#N266/12TH-TM|05/20/2022| 10:32 AM
I'm on the nineteenth Day since that painful break-up. Wishing it was just a dream, but then I realized it never was. How's my life after that? Let's fine out through reading this write up...
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What's up my lovely and handsome brothers and sisters!? How are you? I was inactive two days straight. Did you notice that? I hope you did. (Smiling)
How's your hustling journey? Did you achieve your goals already? Or still striving? What about me? Uhm... I am too far from that. Especially that I am not as active as you are my read.cash fam. So, what's the lastest update? (Marites na naman.^_^) Well, I will just share the most important thing that had happened to me this past few days. Both good and bad, of course. (I am just comfortable sharing with you about my personal life, because I know I can trust you my fam.)
May 18, 2022-Wednesday
- Someone treated me on eating "Balut." That someone is the one I have mentioned on my previous article. The one that helped me to survive the storm. But before that, I decided to went to my Aunt and I've got a little scolding from her because of MGD. She said to me that I am just numb because I didn't give another chance to MGD. "Sayang daw kasi yung six years." But I said, "it will never happen again." I have given him a lot of chances but he just keep repeating what he did.
Its not because I have someone that comforts me now. Its because I have found my worth. I am able to realized that I should love myself first more than anything else or leaving some love for myself instead of giving it all. I realized that at that time, I was just too blinded because of too much love I have given to him but still it wasn't enough for him to stay loyal to me. Even at this very moment, I still have these questions in mind,
"Why he did that to me?"
"Am I not good enough?"
"Am I not worthy enough?"
Though I forgave him, but I still can't imagine myself to talk to him or to see him again. I am not yet ready for that. The pain is still there.
After staying for a while in that place, I decided to went outside and spent my time to that someone. He let me eat all I want. I mean the Balut. I am able to see his efforts, for calling and chatting me. He even visited me at home. He accompanies me when I went to a Disco. He talks to me everyday whenever possible. And if you're asking, "Am I happy? Yes! I am very much happy.
May 19, 2022-Yesterday
- I went to town with my Aunt and my cousin. She bought a shoes for him and I bought some of things I need like my vitamins and my beauty regimens.
It was actually a fine day, but I just don't know why it rained all of a sudden. It feels like there was a storm. I really thought that we will not be able to go to town because of that phenomenon. But thanks God, for it stopped. Fast forward, we've got home around 6 pm and had a dinner with my papa and mama. And around 8 pm, that someone visited me at home. In bisaya term, "Namisita." I felt he was really nervous because of the sweats he got all over his face. My parents was just at their room sleeping. (Ganyan kasi sila pag may bisita ako. Hindi kasi sila yung mahilig din makipagkuwentuhan lalo pa pag bisita ko. Awkward ba? Nasanay na lang din ako. Hoping na sooner or later, kausapin na din nila yung tao. Hehe)
We spent time together, talking just a random stuffs. And lately realized, it was already 1 am in the morning. "Kapag kasi kumportable ako sa taong kausap ko, hindi ko na iniintindi yung oras." After that, I said that he should go home na para mapagpahinga na din.
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And here I am today, waking up in a beautiful friday, smiling and trying to manifest positivity. I hope you do the same.
Regarding the break-up issue, the pain is still there but I am taking each day as a challenge or just a test. I know God's time will come. It will surely will! (Sighing) For now, I am trying to enjoy my life with my family and my social media life.
That would be all for this blog. Thank you for spending your time my read.cash family. Take good care of yourselves!❣️
TO GOD BE ALL THE GLORY!😇
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I want to extend my deepest gratitude towards the people that keep supporting my works in here. To my avid readers, likers, subscribers, and upvoters. As well as my sponsors; (old, new, and renewed ones). Having you as my Readcash family and virtual friends, gives me the an immense sense of satisfaction. Thank for the love and support you have given to me. Thank you for being my everyday inspiration and motivation to keep doing this thing. Thank you for making my Readcash journey fruitful. May the Lord God bless us more fruitful days, months, and years to come!
Just Love!❤️
@renren16
See you in my next article!😊
xoxo(*˘︶˘*).｡*♡
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"I Feel at Ease Now" https://read.cash/@renren16/i-feel-at-ease-now-a5457787
"Fiesta and A Disco" https://read.cash/@renren16/fiesta-and-a-disco-night-17b4f967
"Only God Knows When" https://read.cash/@renren16/only-god-knows-when-f145d804
"Unfairness on my Side" https://read.cash/@renren16/unfairness-on-my-side-4741b169
"Worst among the Worst" https://read.cash/@renren16/worst-among-the-worst-e695220f
Slowly but surely sis, it's not easy but I know someday somehow you can overcome it.