The Tears Anxiety
Some individuals in this world, experience anxieties. There are a lot of types of anxiety. It's depend of a person what's the anxiety she/he experience. Anxiety can make our life miserable.
It will give us unmeasurable fears and endless tears. It will give a dark days to the people who experience with it. It's not a joke. It's a serious mental illness. The greatest enemy from our minds and connected into our bodies.
I have an anxiety once in my life. It was my first time. I didn't expect that I could experience a worst anxiety ever. It was one of the worst days I have. The one who make my life into miserable.
Back year 2020, I have a head pains and it was longer 4-5 months before it was gone but before that happened I suffered a lot with that illness I have. Everyday I always cried because of that pain. There were no days I didn't cried because of the pain I felt. The worst was I felt the pain inside at my head. It wasn't a normal pain. It was the worst!
I didn't know what was the reason of that pains. I was in the point that I always thinking negative thoughts. I was working that time. It was the reason I couldn't work, I was out of myself already at my work because I couldn't concentrate with the tasks I have. My workmates were the one who always motivating me because of the endless cries I have because of the head pains. Sometimes I shouted loudly since the pain was uncontrollable already. I couldn't bear it. The reason my workmates would panic time to time because of me and there was a time, they were all hugging me. They stand as my second mothers to me.
I want to travel home that time but I couldn't because it was really strict. It was happened April 2020, it was the time the city was locked down already. I was really worried. I didn't have a choice but to stay even it was really hurt.
Until I have an anxiety already, I didn't noticed at first until I observed, I felt somethin' different. I felt the coldness time to time then my hands were shaking then I have a difficulty in breathing. My heart was somethin' heavy everytime it would attacked. I didn't aware that time that it was an anxiety already. I have my head pains and that was the other one so it became worst. A double pains I experience.
Until I knew it that it was a worst anxiety. I couldn't believe it. It was really painful because time to time it will attacked even I was going to control my hands to stop it still nothing happens, it will continue again and again. My heart was beating so fast and I have a difficulty in breathing. My roommates were always in panic because of me.
When it became worst, I experience like I hate already dark. I hate evening. I felt nervous when it was already 5:30 pm. I wanted to have a companions all the time. I don't want to be alone because I frightened a lot. I want somebody beside at me always. I hate if the light was turn off. I hate it a lot because it will make my fears became worst. I felt I want somebody also who always there for me to talk to me and I cried easily.
If I noticed that I felt coldness in my body again, I will ran immediately then sit on the chair and drink water. It was really hard. Until now, still it's a fresh in my mind but I don't want it to be back. Never in my life! It was really unforgettable experience. It gives me a biggest trauma! I thought it would take longer and I thought it would never stop but thankful to God because he help me. He sent someone to be my angel that time. He sent someone who will take care of me and escape those darkness place I have. He help me to get out on that dark days.
I'm forever grateful to the doctor who save me! I believe God sent him for me. God is always in my heart. He change my life. He give me a chance. I'm forever thankful to my savior, no other than it's only our almighty God! 🙏
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Thank you so much. I hope I give you some worthy time with this article of mine.
God bless everyone. Stay safe always. 🙏
-JRamona20 💜
God is our great healer sis 🥰 I know it's not an easy experienced you've been through and you're very brave to overcome it. Keep going lang sis and trust to God everytime you are struggling that🙏