, and never leaves my seat if necessary.
I remember back in my 1st-grade years, it was the first day of class and my anxiety went up to level 101 (exaggeration at its finest). I can't seem to find a comfort room inside the classroom so I have to excuse myself and go outside to pee.
So because of this too much introversion, I can't stand to raise my hand and excuse myself to my teacher and so I held on to my pee for as long as I could but I failed and peed on my underwear 🤦♀️😆
Going back about refusing about the Journalism, when I'm in my 4th grade to 6th grade, I transferred to the public school where my mother is teaching.
I was invited by one of the coaches for the Journalism team. He saw potential in me in terms of Radio broadcasting. He's my English teacher in 6th grade and it so happened that we had an activity about media. We did roleplaying and I played as a newscaster.
However, when he mentioned Journalism and it has something to do with competing other schools, I got so terrified and overthink. I can't help to see myself perform in a huge crowd with teachers and judges in front of me.
I became a scaredy-cat and let go of that golden opportunity. It could have made a great impact to my school performance.
But anyway, past is past. I can no longer change what has been made so I have to move on. It has nothing to do with my situation right now. Or could be? If only I honed my skills.
I knew it's one of my strengths but it also became my weakness. I was overpowered by negativity and cowardice.
When I entered high school, I slowly took a step forward little by little. I joined school organizations such as Singing Ministry (Choir group in the church), Campus Ministry (Religious group), School Band (lyrist) and Student Body Organization (Councilor).
Joining these organizations boosted my self-esteem. Somehow, it gave me a validation of treating myself that I'm capable of something. That I have the skills or talent.
I am still an introvert. I don't really interact that much with the people around me but if there's someone I'm close with and I feel safe with, then I can be an open book.
When I entered college, things were a bit different. Of course, it's the start of establishing a career. However, the course I chose doesn't seem to fit my personality but with great determination and perseverance (copy my classmates' assignments) I was able to graduate.
The skills I have in verbal communication and music were put on hold so I can focus on my course.
In 2015, I graduated and on the same year, I took the risk of getting a job far from home. That's when I started taking the risks. I learned my lesson and so I have to take the steps for great progress.
For 3 years, I became a Customer Service Representative and a College Instructor. Two different experiences but were enough to help me realize about things. I became matured in decision-making. I know there's always a room to grow there are more challenges to come.
I can definitely say that I can manage those with the help of my loved ones.
Now that I'm on the verge of what career to pursue, I'm up for an adventure and would be willing to take the risk because I know this is worth a try.
Such a random article. But yeah, that's all my mind can offer now.
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Introverted din ako pero murag labaw pa jud ka cguro sa akoa heheh! Nung high school gusto ko rin maging TV news anchor hahah! Ayan medyo relevant nmn pinaggagawa natin dito sa mga hilig natin noon 😂