Spare some for yourself.
Date: April 09, 2022
Author: SequoiaIt was a very gloomy day. Seems like the world is consoling my heart right now. I've been like this for almost a month now, but I still can't get enough of all these dramas and melancholic moments. I feel like all of my internal organs lost their capacity to function and feel anything. I don't have an appetite for anything.
I am so immersed in all the pain that my heart became numb already. Of all people, why me? I've been a good girl, a good daughter, a good sibling, a good friend, a good girlfriend, haven't I?
But why does it feel like the world is being unfair to me and the odds are against me? No matter how much I contemplate, I still can't find the reason behind these sufferings.
Maybe this is what I get from being too nice and giving every bit of me to all the people around me. Too occupied to address their concerns that I had already forgotten my own needs and the things I truly deserved.
Do I deserve to be treated like this? I know it's wrong to question Him, but why me?
I still have a lot of dreams to achieve and destinations to reach. I still want to feel the grains of sand at the beach or swim in the deepest part of the ocean. Running after my pets is just one of the things that I can no longer do.
Moreover, where are they? The people that I once dedicated my whole life to? Why am I fighting this condition alone? Don't I have a family, a loved one, a friend anymore? Where are they when I needed them the most?
Didn't they tell me they will never leave my side or disregard one another? I've been with them during their difficult moments. I even dance with them to the rhythm of their dark hours. I was there, for them. But why can't I find them now?
It's not that I am requesting too much, but just their little support is enough. I just need to feel that I am not alone in fighting this battle. Their shadows are nowhere to be found.
Indeed, not everyone will be with us during our difficult times. We have to be extra cautious in choosing the right people to surround ourselves with. It is because not everyone we have helped will be with us as well. Don't push yourself too much and give yourself breaks from time to time. Stop giving every bit of yourself to them and spare some for yourself.
Always remember that you only have yourself at the end of the day. Be gentle with your body, mind, and heart.
I may have lost my legs, but I gained myself back again.
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This is a work of fiction.
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Author's Viewpoint
I would like to apologize for my inactivity yesterday. I became so busy and when I got home, my head started to hurt really bad. That's why I decided to sleep early. Anyways, have a great day ahead fam!
I like your motivation words in this post bottom side. I appreciate you to motivate us.