Can't still think of a topic so maybe I will just share this one to you. I wrote this just this morning while preparing for our breakfast, I don't know I just thought of it. I used Tagalog language because it's been a long time now since I wrote something like this. I'm not really good in writing something like this but, haha I actually created one, and I don't know why I'm so proud od myself lol. This is actually the simplest one but I feel like I created a masterpiece, lol.
Anyway, I don't have a title for this one, yet. I can't think of any that will compliment to the meaning of it. I want to put an English Titke but I bet it won't be fit, so I will just leave it untitled.
Hughag na Pakiramdam
Hindi malirip na kaisipan
Puso'y luhaan
Dusa'y Kinsadlakan
This is is what I'm actually feeling now, I feel empty inside, broken? I don't know can't really explain the feeling. I can't understand myself and I feel like I'm suffering for unknown reason. I just want this feeling to disappear. I can't function well that my mind is affected. I know a lot of you saying no to think hard but what can I do? May pasaway akong isip.
Damdaming gumon
Umasang matutugunan
Sumuong sa kumunoy
Kahit alam na ang kahihinatnat
I am so into it that I feel like my heart will explode anytime. It's actually an ugly feeling I want to erase it, eradicate, evaporate, grind and pulbusin, I mean this feeling. But what did I do? I told him everything. Even if I already know the answer. But even if I already know the answer, my heart can't still stop from hoping. And I feel to a rocky ground and now my back is in pain, nabali pa ata tadyang ko.
Hindi nasupil
Humulagpos ang damdamin
Nagkaroon ng lakas ng loob
Ngunit hindi umayon sa nais
I want my heart to stay still but, but I couldn't stop it. It is determine to make it's feelings known. And with the determination to get rid of this feelings, I snap. I wrote a long letters. Send it to him but later delete it. I still have a copy of it thanks to the screenshot features of my smartphone. And let it all out and then the outcome is like what I'm expecting.
Mahal ko
Nadama ko ang lamig mo
Nanlumo sa sagot mo
Pero naintindihan ko
I just want want to be a poop because of the rejection but then again, mas gusto kong maging utot kesa maging tae, mejo maiba ang amoy non so nevermind. I am hurt, I am bruised, I am brave and I am brokenhearted lol. But I don't have a choice but to accept it right?
Hindi ako masikap sa buhay
Pero para sa sarili ko
Lilimutin ang lahat
Sisimulang buuin ang nawasak
I am not okay now but soon, I will forget you. The real me will come back and my heart will stop beating for you. It will pump because I choose to. And I will move forward, forget all the hatred and I will start fixing this crazy mind and heart of mine.
Aalisin ang pakiramdam
Ititira'y kapayapaan
Ibibigay ang kalayaan
Paghihilumin ang sugat
I will completely remove those excess feelings. I will find the peace the I had before when I'm still unaware of my feelings for yah. I will be freed in my feelings for you, your existence will be erased and the wound na dinulot mo, ay paghihilumin ng panahon.
Mahirap sa simula
Pagbuhos ng luha'y asahan
Hindi agad-agad
Pero pagsusumikapan
It's hard seriously, until now meron pa rin. You said it will be gone after a day or two, pero bandila na andito pa rin to. Ahh, I really hate myself gahh. I still like you, I still do. Off course di yon mawawala agad. Kaytagal kong inalagaan to, so hindi ganon kadaling alisin, pero I will try my best sh!t!
Para sa kalayaan
Bibitawan LAHAT
Para sa pag usad
Para sa...... Akin.
Soon, I can finally say it to your face. I'm FREE, at bukas! Luluhod ang mga tala!!!!
Gomen guysuuu, lol. My topic is paulit ulit lol. Well, I can't think of a topic right now that's why I just share the one I created this morning. I also put some meaning in it and I am so proud of myself because I'm cute 🤭.
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June 16, 2021
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Ang taray! edi ikaw naaaa