Blog#143 February 09,2022 no.08

They says, crush can be turn into a puppy love and soon you'll forget that person and your feelings will surely fade away. But what if it didn't happen?

I had my first crush when I was a sophomore student in our city, but sad to say he is one year younger than me. I saw him during our flag ceremony. He caught my attention because of their noise that irritates me. Our flag ceremony isn't yet starting so all the students are still having their chitchat, while I'm just silently listening to them. When I saw him he really caught my attention, he was cute, he looks like a Chinese national, but he is just pure Filipino.

I think he noticed that I'm secretly staring at him so he suddenly looked at my direction and that startled me😂. I stand straight without turning back again, as I feel shy that he caught me staring at him 😜.

Honestly, I don't like to attend our flag ceremony in our school, but things change when I saw him lol. Every day I always go to school early, just to make sure that I wouldn't be late. I always attend our flag ceremony just actually to see him 😂. He became my inspiration, and every day a glimpse of him makes my day complete (charot).

But one day, he suddenly stopped attending our flag ceremony. I thought he was just late and later on I will saw him, but he really don't attend school that day. I wonder why but I didn't stop waiting for him.

Days and month's later, he really didn't go to school anymore. That's funny but it broke my heart, I feel sad with his absence, but nobody knows what happen to him and I don't even get a chance to know his name. I get bored and I felt that emptiness in me.

Fast forward...

To love some-buddy

Have you ever had a special relationship with your best friend? Did it work?

I had my first boyfriend after I graduated high school and he is my boy bestfriend when I was a senior student. Actually I don't like the idea being in a relationship with him, as I don't wanna lose him as my best friend. But he says that if it won't work then we can comeback as a bestfriend. We tried, but actually the feeling is a little bit awkward.

One day, he invited me to come to their house as their village is celebrating its fiesta, he also wanted me to meet his family. We've been friends for a year but I haven't meet his family, so that day was my chance to meet them.

When we arrive at their home, they already have some visitors and most of them are their relative's and some are friends of his siblings. He looked for his mom but one of his siblings say's that she's in their aunt's house. Before he go to his aunt he introduce me first to his little sister. His little sister is cute, and it's very friendly so I felt comfortable with her.

My boy-friend went to his aunt's house to look for his mom, so I was left alone seating in their coach. Then suddenly a familiar face came from outside with his friends. I wasn't really sure if where did I saw that face, but I know, I already saw it somewhere, I just didn't remember where. I kept on staring at him while trying to remember how his face becomes familiar. I didn't notice that my boy-friend came and he call that guy and introduce him to me, as his younger brother. He says that his brother also went to our school but he transferred after the second semester.

What a small world, who would have thought that I'm gonna meet him again (my first crush). But sadly he is in a relationship when I saw him again😅. I don't know why but I suddenly felt sad when I learned that his already in a relationship, the fact that I'm already in relationship with his brother makes things more complicated lol. I thought I already forgotten him but why the earth I'm feeling this way🤣.

When I went home, I felt emptiness again. I shouldn't be acting like that as I know that there's already some one will get hurt.

Later on, my relationship with my best friend, didn't goes well, I know it won't work. I really can't love him more than friends and I'm glad that he respected my decision. We're still friends but things actually change. He isn't the best friend I've known anymore, but there's still time that whenever they have special occasion in their house he still invited me, but I didn't go, as I don't wanna see his brother 😜.

And that's how I had my first heartbreak, lol.

How about you? How did you get your first heartbreak?

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