Disclaimer: All statement written was based on my experiences, if you are in crucial situations please seek professional help.

Sometimes I am sweet, aggressive, passive, cool and sometimes I don't give a damn. Have you recognized how I interact with you here? I have a different approach because I have this multiple characters.

Okay, okay don't think I am a psychopath because I can determine all of it and I can control them. I am aware of my attitude, that is why sometimes I am also upset if one of my characteristics went overboard.

What are my different characters?

I write this just so you can also determine and assess yourself if you have the same dilemma or you are confused with yourself. I am not a psychologist but I can assess different characters because I've gone through too much emotional and mental distress that causes me to develop different kinds of characteristics but good thing I've learned to recognize and control them.

Our experiences in life can push us sometimes to be the best or to be the worst version of ourselves.

In this article I'll tell what are my characteristics, so you'll know who are the ones dealing with you.

The Bitchy Type

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This character of mine was developed when I lost trust in men, it's when I already understand my situation that my biological father left my mom when she's pregnant with me. After that, my mom had another affair again and he was a sadist, he keeps beating my mom.

Then I started to think that men cannot be trusted, this is where I started to play with guys who show interest in me. I don't take them seriously because I believe they are only playing with me too. If you remember my stories that I am just playing around with guys during my youth.

This character was gone now, as I am already in settling down the stage. I shut it down, but who knows this bitchy is just around the corner and come out when she's being triggered lol. But I am thankful for this character as I wasn't fooled by the guys I encountered, I was saved from unnecessary heartaches.

The innocent one

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When I was new in Manila, it's a big city and a promdi girl like me was adjusting to the place where it has a lot of different people, I used this character to determine who will treat me right or who will take advantage of me.

When I applied for work people think of me as I am very innocent, that I don't know anything in the world. Some are bully because they know I came from the province, then they were surprised as I was not that innocent when they know me better.

I still use this character when I am new in the environment, to see how people approach me and to know how will I adjust myself to respond to them accordingly.

With this character, I can also fool people as I act innocently like I don't know anything and ask them a lot to gather more data added to my learnings or info that I might use in the future.

The aggressive one

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This character comes out when I was fed up with bully people. I used to be bullied when I was a kid, I just cried at the corner enduring all the bullies, and sometimes they hurt me physically. Nobody was there to help me, so when I was fed up already this aggressive character came out.

When there are people who act like bully this character will be hyper, even until now it still exists. This character fears no one, it goes all out with battles and is willing to fight till the end if other characters will not interfere. This seems the beast that awakens when it was triggered. This character hates bullying so much, even if it was other people that got bullied the beast will react and buy the battles of others that is why sometimes I shut it down immediately if it starting to come out because it cause some troubles to me.

I remember before one of my professors scold me in front of my classmates and called me a lunatic, this character went all in and tell the professor “You are more lunatic than me, you're a professor you should know how to handle your student's behavior instead of shaming in front of the whole class! You think I am scared of your scoldings?”. My professor was stunned by how I answered him back. See? This behavior didn't think the prof might give me failing grades but this character is on point, that sometimes people have to ponder when it strikes.

This character also show up when I was at my working platform in Shaw Boulevard, the team leader treats me unfairly. This character was fed up and answer the team leader, she even want to smash the girl good thing some of our workmates interfere but she didn't escape with “Fvck you bitch! Don't come near me, or else I'll punch you!” with her middle finger salutes the girl. My supervisor got stress with me at that time, I was called immediately to the office but I just received a warning. I wasn't fired haha! The supervisor ask me why I was like that, I told her the attitude of the team leader and she spare me. The funny thing is when she called me, I was laughing like a fool. This character is a pain on the ass.

Yeah, this character is bold and fearless. That is why I have to control it well before it controls me.

When I got troubled because of this character, the innocent one will appear. The innocent will act in front of the people I got troubled with. Sometimes it even cried like a fool, will do dramas just so they'll spare me and because she's innocent she can lure them. This innocent always got bothered cleaning up the mess of an aggressive character.

Closing Thoughts

I only stated three characters but it's long already, I don't want to bore you with 7-10 minutes of reading time so maybe I'll make a part two of this, only maybe if I am in the mood lol.

Maybe some of you can relate, I mean wonder why you have different attitudes as well maybe in this way you can determine it. Human psychology is a complicated matter, you cannot understand it easily that is why we need to learn it.

P.S: didn't write any relevant topic today so I'll just publish this one, it's been on my drafts for a decade lol.

Thank you for reading!

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Date Published: September 12, 2021