Why I Can't Be A Teacher?
Teaching will never be my forte. Even if I want to, I can't. But it's not like don't like it okay. It is just not my dream. I am not against with that Profession, actually I salute those teacher out there. They are really awesome because of how can they face a lot of people why they are teaching. Because me? I can't never do that. They are cool because of how can they come up of a way to teach their students. Me? No way! I can't do that. Even when I am just facing a kids, I am still shy, anxious and afraid that I might teach them the wrong way. And I think that is not very cool.
I'd rather just zip my mouth and watch other to teach those student. This is also the reason why even if Education is available to my former University I didn't took this and choose BSIT instead. I don't like BSIT at first but eventually I learned to accept and like it. But if you will ask me during that time I will surely pick my dream course which is Criminology. If only not for my health issues tsk. Aside from health issue, there is no available Criminology course in our University and Mom doesn't want me to go far just to study college, sad yes.
And PUP is a good university too that's why I just pick it. And you know what taking an exam there is really not in my plan. But when Mom heard about the Exams, I mean that it is open now in PUP she push me to take it. I didn't really study that much coz it is unplanned. But I am a newly high school graduates so I just rely to what I know that time and also to my luck. Lucky me pancit canton coz I got in. Not sure about what score I got that time but it is still a passing grade but not enough to be proud off, lol.
Anyways, teaching is something that you or anyone should be proud off I think coz it is because of the teacher why we learn while growing. They are truly awesome right? They are best of the best. I salute them for their dedication to teaching tbh. Teaching is not that easy specially if you will to teach a kids. They are the most hard to teach I think. So, I am saying a lot of things here but let me list the reasons why I can be a teacher. And I think these are the most important when you want to teach no? Correct me if I'm wrong but this is what I lack and the main reason why I can and will never be one.
I can make my lesson more complicated than it already is.
You already know that I have messy way of teaching. Like for example: the lesson is already complicated at it is but I will make it more complicated because of the way I explain it. And it is more like the lesson that created exclusively for me. It is like a code that you need to decode if you want to learn more about it, lol. And I am the only one who can understand it because that's how I created it. I will make my own explanation the way I want it without even considering those who will read it, lol. I don't know, I teach base on my understanding and if I explain it like that then that it also how I learned about it, lol. Why teaching is so hard no? Huehue. It is really not for me.
I am Impatience
Alright, and here's the thing. If you didnt understand my explanation then shoooo, I don't want to repeat it anymore. I am done and explaining and that's that. But you know if it comes to this then I will just demo it to them and if they follow what I did then good for them. If nah? Not my problem. It is you who didn't focus on it. And teaching while showing it without putting an explanation is what's easy for me. I know it is unfair to those who want to learn but what to do? I don't want to use my mount in teaching. I will just show it and follow what I am doing then we're good. Happy days. We're done. I hate speaking so please understand me. And even if I want to explain it, I can't coz I stutter when I speak up.
I am Hot-Tempered
And this is what happened always when no one can follow my explanations. And Mom and Mama is my number one suki with that. Mom will just say to me when I already finish the thing she wants to do in her cellphone without understanding it. I mean, that is why she asked about it because she want to learn. But the problem is she can't follow and because of that I will just do it alone and do it fast and then done. I will go back to my own world. I can't count already how many times it happened.
And sometimes nasusungitan ko na talaga ang mommy huehue. The evil part of me will suddenly emerge and will give her a words like "Mom, I already teach that to you? Why are you asking about that again?" You know that feelings that you already explain it for a hundred times but she can't still get it huehue. And when that happen I will receive a hard "Yawaka" from her. "You don't really know how to teach, ywaka!" Hahaha. I know it already you don't have to rub some salt to it.
I know I know. I am really not Good with it. I admit it. That's why I always told her not to ask me lol. But you know even if I said that, she will still say to those people she knows that I am IT graduate and that I know a lot about mobiles and the ending? I will teach some of those person and that really pissed me off. She's proud sure but she also know that I can't teach, hurhue. Mommy sometimes is sooooo, arghhh. Aigoooo.
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Anyways, one thing I hate is to teach anyone. If you will ask me to teach you about this then know that I will just refer you to those article that I read or any sources that I know and then go teach yourself. I learned doing that so if I can, I am sure as hell that you can too. Don't mistake that as kayabangan or pag mamataas okay?
I am just really not good in teaching. I think some already asked me before to teach them about this or that. Some if I can then I will help off course. But if I don't know how to explain this particular topic then, asahan nyo nang wala kayong mapapala sakin, huehue. Obob ako when it comes sa pagtuturo and I easily feel annoyed if you didn't get that little explanation I did, so yeah sue me. (β§β½β¦)
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June 03, 2022
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Di ko rin keri mag teacher hahaha. May anger issues ako kaya ekis nalang. Baka mawalan pa ako trabaho HAHAHAHAHA