#N265/11TH-TM|05/17/2022|8:00PM
Eleven days after my greatest heartbreak. I'm still on the process of moving on. Thankful that I came to this part. I felt at ease here now inside my heart...
________________________
Good day my lovely and handsome read.cash family! How are you today? I hoped you are having a great time with your family, friends, with or without your special someone, and of course for yourself. Take a deep breath and let the negative thoughts out. Let's spread positivity.
How does it feel to be happy? Happy in the sense that you wake up in the morning putting a big smile in your face, and thanking God for waking up in a new day. Feeling great, right? Great, for the reason that you started the day with a good mood and good vibes.
I didn't expected that I came to this part that I am able to give my blessing to someone who broke my heart greatly. The thought of forgiving someone that easily is something impossible, especially if you are very hurt because of what he/she/they did to you. The betrayal, the pain, and heartache is not a joke. But, I just came to realized that I will not be able to move forward if I still put that kind of feeling towards them. I mean, the main reason why I am broke right now.
The other day, I received a chat from a friend of mine, asking about how am I. He was actually the ex-boyfriend of MGD that was also been cheated by MGD's younger sister. (I don't know the whole story about the two of them, but that's what he said to me.) Then, I said that I am in a state of confusion and there is something that bothers me the most. That was when I left a comments on the other girl's facebook posts. I felt like I was haunted by that horrible thing I did to her. So, I told him that if I am ready, I will ask forgiveness to that girl. Is it kind of ironic? Instead she will did the thing of asking forgiveness for what they have done to me, I was the one who did it. And this is the realization;
If I will not forgive her and MGD, I will not be able to move forward and start a new chapter of my life, either be single with someone else. Moreover, I don't want to bring the past experiences I had with MGD if ever I can have a new relationship. I don't want that to happen, because that way, I will be unfair to that someone who came after him.
Here's what I said to her; (Not the whole message though.)
"I just want to apologize for leaving comments on your facebook posts. I know you felt insulted because of that. Othe than that, I will now forgive you and give you my consent or blessing to be with MGD because I know you both are happy together. Perhaps, there is just something I didn't have that you do have, the reason why he did that to me. That is why you should keep that thing. Six years with him is not a joke but regardless of that, I can't take it anymore. I didn't say this to you to look him down. I just share what I had experienced within that six years being with him. I really hope that you keep your relationship together and it will last longer than what we have before..."
________________________
After sending that message, I don't know but all of a sudden my heart felt so light. I was able to put a big smile on my face and the rest of the day feels great!
Honestly, I am not a hundred percent okay but if I am going to rate that, I think I already pass the test with a 75% rating. (Hehe^_^) "Sa sobrang pagkasagad ko sa pauli-ulit na pangyayari, parang napadali nalang din yung pag move on ko relasyon ko kay MGD. Yung tipong kuta na ako sa mga pambabalewala niya sa'kin. Parang bigla na ako'ng namanhid." Kanina nga, pinaalam sa'kin ng cousin niya na hindi daw dun si MGD nag-celebrate nang fiesta sa kanila kasi magkasama sila nung girl. I just said to her that I don't want to bother myself on thinking about them because I want to move on na kasi. Gusto ko na matapos na yung pag-alala ko sa mga times na meron ako with MGD at yung sakit na dinulot niya sa'kin.
And aside from God, and my family, there is someone that really helped me a lot to survive in this test. "I felt at ease now." In the sense that I was cut ties with them without any regrets. I am happy to give my blessing and even I didn't receive a reply stating that I was being forgiven for what I did to her, I don't care anymore. As long as, I already did my part. Hoping that sooner or later, everything will be fine for all of us.
That would be all for this blog. Thank you for spending your time my read.cash family. Take good care of yourselves!β£οΈ
PRAISES AND GLORY BE ALL TO GOD!π
________________________
I want to extend my deepest gratitude towards the people that keep supporting my works in here. To my avid readers, likers, subscribers, and upvoters. As well as my sponsors; (old, new, and renewed ones). Having you as my Readcash family and virtual friends, gives me the an immense sense of satisfaction. Thank for the love and support you have given to me. Thank you for being my everyday inspiration and motivation to keep doing this thing. Thank you for making my Readcash journey fruitful. May the Lord God bless us more fruitful days, months, and years to come!
Just Love!β€οΈ
@renren16
See you in my next article!π
xoxo(*ΛοΈΆΛ*).ｑ*β‘
_______________________
PREVIOUS ARTICLES:
"Fiesta and A Disco"
https://read.cash/@renren16/fiesta-and-a-disco-night-17b4f967
"Only God Knows When"
https://read.cash/@renren16/only-god-knows-when-f145d804
"Unfairness on my Side"
https://read.cash/@renren16/unfairness-on-my-side-4741b169
"Worst among the Worst"
https://read.cash/@renren16/worst-among-the-worst-e695220f
"Paralegal Experiences" https://read.cash/@renren16/paralegal-experiences-243271e5
The best thing is to just move on and don't dwell too long in the past. I know it's not going to be easy but you just have to be willing to get healed completely.