Here I am again with a somehow unplanned blog. I have thought of just publishing an article tomorrow morning, but something happened earlier that pushed me to write tonight.
It was still the same as yesterday, the rain has visited every hour, some rivers and water reservoirs must be raging with lots of waters by now. I even got an alert about the strong rainfall warning. I have not watched the news, but maybe, another typhoon has come to visit our country again. Not news to me. Typhoons and tropical depressions love coming over to the Philippines LOL.
Okay, so going home after work, I walked again though the overpass to cross the highway full of jeepneys and other vehicles. I can't afford to risk my safety crossing the road like I always did (when I feel lazy to go up the overpass), and one more thing, it's raining, so I also get a free shade from the roofs of the overpass.
There is this stray dog I'd always see whenever I'd pass that place. It is a white dog that seemed to have found its home in this cold, lonely overpass. I don't want to sound dramatic, but I had another eye contact with the dog again, after some weeks. He has got one of the saddest eyes I've ever seen, and I just can't get that image out of my mind right now.
Please don't laugh at me for being emotional over a dog, because I love dogs a lot. If you'd ask me, I would honestly answer that I'd prefer dogs as best friends than humans. Yes. Dogs are the perfect definition of loyalty and trust, especially if you gave them the love and care that they deserve. I sometimes think, that we humans, don't deserve them. They are just too pure for this cruel world.
Now, I am really shaking as I write this. I am trying hard to suppress the grief because I am with my family right now, and they'd be shocked seeing a girl just breaking down in the middle of watching a television show.
The last time I saw this dog, I promised that I'd bring him some food when I see him again. But for some stupid reason, I did not give him any earlier. I hate myself for that. I really do. I know and I remember I have a leftover chicken leg that I was not able to finish in my lunch time earlier, but I did not get it from my lunch bag, because I have to follow my friends who I always travel home with.
I wished I told them to wait. I know they would. Why did I hold myself back that time? Now, I regret it. I could not stop thinking of those sad eyes of him. Good Lord, I know what I did earlier was not right. Forgive me for this, and help me to at least take some action to help that poor stray dog.
My heart hurts right now. He's a white dog, which is not that visible because he is dirty and all. It is even raining now, my, how cold he must be right now. Oh my goodness, I feel sadder. Goodness gracious, I don't wanna cry. Lord, please help the dog.
I will just pray this all so I can still get a sound sleep. I will still work tomorrow. If anyone here is from the Philippines and resides in Carmona, Cavite.. please let me know if you are aware of animal shelters in that place, as I am really a noob in this field. Moreover, it is not my residential place, so I am not aware. I will try to have my own research, at least.
Okay, I don't wanna dwell on this gloomy feeling, and just try to think positive.
On a lighter note, I am grateful and blessed to achieve new humble milestones today. Thankful of God for blessing me in this platform through my supportive readers, and Rusty's frequent visits. I promise to always do my best and work harder to be deserving of this little success. Glory be to God.
I can't shoo away this guilty feeling. I am blessed, but I can't even show some love to that dog earlier. Okay, I am being dramatic again. I apologize. I will really stop now. I should take some action and give some food to that dog tomorrow, so I won't have any regrets. Ellehcim, don't you dare be pre-occupied tomorrow. Don't you dare forget.
It is the reason why I feel incomplete today. I am happy with all of the blessings, but not happy with how I did some things. I don't want to regret any longer, so I hope I really would do something tomorrow—something I'd thank myself for.
I never thought it's possible
For someone to look at me,
As if I am his world.
He knows when I have a trouble;
He sits beside me
Into my lap he is lovingly curled.
It's as if I did him the greatest thing—
That he's grateful everyday
Greets me ever so happily,
Oh, what comfort he does bring!
I know he'll always stay,
for he loves me faithfully.
"My Ultimate Best Friend"
If you have a pet, whether a dog or a cat, or whatever it maybe, I hope you give them a big hug after this. They are here to bring joy to us, and even help us with our daily lives. I can't imagine a world without these wonderful pets, that loves us dearly..
There are people who can afford to leave their dogs—I've watched lots of stories like that. But these dogs, these loving dogs, they always remember, and will always recognize their owners. No matter how many bad things the owners did to them, they will only remember and keep into their memories those rare times their owners did them good things. They treasure these sweet moments forever, as if staying with their owners is the life devotion they set for themselves.
That's why I love dogs so much. They have sharp paws to harm, or sharp teeth to bite, but they always choose to be affectionate and submissive to their owners. We don't deserve them, really. I don't know anymore. It's raining and I am also crying right now. Good thing I am in bed.
Let me stop this drama session because I don't want to work with swollen eyes tomorrow. Whew.
A rainy evening from here!
I apologize again for being a crybaby tonight, I honestly don't know what got into me. LOL. Do you love dogs as much as I do? If yes, hello dear friend! You are loved!
Thanks for being with me today. Sharing this made the burden a bit lighter somehow. Remember to get proper rest, stay hydrated, and stay safe! Oh, and always pray to God! Sending you virtual hugs, and with that..
Until Next Time!
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Will hug my dogs later as they are on the floor. Nafeel ko yung nafeel mo lalo dog lover ako. Sana in every city meron mga animal welfare. Yun nga lang yung iba alam ko kailangan ng funds. May isa ako noon nabasahan sa Facebook na nanghingi donations for the dogs.