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Today was hectic, I walked long distances and I couldn't use my phone. I had an errand to run at ten in the morning and I finished around five. I ended up missing three deadlines due to it, I rushed to finish one of them but completing the other two today doesn't look feasible to me at all.

I was so tired but I couldn't bail on read.cash. I had to write this with extreme fatigue and hunger. Today's experience made me realize the whole responsibilities of adulthood.

I think those thoughts have been seeping into my head since morning especially after I watched a video of five or six people singing a song about how Adulthood is a scam.

For the longest time, I wanted to be a grown-up, to make my own decisions. I'm home because of ASUU strike but the main reason I miss school is not because of the lectures or the hostel, maybe a bit about my friends but it's mostly because of freedom. In school, I dictated the time I got back to my hostel, I did anything I wanted ( nothing wild just to be clear 😂😂, I'm a good girl).

I miss the 'come downstairs, I'm outside your hostel' from my friends. I miss late hangouts with @Greatwolfman and @Gaftekloriginal. Sometimes I would take a stroll and randomly meet @Tomi-Ajax and @HappyBoy. School was a vibe but I'm not sure it really dawned on me that I'll never be in the school forever.

I mean I've thought about it but I'm not sure I've thought about it, if that makes sense to you.

I just really realized that my whole responsibilities will be on me, I knew but I've always looked at the future positively. I mean, where do I even get the money for the type of lifestyle I want? I definitely can't fund it with the amount of money I have.

I've been on this platform for 9 months but being on and off because of school work (I'm extremely bad at multitasking) had not really favored me in terms of my earnings.

My thoughts just kept spiraling, It led to me thinking 'What if I become a bum when I'm like a real adult?' I'm an adult now In all ramifications but I consider someone above 25 a real adult unlike people like me that are just on the cusp of adulthood.

I then realized that I never maximized my childhood, I never appreciated it. When I was young, I focused more on growing old and now that I'm older, I miss childhood.

If I could go back in time, I would definitely enjoy it more among other things I would love to do.

I saw various posts on children's day yesterday, it made me reminisce. Those times I has no worries, exams weren't even hard, and you don't have to worry about some professor's tests and stuff.

I remember playing hide and seek and cooking with sand too. I think I've always known I'll be a good cook. You should have seen the kind of delicacies I made with sand, stones, and all sort of plants.

I remember how much I loved to hopscotch popularly called Suwe. I was one of the best then.

I was mostly an indoor child so I remember my many fairytale books and my love for Barney and high school musical. How could I not love Troy Bolton and his blue eyes? I can't believe I thought Troy and Gabriella were going to get married, thinking about it now, Troy was stupid not to have gone to that his dream school because of a woman, thinking about it now makes me annoyed.

I had a Nickelodeon phase too, Icarly, Hannah Montana, Victorious, Big time rush, Sam and Cat, Thundermans, etc

This was before I moved to kdramas😂😂, and I started juggling them with Nickelodeon and Step up movies.

I'm in full-on nostalgia mode right now, I just miss childhood.

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May 28, 2022.

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