Trying to calm myself not to spend
Do you know that I can't count how many days I've been thinking the same thing again and again? Every Morning when I woke up, every time that I read article, every time that I write, every thing that I do, these things always bothering me and never leave my mind peacefuly.
You know me for being kuripot when it comes to my BCH hodlings because i just have a one goal and you already know that but I will say it again, and that is to help my mom to build our own house. But seriously, I did not expect that I have this problems that will bother me that I was very stress because of it.
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So let's go back to our topic, Why I am being pulled of spending some of my BCH again?
My first problem of my Pimples, I don't know why but this is the first time that I experience having a pimple break outs. At first, I don't mind it because they are just little and I thought to my self, "Don't worry, they will be gone in just a days". Until how many days was passed and my pimples are growing more. From my forehead, to my left and right cheecks and I am not happy looking at them anymore. Actually, I am using the facial foam that I was using when I was High School. They are good to my skin before, but I don't know why it was not effective to me now. I buy the Ponds Facial Foam and Facial Toner
because they are cheap and I can save a lot of money coz' I don't like to buy many expensive products at first that I am using them, they are good. It almost a month when I used them but then I don't know why I have a pimple break-out. But when I wake up every morning, my skin is so oily reason why I think, it is because it is not already good to my skin type since I already tried a lot of beauty products now.
So, I am worried that what if my face will have a lot of visitors? They will appear more in the next days right?
My next problem is, I don't have a shirts now that can be fit to my body. I fix my drawers last night because I have a lot of t-shirts, shorts, and any dresses but it was so messy and I don't remember when is the last time I fix my drawer lol.
When I was High School, I am skinny. I still have a curve to my waist back then. I always want to be chubby so I eat a lot of foods and drink some vitamins until I no longer realized that I was gaining weight. So, since I was just staying at our house when I stop studying, I just use T-shirts and pajama. So all of the shirts that did not fit to me now is stock on my drawer. So last night, when I was fixing them, I tried to wear the one t-shirt,
Nagbabakasakali lang naman diba? Baka pwede pa. Pinilit ko pa talaga pero di ko alam na ako din lang pala ang masasaktan kasi grabe, muntik nako di makahinga!
I just have a few shirts to wear reason why I almost faint because I don't have a shirts to wear. I am not going outside eh, So I am not buying some new shirts in the past years. That even my tops that my Aunt in abroad give to me every christmas was just stock too because it is not fit to me (she did not know that I am fat now).
So What I can do? I think I need to buy some my shirts in shopee next month? And give those small size shirts of mine to my younger cousin and also can you recommend to me some beauty products that I can able to use and good for oily skin?
I am so very problematic! Because I don't like to buy or spend my BCH but what I can do right? If i will not buy maybe I will regret it. How I wish i know about some beauty products so that i will not be problematic in my visitors in my forehead. Because of them,
I already know what is the feeling of losing some confidence to take some photos to post in my social media account.
And I also realize that maybe because, in this time, months past and I was become busy to accumulate BCH that i did not realize that I don't take care or my self anymore.
When I look in the mirror, I look like a panda because of my black eyebags, and blackheads to my nose. Plus my fat body too.
End of my Thoughts...
Even if i always comfort myself, I still can't stop my self from being worried. I think I really need to save some for myself? To spend it buying the things that I needs too. But of course, I need to budget it so that I will not spend a lot of money. But, still I am not sure if I can or I really sure about this plan. And i also hope to my self that I will not be lazy in doing exercise to burn my fats right?
Don't worry, I still love my self. I just want to take care of my self because i am not happy anymore to how I look now.
So yeah, Thank you for reading! I hope that you can still stay healthy, and take care of yourself despite of our busy schedule in the last 3days of the month.
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Ay nako mars, relate ako sa pimples. It started with one zit and now? Di ko na mabilang. Hmmm gumagamit kasi ako ng rejuvating set. Effective sya sakin. Baka gusto mo i try skin perfection name ng brand 180 lang. Or if gusto mo yung organic, try mo mag ani bg turmeric.