We can't be together
I was sitting here at the bench at the park, scrolling on my noise.cash account. Damn. I forgot it's 3:00 pm. That's why I'm seeing different snacks in my subscriptions. They are making me hungry. Tsssk.
"Hiiiiiiii"
I heard someone saying "hiiiiiii" to me? So to be sure if it is really for me. I turned to my side and I'm right. She was referring to me.
She is a beautiful fine lady. I stopped for a while. Then after a minute, I found myself waving my hand to her while smiling. Did I just smile?!
"Are you mute?" she asked, then sat beside me.
"Uhmm no, h-hello" I answered shyly. (Why am I shy around her? This is not me. Saying in the back of my mind.)
"Kyaaaah. You are so cute." She said while smiling wide.
"Pfft, you should see a doctor to check your eyes" I said while laughing.
"Nah. Believe me" she uttered.
"Haha. Okay. Wait, we are talking but we don't know each other's names."
"I'm Penelope, you can call me Pen for short" then she extended her hand.
"Oh. Call me Gems, even if no one gives value to me." I laughed while reaching her hand then we laughed again, together. (Sana all patawa tawa lang. Chaaar.)
"You are a joker, huh!" she mumbled.
"No. That's the truth." I muttered.
"Whatever, Gems!" then laughed again.
Fastforward...
We talked about something we did that day. She even told me that she is writing on some blogging site, and she can think of better ideas while taking a bath. But after that, the idea will disappear haha. I told her to write while taking a bath and so on.
As I'm not into writing, I only have a noisecash account. I asked her if she had an account there. I'm happy that she has. Right after she told her username, I immediately searched for her and commented on her latest post. Blah blah blah.
Why did I feel so comfortable talking to her? Already? Anyways, that day I told myself "hopefully, we can be friends."
Also, on that day, we exchange other social media accounts.
The following day... We talked a lot. I also told her that I'm a bisexual and asked her if that's okay with her to be friends in someone like me. She said,
"Duuh, it's fine, you are people too. I just hate those persons who are feeling part of LGBTQ++ without knowing all the differences. You know, they are just going with the trend."
Hearing those words coming from her makes me want to be friends with her or I say starting to like her?. I like the way she thinks and accepts those parts of LGBTQ++. I'm happy so I said,
"Thank you"
We talked everyday. We talked about how our day went. Ranting to each other. We even talked about our ex-boyfriends and my ex-girlfriends. She even got jealous(?) or got irritated because she thought I am still into my exes. So we didn't talk for almost 6 hrs. XD
There are times that she will send her picture. I was like, damn! Why is this girl so gorgeous?! Haha.
Then I told her,
"You are pretty like me," I said then laughed.
Super fast forward... XD (the author is so tired to think right now, so sorry haha)
WE fell in love with each other. At first it's fine. Until one day, she suddenly didn't reply to my messages. I'm so mad because I don't know her reason(s). I asked her to explain. She just seen all my messages.
Then almost a day, she replied:
"I'm sorry, I need to tell you something, please don't be mad"
I know what she is going to tell me as I've seen her post. But I still want her to say it to me directly.
"Promise, I won't. What is it?" I replied.
"We can't be together because we were both girls. I can't. There can be no us. I'm sorry. I know you are a girl but I just can't, I'm falling in love with you and we need to stop this. I can't imagine being with you." She answered.
(Ouch, daming I can't, masyado ka Penelope haha -author)
After hearing what she said. I can't move. I'm hurt. There's something in my heart that is aching. I don't know how to react. All this time, I thought it's fine.
Nakakamatay nga pala ang maling akala. I tried to compose myself.
After some minutes, I answered: "Okay, I understand. I just thought. But it's fine. Thank you for telling me. I can now have peace of mind. Tsk. You should have told me right away."
"I'm sorry! I just don't know what to say. I hope we can still be friends?" She asked.
This is just my intention and her as well, be friends only. We both don't expect to fall for each other. Haha.
"Of course! I would love that!" I happily answered. Even though I'm dying inside.
End.
This is just FICTION inspired by a friend who wants this kind of story. I guess it has been about a week since the last time she told me about this. I just remembered writing it after reading Meyzee's article a day ago. @Meyzee Thanks, Leslie! XD
Ps. Sorry! I feel like I messed up with this one. I can't construct the conversation well. Forgive me, my lovely readers! Haha. Parang medyo naguluhan ako sa ginawa kong 'to. Sana kayo, hindi. XD
Thank you for reading! ❣
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Akala ko po, totoo nasad pa naman ako...hehe