Parenthood

November 17, 2021

Are you a parent? a Godparent? Or an Aunt to your niece and nephews. Or do you experience being a parent even though you're not married yet or you don't have a kid of your own?

Me? I'm a parent, a single mother to be exact, to very bubbly five year old boy who completes my life. He is the one that motivates me to work hard and do good in all that I do. He is my inspiration and my rock.

Why am I saying all these?

These is still in line with what happens last week with my friends as I have mentioned in my Two days Rest from Read and also when we celebrated my friends birthday that She's one of my reason why I also didn't go home.

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On her birthday, Nov. 13, 2021, we traveled for more than two hours from the city to our friend's house, and within that duration we talked a lot mostly about our faith, our prayer time and scripture time. And we talked and talked about the blessings and the struggles we encountered during the past few days ( she's a teacher that only started for a week).

For a moment we became silent, the both of us, and then she suddenly ask me. " Ever wonder why I celebrate my birthday with you and not with my family?" and then I answered her, " then she laughed on why would I think that kind of things when we were friends.

I mean yes I can freely ask her these questions since were good friends and I am known as the most frank and tactless among us. But when it regards with family matters I don't overstep ahead and will just wait for them to share and talk it freely with me.

"You know ever since my Papa died when I was thirteen I never celebrated my birthday at home. I rather celebrate it alone or be in church or with you my friends than at home. I practiced myself being much far away from home as possible as I can. I know you want to ask why I want to celebrate mostly with you many years in a row than be at home (I am caught! lol!). It's just that whenever I'm home I felt like dying.I don't blame my Mom but it felt like there's always missing in my life and when I'm at home I want to just end my life already and not wanting to wake up in the morning."

So the shock me is overacting

"Pabo -yah (fool)? why would you think something like that. Imagine what you're mom might feel whenever you're like these and to think that you're the eldest sister and the one guiding your siblings. Are you sure that by doing these to your family you Father will be happy in heaven watching you being broken like these? Just how far can you go on being stubborn? Just what are you doing with your life being so pitiful like this? tsk..." I told you I'm frank

She silently cried but didn't let it show much for we're in the bus although were in the back seat still.

" Look here, you prick, it's not that much for you to show affection to your mom for she's the one giving birth to you, and it's not her fault that your father died. She also lost the one she loves the most and it's just not you. Your Father favor you, yes I can understand that for your the first daughter but how about your sibling? Don't they deserve to have some love and affection given to them by their elder sister? They need guidance yet you're here pitying yourself without thinking that they need you. Ten years is enough, okay , after this celebration, go home and hug your mom, it's te least you can do."

She laughs at me while crying ( crazy prick) and then we both are laughing. I want to cry with her also but I don't want her to feel pitiful so I just scold her hahahah.

"Arasseo Eonnie, (alright sis) I know I'm a brat and maybe I need someone, preferably you, to talk shit in front of me , for me to realize what I'd missed"

"If you do just this little thing of a favor for your family, your father in heaven would be so damn proud of you. I'm a mom and a daughter so I kinda feel sorry for your mom right now. Don't close yourself from your family. Be understanding and start communicating with them. "

"Okay, thank you eonnie, how come you're always scolding me? "

"you're just stubborn that's why I'm like this"

End Notes:
You see, we all are humans, not perfect and have flaws. But we also learn it along the way. Those mistakes are not to be tolerated for it will affect those whom you love the most. Parents also sometimes make decisions out of anger and desires but we should also take it to consideration that our parents are only doing their best on what id good and beneficiary to their family's welfare.

Than conversation with her still continues up to this time of writing. And she's still in their house right now with her siblings and mom. She gives me update.

hahah so to my friends in here, now you know who I am.

Thank you for reading!
Keep safe & God Bless!
Fin!