My Addled Mind is Playing Tricks On Me | Diary pp. 11
Dear ***Book of Secrets***,
Is this a dream? I have the feeling that I am resting in someone's chest. I gently opened my eyes to see this person sleeping beside me here in a small sofa bed. Hugging me like a baby in his huge arms. His warm hugs keep me safe. My mind tells me to rise up, but my body and heart beg me to stay. I missed looking at this handsome face. It's as if I'm living my life in a dream. My anxieties have vanished just by gazing at him. I could stare at him forever if I had the chance.
I can hear his soft groans, so I'm guessing he's about to wake up. I immediately closed my eyes and pretended to be sleeping. He seemed to be staring at me, brushing the few hairs off my face. He kissed my forehead and gently touched my neck and head with the back of his hand to see whether my body temperature was still feverish.
He carefully holds the back of my head and raises it a bit to replace his shoulder with a pillow so he may get up when he notices that my body temperature is already normal. I opened my eyes slightly and noticed him heading to the bathroom. Sigh. What am I doing!
He forgot something, so he returned to the living room, which took me by surprise. I gave him a fierce eyeroll as he mocked me about faking my sleep the entire time. He said I didn't have to get up to have more rest and that I should just let him in my kitchen today. I guess I don't have a choice but to allow him.
Even though I didn't want to, he took care of me. He feeds me. He had me take some medicine and constantly checked my vitals like a personal nurse. I'm don't know why he's doing these things after all the misery I've caused him. He's a very kind person. It's practically impossible for every girl who sees him not to fall in love with him. He's a daydream. A living fantasy that I wasted.
I finally asked him why he was doing all of this for me. It was either now or never that I asked him. He's not coming back here, so yeah. He said that he still has feelings for me. Whatever I did is history, and he wants us to start again. He said that even if I pushed him away, he would comeback until we got back. He's not going to give up until he's won me back. I'm shocked from what I've heard. I'm speechless.
What would I do?
Love,
***Alyshestia***
Series Title : Dear Book of Secrets
Series Number : Diary pp. 11
Sub Title : My Addled Mind is Playing Tricks On Me
Published Date : October 11, 2022
Author : alyshestia
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Hi, I guess I'm experiencing writer's block recently. I'm sorry for that. I hope this article finds you in good shape.
Have a good day ahead.
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Rain and Love Story | Diary pp. 10
Dear ***Book of Secrets***,
I switched on the tv, and my favorite cartoon was interrupted by breaking news. A super typhoon with a warning signal number 4 will enter the Philippine area of responsibility. It is forecast to bring tropical storm winds of 118 km/h (73 mph) to 184 km/h (114 mph) within 12 hours. Great! He's stranded in here. Ugh!
He helped me in getting my groceries from his car, and I unpacked everything and washed the fruits, veggies, meats, and frozen goods before putting them in my fridge. He tried to help me again, but I declined because restocking is a form of therapy for me. And I don't want to talk to him, so I have to keep myself occupied. This place seemed to be too tiny for us two.
But he keeps talking as if I haven't caused him any pain in the two months after we broke up. He annoys me. He said my house is tiny, cute, and tidy, just like the one we planned before. He came here as a visitor or a friend, so perhaps I can treat him as such. I asked him what he was doing now for a living, as if I hadn't been stalking his social media accounts every day. I'm right; he's presently living alone in a condominium in Metro Manila and working as an Engineer. He was just chilling around here, which is why I saw him. Or is it destiny?
He, too, asked as to what I was doing right now, to which I responded. Suddenly, he apologized for leaving me. For cutting our ties. I understand his reaction. I'm the one who needs to apologize for making him feel that way. For piercing his heart with so much anguish. But I don't know why did he came back. Is he coming to take his vengeance on me? Or to resume where we left off?
I passed out while holding some apples that I was about to put in the fridge, and they are now all over the floor. I can hear him screaming my name, trying to wake me up and I've gone completely unconscious. I woke up in the couch. Thank goodness, it's a sofa that converts to a bed and can fit three people. Since my house is so tiny and I only have one bedroom, I got this so that my visitors may sleep over. It also has a storage under for extra pillows and blankets.
He said I was unconscious due to a high fever. Maybe I had a cold because I was drenched in the rain and my clothes dried in my body. He scolded me just like before. I missed that. He cooked my favorite soup for me, and I cried in front of him. I pretended it was because of my fever and severe headache, but the truth is that I miss him terribly. Miss us.
Love,
***Alyshestia***
Series Title : Dear Book of Secrets
Series Number : Diary pp. 10
Sub Title : Rain and Love Story
Published Date : September 30, 2022
Author : alyshestia
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I hope you had a great time reading this, perhaps sad story of mine. And hey, it's Friday. Tomorrow is a rest day. I hope...
Have a good day ahead.
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He Wasn't on the Grocery List, but I Brought Him Home | Diary pp. 9
Dear ***Book of Secrets***,
It's finally the weekend! It's my first morning in my tiny abode. I felt safe, and my mood is kinda positive. I slept so well. It's already 9:00 in the morning and—what?! It's already 9:00 a.m.??
I abruptly rise from my bed. I drew aside the curtains to allow light to enter the room. I went down from the loft bed and went to the bathroom to wash my face and brush my teeth, and of course, I couldn't ignore the Pee-pee Poo-poo schedule. Hehe.
Hmm. I'm craving for French toast today, but I don't have anything in the fridge. I suppose that today is a grocery day. Perhaps I'll eat breakfast at a coffee shop near the mall where I'll do my grocery shopping.
I showered and dressed casually. Basically, a white V-neck shirt, denim shorts, and white sneakers. I just grabbed my phone and keys and booked a cab because my car number is coding.
It's a good thing that supermarkets and restaurants encourage cashless purchases. I despise holding cash or coins. I'm a germaphobe, and I have no idea where that money came from.
I walked to the coffee shop after 30 minutes of travelling. When I got to the counter, I ordered an espresso caramel, a sugar frosted doughnut, and pesto pasta. To prevent disturbances, I selected the corner table. I don't want other people to glance at me every now and then. I want peace.
It's now 10:30 a.m., the ideal time for grocery shopping. The mall has just recently opened, there are few people, and I can proceed to the counter without having to wait in a huge queue.
I started by pushing the cart through the canned and frozen goods, meat, fruits and vegetables, baking items, cereals, bread, spread, biscuits and cupcakes, and, of course, chips and chocolates. Because the first cart was already full, I grabbed another. I entered the aisle including hygiene, cleaning, laundry, air fresheners, and toiletries. I obtained everything after rummaging through the supermarket for two hours.
Because there were so many of boxes of items in my cart, two supermarket personnel assisted me in carrying everything outside the mall. While waiting outside for a cab, there I saw the person I wanted to avoid. The *Moon*.
"Hi." he approached me.
"Uh, hi." I said plainly.
"How are you? It's been a while," he asked.
Suddenly the dark clouds appeared and rainfalls so loud that I can't hear him.
"Your groceries! Wait for me here, I'll get the car."
He didn't wait for my response and dashed out into the rain to get his car. He drove it and came to a stop in front of me. I'm almost drenched. He offered to drop me off at home. I declined, but he was adamant. He said he wanted to talk to me, and I agreed since I was worried about the groceries. I gave him the directions, and we arrived half an hour later.
I invited him inside and went to fetch him a towel so he could wash up so he wouldn't get sick. I made the chicken curry and steamed rice while he was showering. I'm not sure what has gotten into me to do this. Okay, this is just a closure. Okay.
He went out of the bathroom with only his towel around his waist. I instantly shut my eyes and covered them with my hands. He said I'd already seen everything in him, so why bother covering my eyes? I rolled my eyes and walked upstairs to grab him an unused bathrobe. This obnoxious jackass. I take his clothing and wash and dry them so he may wear them again.
We ate the lunch I had prepared, and he insisted on doing the dishes. I don't want other people in my kitchen, yet I'm not sure why I let him. Am I letting him enter my life again? Hey, hey! It's just a kitchen!
Ugh! I took my towel and clothing to change even though I had already dried due to the steam while cooking. I showered and dried my hair. I thought there would be no rain after I took a bath, but instead it is pouring violently. I'm not sure what's going on today. Is it a karma or a blessing?
Love,
***Alyshestia***
Series Title : Dear Book of Secrets
Series Number : Diary pp. 9
Sub Title : He Wasn't on the Grocery List,
but I Brought Him Home
Published Date : September 28, 2022
Author : alyshestia
Bonjour!
I'm eager to see what happens next.
Have a good day ahead.
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Move-in Day | Diary pp. 8
Dear ***Book of Secrets***,
Rise and shineee! It's move-in day, so I skipped my usual routine this morning. I also take a leave of absence from work so that I may pack and carry my stuff in the afternoon. I started by making my breakfast, washing the dishes, drying them, and wrapping them with a bubble wrap and put it in the labeled boxes I bought yesterday.
After I finished packing the kitchen, I went to the bathroom and took a bath. After that, I took my things, dried and sealed them, and placed them in another labeled box. I dressed and got my other clothing and shoes from the closet to pack and put in my luggage. I also separate my unused but good as new clothing and place them in an ecobag before donating them to a shelter. Less clutter, and those that need it will be able to use it. Win-win.
It's finally time to fold the bedsheets, comforter, and pillow covers. I zipped it inside its large transparent bag together with the pillows. I also placed the mattress in its clear bag to keep it dust-free and clean while being transported. I also keep my gadgets and cords in its bag to avoid forgetting anything. I finished packing and cleaning in three hours! To save time, I ordered something from a nearby restaurant and had it delivered to my flat.
The transporting mini truck came at exactly 1:00 p.m. Three men assisted me in moving my stuff to the truck. They work efficiently and completed hauling my things in 20 minutes. I talked to the caretaker real quick to check if there's any problem, when I'm cleared, I returned the keys to him, and drove my car, while the movers carrying my belongings followed me to my tiny abode.
Engr. Chou is waiting for me outside my adorable tiny house, carrying a giant scissor and a diploma jacket holder. The house is well-lit and has a big ribbon wrapped around it, as if it were the inauguration of a brand-new building. We took a photo outside, I cut the ribbon knotted, and we ate outside before hauling my stuff inside. Happily, Engr. Chou hired a cleaning service to clean the house inside and out. What a blessing it is to have a friend like her. Hehe.
**5:00 p.m.** Now it's just me, myself, and I. I removed the plates and utensils from their boxes and cleaned them before placing them back in their proper placements. Also, the appliances. Maybe I'll plug in the fridge after I get home from the grocery store tomorrow to conserve energy. When I finished in the kitchen, I walked upstairs to uncover my mattress and make the bed. I also removed my clothing from the luggage and hung them in the closet. My shoes were placed in the cabinet near the living room. Isn't it very Asian?
I assembled the couch's coverings and throw pillows, as well as the decorations such as frames, paintings, string lights, carpets, and small plants and succulents in the living room. I also installed a little bookcase in the living room to serve as a reading nook. Everything is about finished. I'll install the wiring tomorrow. I'm tired right now. I deserve a warm bath and a glass of wine.
Love,
***Alyshestia***
Series Title : Dear Book of Secrets
Series Number : Diary pp. 8
Sub Title : Move-in Day
Published Date : September 27, 2022
Author : alyshestia
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Hello hello! I'm back. I'm just sharing you about something that happened recently. I am hoping that the next day would be better for all of us. Thank you for stopping by. Have the day you deserve!
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Furniture Hunting | Diary pp. 7
Dear ***Book of Secrets***,
Days became weeks, and weeks became months. The days go pretty fast, and it's almost two months since I've been living alone. There has been nothing new in the last few weeks. Every day, I get up, clean my unit, do my workout, eat my breakfast, take a shower, do my tasks at work, eat my lunch, work again, and prepare for dinner.
Sadness sometimes creep in unexpectedly, which is fine. I've earned it. The worst part was that I didn't feel like I was moving. I'm trapped in a lighthouse in the middle of the ocean and have no idea how to get out. Waves are smashing against me, yet I'm frustrated because they can't kill me. I guess I have to live with it.
I finished my work early so that at 1:00 p.m., I may meet with the Engineer and she can accompany me to buy furnishings for my house. Yes, my house is almost finished. They're going to paint it, and I'll finally be able to move in.
The Engineer picked me and drove me to her furniture supplier, where she knows I can get some good deals. I'm glad I have her with me since I won't be able to buy the sizes that will fit in my little abode without her.
We started with the couch section. To economize space, we went with an L-shaped couch and a small coffee table for the living room. We skipped the kitchen section because I already have the necessary appliances in my flat. Actually, I practically have everything I need in my tiny abode now that Engr. Chou has already installed lighting, bathroom fittings, faucets, and other necessities. Furthermore, I have already purchased some of the furniture and am using it in my present flat, such as the bed, table, chairs, appliances, plates, and utensils. All that left is for me to buy some paintings, plants, and other house decorations. Thankfully, they offer a delivery service and scheduled the delivery for two days later, on my moving in day. Hihi.
After that, we went to my tiny abode to check the painting work. It's done! However, the paint's stench is too strong to bear, therefore it will take two days for it to dry and remove the odor. I'm amazed. All I need to do is design the landscape myself. When I'm stressed, the jacuzzi in front of the house is perfect. I can unwind with a glass of wine and a charcuterie board while watching Netflix.
Finally, a life away from everybody.
Love,
***Alyshestia***
Series Title : Dear Book of Secrets
Series Number : Diary pp. 7
Sub Title : Furniture Hunting
Published Date : September 22, 2022
Author : alyshestia
Bonjour!
I've recently become interested in small houses on YouTube. I've seen some houses, such as an old bus converted into a camping home, a concrete house, a house constructed from old shipping containers, on wheels, little huts, and more. They're adorable, and I'm sure they're easy to clean and maintain.
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As Drunk as a Skunk | Diary pp. 6
Dear ***Book of Secrets***,
I woke up this morning on the floor with the bottles of ale and wine I drank last night and a headache caused by the hangover. I just remember going to the convenience store after seeing him in the coffee shop. I bought some alcoholic beverages and drowned myself in them.
I'm still depressed. I'm still in pain. I'm trying to move forward, to rebuild my shattered life, but his ghost and memories haunt me every day, dragging me back to hell. My life would be worthless without him. This is the price I have to pay.
I roused myself and threw away the empty bottles. I rummage my cupboard for the chamomile tea bags. I remember my mom making some for me when I was drunk. She defines it as a "feel-good" tea that helps relieve stomach pains, reduce stress, and cure hangovers. Let's see if it's reliable.
I take a cup, pour a precise amount of water into it, then soak the chamomile tea bag in it. I took out the honey jar and put some. The warmth of the tea flowed through my system as I sipped it. It's true though. Sipping this kind of tea may help you relax.
I inhaled deeply and smelled myself. I smell like a frigging skunk! So, after a nice cup of tea, I had a long cold shower. I'm a real clean freak, especially when it comes to hygiene. I'm depressed, but that doesn't mean I'll be a nasty, disgusting person.
Thankfully, today is Saturday. My day off from work . Because of the stress that I have consumed over the past few days, this is the only time that I can pamper and treat myself. It's hard to live alone. You don't have a mom to cook for you, do your laundry, wash the dishes, get what you need, hunt for missing stuff, took care of you whenever you're sick and most importantly, you don't have somebody to talk to when you need it. I miss my mom.
I went to the salon to get my long hair trimmed, dyed brown with a nice highlight, and my nails done. I used to have long black hair that I never dyed, not even once, till now, just for a change. I want to forget everything and start anew as a new person.
I hope this really helps.
Love,
***Alyshestia***
Series Title : Dear Book of Secrets
Series Number : Diary pp. 6
Sub Title : As Drunk as a Skunk
Published Date : September 15, 2022
Author : alyshestia
Bonjour!
I had a one-day vacation, which is why I didn't post an update yesterday. When I'm out of town or taking time for myself, I avoid using my phone, which causes me stress (especially the Viber ringtone Haha). Anyway, have a wonderful day!
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Buckle up! | Diary pp. 5
Dear ***Book of Secrets***,
I got up early, went through my daily routine, and prepared for a meeting with the banker at **Suzuki** to buy my dream car. I made my decision after scrutinizing several car models. I'm still holding out for my dream car, an apple green **Jimny N1**. The car's total cost is $22,542.87, with a 23.55% interest rate. I put down $9,017 and will pay it off over the next 48 years.
It's all settled now. We completed the deal and drove this baby home. I dropped off the banker and drove somewhere I had no idea. The wheels took me to a coffee shop in Tagaytay. It has an overlooking view and is not overcrowded, which suits my introverted personality.
I ordered a hot caramel macchiato and savory pizza bread, exactly as the ***moon*** always get me every time we go on a coffee date at our favorite coffee shop. The coffee there isn't really good, but it tastes different and special when I'm with him.
I can't take my gaze away from the Taal volcano, which I used to watch with him, but now I'm alone, remembering every moment I've spent with him in the past. It made me wonder what might have happened if we hadn't broken up. What if I kept this love going? What if I fought for him and took the risk? Is it worth it?
I smelled something familiar. My nose loved the scent. The scent that relaxes me. The scent I always crave. The scent of him. I glanced to my right and saw him walk through the door. He sat in front of the counter, ordering his usual flavor of coffee. I shifted my seat to face the glass wall and secretly stared at his reflection. He's still quite attractive. He always has the tidiest hair, the most lovely eyes, and almost strawberry-colored lips. He's lost some weight and seems to spend a lot of time at the gym.
I didn't realize I was crying when I looked at him. I was drowning in my own tears. Releasing the emotions that are coursing through my veins. I'd like to speak with him. I'd want to apologize for what I did. For causing him pain and making his life miserable. Giving only a portion of my love and not the whole part. He did not deserve it. I constantly breaking nice things so I don't deserve someone like him.
I grabbed my things and run out of the coffee shop. I pressed the unlock button in my car key and get in the car. Turn on the engine and step on to the gas. It pains me a lot. Seeing him doing great without me. I abruptly step on the break and cry my heart out in the middle of the road.
Love,
***Alyshestia***
Series Title : Dear Book of Secrets
Series Number : Diary pp. 5
Sub Title : Buckle up!
Published Date : September 13, 2022
Author : alyshestia
Bonjour!
If this is true, I'm not sure I'd approach the love of my life if I saw him anywhere. What if he's mad at me? What if his life is now put together? I don't want to ruin his life any more.
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A Day in the Life | Diary pp. 4
Dear ***Book of Secrets***,
**5:30 a.m.**
It's Monday! The days have flown by so quickly. It's been a month since the ***moon*** and I broke up. I was really missing him. Our laughter, his sweet voice, his eyes that always left me stunned, his pointed nose, soft lips, and hugs and kisses. Everything reminds me of him. I still love him, but I cannot come back to his life. I wrecked him, and I don't think he deserves someone like me. I took my phone from my bedside table and logged into my dummy social media accounts to check how he was doing without me, and he looked to be doing fine. He learnt to trust his friends and family. He is now responsible for himself and takes care of himself. I'm glad he's working as an Engineer for a well-known Korean company in a big city right now. I'm still cheering for him without his knowing.
I get out of bed, make my bed, and sweep the floor. After that, I went into the bathroom, brushed my teeth, and quickly washed up. I put on my sports bra and wore my cycling shorts. I put on armbands to position my phone and some money on my biceps, as well as headphones in my ears to motivate me to work out and run. I grabbed the keys and dashed out the door.
**8:00 a.m.**
That was a nice work out! I'm feeling a little lighter. I opened my door and hurried to the bathroom to take a cold shower. I shampooed almost every strand of my hair to ensure that all the germs I picked up while jogging outside were rinsed away. I'm afraid of germs. I also applied a hair mask on my hair to prevent it from becoming dry and frizzy. To clean myself, I took my loofa and squeezed some body wash. I wrapped my hair in a towel and put on my bathrobe after rinsing every bubble. I went to my little fridge to get some fruits for breakfast. I sat on my working space after I ate to check my emails and washed the dishes after I sorted my tasks.
**9:30 a.m. to 11:00 a.m.**
Werk. Werk. Werk. These tasks are somewhat demanding on the first day. I encoded every time sheet and checked the overtime credits of 500 employees, and it will be sent to the bank in charge of dispersing the salary and crediting the employees' accounts in two days. At the same time, I'm at a meeting with higher-ups and have no idea why I'm here.
**12:00 p.m.**
I was famished after that meeting. So I took a little break to prepare my lunch. Because I'm not very good at frying, I take a small but deep pan and pour a lot of cooking oil into it. When the oil is at 350 °F, I gently drop the breaded chicken wings in it, and when it's crispy golden brown, I take it with tongs. When I finished frying, the rice was done, so I set the pan aside and used the smaller pan to prepare a sauce for my buffalo wings. Just so you know, chicken wings are my favorite part of the chicken.
It's time to eat! I set the table and placed the chicken wings on a serving plate with sesame seeds. I also pressed the rice onto the plate and began to eat my meal. And I must say, it's superb. I was just thinking about the ***moon***'s fried chicken. It's my favorite. That was the best fried chicken I'd ever tasted. The outside is crunchy, but the inside is juicy. I'm truly missing him.
After eating, I put the leftover chicken wings in the food storage and washed the dishes before returning to work so that I could accomplish the most of it and only check my inputs tomorrow.
**3:00 p.m.**
I'm done with my work for the day. Yay! Which made me wonder whether I could peek at the progress of my tiny house. I turned off my laptop and changed out of my PJs into an oversized shirt, shorts, and white sneakers. I booked an *Uber* and secured the home before leaving the house.
**3:40 p.m.**
I'm already here! There are a total of ten construction workers on the job, and Engr. Chou, of course. Three workers are working on my small outdoor jacuzzi, while the remaining seven are digging the tiny house's foundation. The development is rather rapid, and Engr. Chou guaranteed that it will be completed in two months, includes the rear walls and the cattle pasture at the far back of the house's lot. We talked for a bit about the plans for the lot, and at exactly 6:00 p.m., I told the workers to cease working and come back tomorrow. I booked an *Uber* again to go home.
Which got me thinking, what if I loan for my dream car, the *Jimny N1* in apple green? The city is also somewhat far away from my tiny house, so I definitely need to get a car. All I have to do now is pay the down payment and negotiate the monthly payment plus interest. I could ask my parents for money to buy that car, but as I already said, I am now on my own. I'll have to work things out on my own. So it's a car loan. Hehe.
On my way home, I asked our banker if she could assist me with the car loan, which she gladly did. She suggested she may accompany me to the car dealership tomorrow morning to complete the formalities and I'll just bring the proper documents.
**7:00 p.m.**
I've just came back home! I eat my dinner after reheating the chicken wings and leftover rice. I washed the dishes before going to my bathroom to light a scented candle and soak in a long, warm bath because I deserved it. Today has been an extremely productive day for me.
Love,
***Alyshestia***
Series Title : Dear Book of Secrets
Series Number : Diary pp. 4
Sub Title : A Day in the Life
Published Date : September 12, 2022
Author : alyshestia
Bonjour!
Because weekends are my rest days, I haven't posted an update in a few days. More sleep and less screen time. My type of reward for working almost the entire week. How are things going for you? Hope you're doing fine.
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Job Hunting | Diary pp. 3
Dear ***Book of Secrets***,
Heyaaa! Friday morning. Today is a new beginning. I dismissed my blaring alarm and decided to get up. This early in the morning, I opened the curtains and gazed out the window at the raucous and busy city. Perhaps this is the reality of my existence that I must face. A life wasted alone. It's only me now, and I have to put together my mess in order to rebuild myself.
I fluffed the pillow, made the bed, and went to the bathroom to do my business there. After that, I booted on my computer, plugged in my speakers, and started blasting *Taylor Swift* songs saved in my playlist. I took up the broom and began sweeping the floor while singing at the top of my lungs. I then went to my tiny pantry to look for something to eat. Hmm. Perhaps pancakes with some hotdogs. I mixed everything in a bowl and pan-fried it. I also fried some hotdogs in the same pan to go with my pancakes. I brewed black coffee for my beverage. Delish!
Itadakimasu! I said before devouring my hearty breakfast, and then I checked my emails to see if I had an important appointment or if the companies I applied for had responded to my application and curriculum vitae after I washed the dishes.
Oh, there are four unread emails. The first was from my previous employer, who stated that they had already credited my last pay to my bank account. Hmm. Money. That's great. The last three emails were from other firms setting up interviews. I jot down to my sticky notes the date and time of my interviews so I don't forget and stick it to my laptop.
My first interview is scheduled for 10:00 a.m., it's already 8:30 a.m. so I headed to the bathroom to wash up and put my make-up on. I donned professional attire for my top and a boyleg for the bottom, just like everyone else. Oh, come on, I know you're also guilty. Don't worry, I have my skirt beside me just in case. Lmao.
The first interview goes smoothly. I am capable of completing the task. The work schedule is flexible, which means they are output oriented, and I only have to speak with one person, my boss. But I felt horrible when we talked about remuneration. My new pay is twice lower that my previous one. I haggle with HR, but it is the only offer they can make, so I decline.
My second interview is scheduled at 10:45 a.m. with an IT firm via video call also. The compensation is decent, but the work environment is toxic; they will hire me as a technical support rather than an HR staff member because the position I'm applying for is now unavailable. It's strange for me since I said on my application that I'm looking for an HR position, and they scheduled an interview merely to give me alternative job titles that I'm not familiar with. Of course, I said no.
The third and last one is set for 11:15 a.m. with an IT company as well. Their Recruitment position that I'm seeking for is open, but they offered me the Payroll in charge position because, based on my curriculum vitae, I have expertise in that field. They offered me a big salary as well as health benefits and incentives. The job is a little demanding, but it is output-based, work-from-home, and in a quiet environment, so I accepted it. They emailed me the contract, which I signed and I can begin working on Monday in flexible time.
My plans seem to be on track, and I am hoping for smooth sailing. I'm hoping there won't be another storm to ruin my ship.
Love,
***Alyshestia***
Series Title : Dear Book of Secrets
Series Number : Diary pp. 3
Sub Title : Job Hunting
Published Date : September 9, 2022
Author : alyshestia
Bonjour!
I hope I could experience this scenario in real life. If I didn't have any duties in life and money wasn't an issue to support my family's needs, I would do the same. I will also live in a tiny house with my own money. And if I fail, it will be just me, and my family will not suffer as a result of my choices.
But this is the reality. I can't make a decision that will affect my family's financial situation. I can't possibly fail.
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Adulting | Diary pp. 2
Dear ***Book of Secrets***,
Hello there, it's me again. Writing letters with no recipients. Well, it's fine with me since I don't have any friends. *sigh* Enough with the dramas. So here's the thing, according to Engr. Chou, the engineer I hired, the tiny house design and floorplans that I designed are easy to build, and the materials are readily available. She also said that she and her team will help me with installing several necessities in the house, such as solar panels and a water tank with filters.
For the time being, I'll have to look for a nearby apartment to live in while my tiny house is being built. I looked on the internet for an apartment or a room to rent and found a building with studio-style rooms with a bathroom, and a sink. That will suffice.
Luckily, I had reserved the last available room. I heard that because of the people who worked nearby, the location is currently in high demand. It's really difficult to find an inexpensive place to stay near the city.
I went there to check the room. When the caretaker opened the door, it was empty but clean. It's a 350-square-foot space painted white with brown tiles flooring. Turning right will find the sink and a tiny kitchen with top cupboard and a small fridge. The entrance to the bathroom is a bit further to the left. It also has a built-in closet, which reduces the need for me to purchase portable storage for my clothes. This is all I need. A little place to stay for a while.
After receiving the keys from the caretaker and transferring less than a hundred bucks to the owner's bank account, I headed to the mall to get other stuff that I would need in my apartment and can also fit to my tiny house once it is completed.
I scoured the furniture section and decided on a quiet thick bed mattress with a nicely bouncy feel. In addition, I get three sets of covers, pillow cases, and a comforter. For my working space, I also purchase a tiny folding table. Next, I went to the home accessories, appliances, and crockery area, where I purchased hangers, plates, utensils, a pan, a cauldron, an induction cooker, a rice cooker, and an electric fan. I then proceeded to the hardware store to get some extension cords, bulbs, and other necessities. The grocery store is my final stop for personal hygiene, cleaning supplies, and food supplies.
Now that everything is in order and my savings account is running low, I believe I should look for job. Maybe a work-from-home position where I don't have to deal with other people personally. I thought my money would be enough to support the life I'm preparing, but it isn't. Maybe I'll work for six months to save money for my livestock animals. Just a few months of misery in the corporate world. It's quite hard to be an adult.
Love,
***Alyshestia***
Series Title : Dear Book of Secrets
Series Number : Diary pp. 2
Sub Title : Adulting
Published Date : September 7, 2022
Author : alyshestia
Bonjour!
It's my second day here, and I must say I'm having a good time. Thanks to @TheRandomRewarder who upvoted my article yesterday. When I was notified of his/her presence, I read his/her only article and discovered that he/she is the one who is continuously providing tips for the users here. I'm glad I get tipped. Hihi..
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Life Reset | Diary pp. 1
Dear ***Book of Secrets***,
I just wanted to thank you for allowing this pauper to ink on your magical pages. I pledge to look after you and tell you all I know about myself. I'm now alone and don't know what to do. My ***wanderer*** boyfriend and I split up after years of dating due to our differences. Maybe our mental health is to blame, but perhaps it's me. I had cheated. I had feelings for someone other than him.
I'm seeing someone behind them all. I know it's wrong. Loving someone like him is wrong, yet it makes me happy. He's my ***moon*** that shines for me in my darkest times. This person gave me the love I want to receive. He's like something out of a fairytale. He sent me letters and poetry, and he gave me gifts even when I didn't ask for them, which I never received from the *wanderer*. He appreciates every part of me and sees the beauty in my every scars. He would give me the world if he could because he believes I deserve it. At first, I thought I was just happy to be with him since he resembled the best man I dreamed, but months passed and I found myself falling for him and I have no regrets. But, tragically, we also broke up after the upheaval I caused.
My parents and sister just moved to the United States a week ago. Mom and dad are in their 60s; they deserve to relax and enjoy the money they have earned over the years. They wanted me to go with them but I refused. I'd like to be alone for now, or for good. I'd like to punish myself for inflicting unnecessary pain on my good-hearted exes.
I used to work as an HR manager in a good firm, but I resigned. I want to leave my years of corporate experience behind and go to a place where no one knows who I am.
Time has passed so quickly. I remember when the *wanderer* and I just loaned money to buy this house for our future family, and now this house is being sold to cut the tie between us two. We divided the cost of this property and have agreed to separate our ways.
For a fresh start, I looked for a suitable piece of land in Rizal, away from the highway, and hired an engineer to construct my custom-designed *tiny house*. It has 480 square feet house size, as well as a large backyard for my livestock animals. I had no interest in taking care of animals before, but the *moon* introduced me to this way of life. He grew up on a farm and knows how to manage it. This is our dream before. To build a tiny house with our dog and cat and live simple away from everything. Ahh! I'm crying again. F*ck! I'm wondering if I've ever crossed his mind, too. https://livinginatiny.com/tiny-house-with-amazing-interior-design/
Love,
**Alyshestia**
Series Title : Dear Book of Secrets
Series Number : Diary pp. 1
Sub Title : Life Reset
Published Date : September 6, 2022
Author : alyshestia
Bonjour!
I'm new here though, nice to meet you! I saw this site mentioned by one of the people I follow on Instagram, and it prompted me to give it a shot. I'm not sure whether I did it correctly. I'd appreciate it if you could offer me some pointers on how to use this platform. Please feel free to beep me down below!
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