It was so heavy for us to be free

"At last were free."

That was what I felt right now. At last were already free. Free, for we already separate from such a toxic environment. But it was so heavy for us to be free. It was heavy because of the situations that we faced before we were freed from such environment.

Disclaimer: This may be a long narration of my sentiments for the second time. Hopefully you can still finish reading this.

As you can remember my previous article entitled "When situations Demotivated me to Write".

I shared how I wanted to separate or to live away from were we stayed because of such situations that seems to be non-tolerable and I cannot bare it already. Knowing that, my partner's deaf cousin was a spoiled brat and can already do things beyond limits. Like, not afraid to stabbed someone or to even kill someone even if it's his cousins. Because as what he thought of doing, either good or bad but actually mostly bad acts, he will do that without any hesitations. That's how brutal already my partner's cousin is. They can't do nothing about it already because he was already a spoiled brat and thought that his father and his grandma will always be at his sides in whatever he does wrong. So, he became so boastful if he knew that his father is there and gone so wild when knew his father were also there to protect him. Because they were the one who tolerated him and that's why he became that way. He already thought that doing mistakes were just fine for him because his father and grandma were always at his side and just tolerates that and never disciplined him and they will always blame those other person whom doesn't made the mistakes. Because as they always say, "Just always have patience in him because his not in his right mind because his deaf" In bisaya, (pasensya e nalang na ninyo kay kahimangno man mo nga wa nay boot kay bungol)

That was what they always say everytime my partner's cousin made a mistakes.

Yes, patience is there always. But not all the time that patience will always be the solution. My partner as what I've also said in my previous article, that he won't never tolerate his cousins acts. If his acts were already non-tolerable. So, he will really disciplined him right away. But sad to say, it's always my partner's fault everytime he did that. The father and their grandma will always take side on the deaf and even not listens to the explanations of my partner that they will all do the time take sides of the deaf because as what his acts already he was now being boastful. But then, they will always take sides of the deaf. What can we do? Our words are not being value even if it's for the goodness of the deaf. No one can defend my partner, his siblings and us if we tried to explained our sides even if we are in the right side. That is why we end up deciding to just separate from there and just rent a house for us not to be blamed on the situations and for us to be away from them as well.

So, yesterday I and @isla_20 my partner's sister already seeks for a house to be rented and good thing we had found one yesterday. Then, today were planning to helped the owner of this house to cleaned first the house before we moved here tomorrow. But again, today something happened that made us moved here in this new house immediately.

When I and my sis in law got back to their grandma's house (the house we lived in) since this morning we went here in the new house to confirmed to the owner that we are planning to moved here for tomorrow because were afraid the situations maybe worsen if we stayed longer in their grandma's house.

I should already start to fixed and packed all our things first. When I get all the clothes that I washed the other day I noticed that there were lots of stained in our white clothes that was just hang outside. I told my partner that the clothes specifically the white clothes that I washed the other day had lots of stained. I never knew that my partner will then confront the deaf, asking him if he does it or not. Because if I knew I will not let my partner to confront the deaf because were already leaving tomorrow.

Actually, my partner said that was just fine from the first place because the deaf cousin still afraid of him. He just asked if he does it then he left the deaf inside their house after his asking it. Then the deaf just sit down there in there house. But then, this grandma of them were already shouting which triggered the deaf to gone wilder. Because he saw the grandma is there of course to take his sides. My partner that time were already leaving away in the house because the deaf when confronted him just bowed down. Because of the acts of their grandma whose shouting and shouting because she thought my partner will kill the deaf even though that was just a confrontation and nothing happens at all. She then shouted and the deaf seen her and that made the deaf to almost stabbed my partner with a sword (sundang in bisaya). Since the deaf became boastful when he saw his grandma is there to take his sides.

Good thing my partner looked back and already saw the deaf that was already in his back with a sword. Then the old woman never stop shouting and she even got in the middle so my partner told his grandma to stay away because the deaf has a sword. Then my partner just wanted to frightened the deaf. When my partner runs towards the deaf to frightened it the deaf immediately locked himself inside their house. Then my partner told his grandma that if only she never shouted like that the deaf won't gone wild because he just confronted it and the deaf just even bowed down when he does that. He told his lola (grandma), that she was just so overreacting in fact his plan is just to frightened his cousin and he won't kill it. Because he just wanted to made the deaf realized his mistakes.

After that since the deaf were gone wild already, he then throws stones in the grandma's house and all the windows were got broken. I and my son locked ourselves in our room for us not to be hit by the stones. That was last longer and the deaf never stops throwing stones in the house untill all the windows were broken. So, I did call a police already to refrained the deaf and to put him first in station because my son were already crying inside the room hearing the stones that was being thrown inside the house which broke the window but when the police came the deaf were running away and the police never saw the deaf already. The police even get their guns because they saw the deaf has a sword. Then my sis in law told the police to just put away the guns because whatever happens to the deaf it's still our faults. But of course as what I've said the deaf were running away when he saw that there are police coming towards him. Then, we just let the police stay until we able to packed our things first and we immediately moved here in this new house.

Actually the father came, and told the police that his son won't be like that if only we just let everything pass away meaning we just let away the wrong acts of his son and to have patience in him. Then my partner confronted the father in front of the police that it's already a long time that he always puts patience and just let away all the mistakes of the deaf and not now because the deaf were already uncontrollable and must be stop and must be disciplined. But of course it's already too late for that because the deaf already has the attitudes. Then I also confronted the father, that if only he never tolerated the mistakes of his son from the beginning because knowing his son is deaf then his son won't be like what he is now. Then, the father responded, if what can he do now, he can't do nothing about it now because his son were already like that.

So, after everything packed we immediately moved in this house even our plan was to moved here tomorrow. Then, the police left when we are able to moved here already.

When all our things were moved. I then asked his sister and brother to also packed their things. Of course since they were just biking, my partner's bike was used by his brother to get back to their grandma's house to get also their things. Then, someone told us here that the bike's back tire again was being sliced by the deaf. What we did is we let them paid for the damages of the bike, then the father of the deaf bought another tire for the bike since his older daughter sent them the money to fixed our bike.

That was really sad, knowing the fact the situations really worsen before we able to moved in this new house. Then, it's also sad because it's always our fault. It's always us who were blamed by the father, the grandma for what happen.

I'm really wondering, until when they are going to tolerate how brutal already their son and grandson. In fact this deaf can really understand well if your talking to him in a sign language.

I was also sad because they put me on blame that I was the one who put the flame. Like what? Isn't their grandson and son who always put a flame and made the fire to spread out. Like why are they blaming me, if my partner's siblings will also leave their house and follow us then it's their decision as well because they also wanted to free themselves from all the blaming, from the toxic environment because if they stayed their no one will defend them because their explanations are not worth for them. No one will listens to them even their grandma were the number one who talks not good for them.

So, now we are here already in this new house that we rented and were doing our best to coped up with life. Because it's okay to feel the hardships in life as long as there is no toxic in the environment. For today, only @isla_20 is here with us. Their brother were still sleeping there in their grandma's house because their grandma is alone there and their brother will washed first their clothes before he will stay here since we are going to cleaned this house first.

I even contacted my parents to get first my son here for we cannot cleaned this properly if my son is here. Then they will come here tomorrow as well to get my son.

I'm hoping that this will be the start of our new life which we aren't bombarded within the four walls with lots of negativities.

I know one day, everything will fall into it's places and all our dreams as a family will come true.

Now, were already free from an environment which has full of negative ambiance. It wasn't that easy but still we able to surpassed it.

That would be all everyone. Again, I apologized for this was a long sentiments. I'm really grateful for this platform that I could able to expressed my feelings here. I hoped I could received a comments from you all if what we did is right or not.

Thank you. Still, happy reading!

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