I don't know if these are ramblings but I go on with my life.

I have an adventurous spirit, I have always loved adventure on the road, getting to unknown places, going to the countryside and going beyond the explored limits, of course! In this case with local people, I don't want to risk getting lost in the jungle either.

I’m a person who does not usually meet with groups because I can not stand loud noises, sounds, shouting, disputes, etc. I have come to think that I’m a little autistic. Yes, I think so I have looked for adult tests and I still can't find one but when I get one I should be able to make a diagnosis.

I’m a woman who loves to dive into fantasy dreams, since I was a child I always did. I like to think about the future with the odds of having the things I like and doing them my way.

And if I am not autistic by my social behavior what I can add is that then I am a little crazy. Yes, I have no other explanation for my behavior which is strange even to me but which I am also comfortable with.

I can't stand disloyalty, I don't forgive infidelity, I am quiet most of the time and I engage in very long conversations with myself, I don't respond to verbal assaults immediately because my brain is always excited and doesn't understand quick aggressions, so my brain doesn't manage to process information very fast. I would say that I process it very slowly.

I’m not an ignorant person, I have studied a lot all my life and I still do so successfully. I have three degrees, nurse, doctor and sonographer, apart from achievements independently from college. I have a high IQ, but my personality sometimes disturbs me because I fail to understand many of my traits.

I have achieved everything I have wanted to do and with a lot of effort, I like to fight for what I want and achieve my goals even if it takes me days without sleep, without eating or deprived of other things.

The truth is that not everything is rosy. My type of temperament has brought me misinterpretations with people but I have in my favor that I am very perceptive and when I realize that I have disturbed someone unintentionally I talk to her and explain.

I don't like people to think I am aggressive but I am in my blunt way of saying things, there is also the detail that when people criticize me without knowing me in detail I do not care, if I have not committed verbal foul with people I am not interested in their opinion about me.

Generally I live with my own concepts about myself and I am not disturbed by other people's life when it’s negative but it does affect me when they have a bad situation and I can help to improve it. I help who I can help without any interest to be helped back so I take off my back the weight of a possible betrayal after giving my help.

That is why I do not hate anyone, I got rid of that burden many years ago, reading the word of God and finding readings that confirm that the weight of the ballast that is carried by hating, offending, hurting, revenge, anger all those little feelings accumulate is inside our soul, heart and mind and has nothing to do with the people to whom we have those passions.

The people to whom we have those terrible passions live their lives just the same without feeling disturbed by what we may carry in our heart. For this reason I will always advise you to get rid of that burden from your hearts, fight fiercely to fight the battle of the stripping of low passions and you will see how your inner and outer world will change.

I tell you this because after I began to study the ways to get rid of them because I had them like any normal person, then my life began to be filled with blessings.

And I live thinking and dreaming a world apart for me, where I can live my fantasies and that's why I loved to travel and have many mental adventures.

I made a mental beach house with all the wonders I can imagine in it. A garden in the front for my flowers and a nursery in the back with all my vegetables. A place for fruit trees and a little place for a pool… You know, after so much dreaming I finally got it.

I bought a place near the beach, it was a place that resembled a hill, there I built my house, with two bathrooms, two bedrooms, a large kitchen and a living room. The only thing that was missing was a siding roof, but then something happened. The people in charge of the project began to steal and the project was suspended, we stopped going to the place that was being invaded by antisocials and that was the end of it.

That's as far as my house went. There it is on the beach, alone, with the presence of bad people who only go to steal and take advantage of people, my thoughts were coming true but the wickedness of man prevented it.

I’m not worried, that is my home and if I can someday I will occupy it again, if not, that is what fate wants, but what I want to say is that I am not worried about it. Because, in addition to the fact that I am a survivor of a deadly disease, what else can I thank life for letting me live these years with my son… I thought I would never see him graduate from high school and then I came to think that I would not see him graduate as an engineer, but it looks like in five months I will.

Do you think I will waste my life time hating, getting revenge or any other negative feelings? No, no sir. Life is a gift, I have been given another chance and I have been taking advantage of it as best I can.

And I have also had the opportunity to write as I have always wanted to do it and now I have all of you who I thank for always reading my stories, especially to those of you who really read and when you comment I realize that you have read and not only write a response because of the title. To all of you, may God give you a long life of happiness and positivism, and go ahead, the path is made by walking.

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