In may last article @tired_momma told me that she want to see about me of being chubby. And it's been a week since I'm planning to share it here. I'm just worried because I don't want others to judge me xd
So today, I want to share you all about my Loss weight Journey, and how did I handle it.
Sorry for being so inactive, school works makes me busy xd.
since childhood, I have been really fat. In this picture, I know I was at 80-90 kilos back then. I am always being bullied, I become miserable, as I am the target of temptation inside the school.
.I honestly didn't know how to get through it all, I even got to the point where I had a female classmate who embarrassed me because she said I couldn't jump or run. I won't deny that yes I can't run and jump because I'm fat, but that's not the right reason for her to embarrass me.
I was always laughed at, once I experienced when I went to school suddenly someone would pour water or food on me. When that happens, I just take a shower in the canteen and I don't lose extra clothes.
I experienced when someone suddenly pulled my hair and then I fell down suddenly, the one who pulled my hair just laughed and embarrassed me. She said, "It's really like that when you're fat, you can't balance".
sometimes pretending I'm sick just can't go to school, because I'm afraid of being bullied. I was so scared, every night I couldn’t sleep because of what was happening. I also can't say and report because my parents don't listen to me.
for a few years, I endured just to get through it all. But I was wrong, because it got worse.
When I was in junior high school, I had a close teacher. That time my kilo reached 95, he was smart. She is a very sweet teacher and looks sincere to her students.
It's just a mistake.
I was so wrong.
he harassed me, sat me down, and made me a target for everyone. He even threatened me not to speak, because if I did he would kill me.
I feel betrayed..
Everything happened and lasted for years, sometimes I don't go to the next subject. I just went inside the restroom, crying and hiding in fear, until the end of class time.
All of that, was lasted for three years.
When he moved school, I was very stressed and depressed.
I know that he moved out already, but the fear didn't leave me.
During that time, I didn't know that I actually loss my weight. From 96 it became 78. And when I'm in g9, from 78 it became 72
This photo was taken wayback 2018, during this time I'm already in 72.
So I planned to control everything, not until I became Irregular and my kilo cameback to 80.
After my operation last june, from 88 it became 64. And I'm still hoping not to gain weight because that was what my obgyene told me.
Present Photos:
I'm sorry for the last one xd.
So how did I loss my weight?
I'm eating nonfat yogurt 3x a day, I only eat rice for dinner before going to sleep. No other food, just yogurt and a half cup of rice.
Ps: I'm not planning to loss weight, I just need it because of what my obygene told me ;-;.
AUTHOR'S NOTE:
Sometimes, we have a hard time in life and we go through it. But they do say, God has a purpose why we end up in situations that we almost give up on. For me, that made me fight even harder. For me to continue even more.
9-11-21
THANKYOU FOR READING.
Whatever weight you have, you still look so beautiful sis <3