Mother by heart not by blood
Blog 45
Date :March 22,2022
Time :4:08pmTrue that being a mother is not only base on blood but also by heart.
It's been stated from my previous articles that I've been into different relationships before I got married. I was not been close to my mom since from teenage life. I never had someone I can rely on if ever I have a problem. I've been rebellious because my mom never understands me. In fact, other people know me better than my mom. I find it hard to be close to my mom because I don't know how to open up with her, without her judging me. She supposes to be the one who will protect me from other people but then she's the one who kept telling other people how bad I am. To be honest I always envy other kids who've been close to their mom. I wish I had that kind of relationship with my mom. But ever since I got pregnant with my eldest, we seem to be distant from each other. She's always against me whenever I had a relationship. I understand her fears. She's afraid that I might make the same mistake again by getting pregnant without having a father. Mom was been comparing me to the single mom in our neighborhood who after having their baby without the father they made the same mistake again and again. Of course, it was easy for them to do that because they are not the one who takes care of their babies. They usually leave and find a job after giving birth unlike me that since I gave birth until my daughter turns 3 years old I was the one who takes care of her. I had just to leave her to my mom when I needed to find a better job in Cebu.
Anyway, I found a mother by the heart through the mom of my exes. Just like when I got a relationship with Angelo. Her mom loves me and also Ashee. She treats us as her family. Since we were living nearby she always bring food from where I live. She knows that I love Kangkong(swamp cabbage or river spinach) since they have kangkong in their garden, she will bring me kangkong and even ask me if I have soy sauce, if none she will give me some. My relationship With Angelo lasted for a while because of her mom. I was longing for the love of a mom. Her mom was too kind to me and Ashee. I used to spend time at their house. Even after I broke up with Angelo her mom kept on telling us to spend time with them. Angelo kept telling me that her mom kept on looking for me and Ashee. He wants us to visit his mom.
However, when I found another relationship, I've been close again to the mom of my boyfriend. Anyway, around those times my mom was not around because she lives in Cebu with my brother. She ran away from my dad because my dad was been always being a drunkard since I was a kid.
I also had a mother-like bonding with Ate Esmer. She's the wife of our distant relatives. She was been like my mom. It was easier for me to open up with her if ever I had problems. It seems that she understands where I'm coming from. She knows that I was longing for motherly love. She even attended my wedding. When I approached her after my wedding she even cried and I was touched by the emotions that she showed, my mom had never been emotional when I got married. We were not that okay when I got married. I feel disappointed by mom, she should be the one who will support me emotionally in that very important moment of my life. My aunt(Dad's sister) was the one who's been there to support me not only emotionally but also financially. If not because of her I will never have that kind of church wedding. Our plan was supposed to have a civil we but when my aunt knows about it she wanted us to have a church wedding. My husband's family can't afford to have a church wedding but my Aunt promises to help us with the expenses. Thanks to her our wedding was successful and memorable.
Ending thoughts
Indeed being a mom is not just based on blood but we can also find one through other people who are willing to extend their love. I may not be blessed to have a good relationship with my mom but at least I knew and I have mothers not by blood but by heart. I will always be thankful to God that he gave me a chance to have them in my life. I will always be grateful that I have those people who treat me as their own daughter.
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