Did you experience a traumatic event?
What kind of situation is that?
How did you overcome that fear?
G oo d Day to each and everyone. It's another day to thank God for giving us this new gift of life, salvation and healthy living. Before anything else let's have some recap or discussing an overview of our topic for today's blog. I will share with you my personal experiences as well as my own insights and thoughts about the new topic for my article today.
According to my research, Post traumatic stress disorder (PTSD) is a disorder that develops in some people who have experienced a shocking, scary, or dangerous event. It is natural to feel afraid during and after a traumatic situation. Fear triggers many split second changes in the body to help defend against danger or to avoid it.
Based on my experience in life, I've been traumatized since I was a kid. This fear remains in me even when I try to run away from it. I feel scared and lose control everytime I see a drunk man. Means that I don't ever trust those men who used to become addicted to alcoholic drinks. I can't bear to watch them and even my respect is hard to give.
What traumatic event happened to me?
Everytime my father got drunk. Before, when my father was drunk and aggressive he would hit and hurt our mother. At that moment, my nervousness was badly at risk. Seeing our mother being beat up by our fathers hands is one of the most painful days I've been through in life. And it traumatized me so much until now it brother's me when I remembered those past scenarios.
Our father is addicted to alcoholic drinks and also to smoking. He can drink as much as he can until he gets to sleep. Nobody else can stop him from drinking unless he's in pain or sick. People are also afraid of him because every time he's drunk he always carries a knife or any weapon to scare them. And that's one of the biggest fears that traumatized me. Running away from home is the best thing I'd do to avoid him and relax myself.
One time he's drunk when I came home, I was startled when I saw him drunk while looking at me and my heart beats started pumping so fast. But I tried to calm down and just talk to him nicely and be careful of my words. Then, I go to my room and lock the door so that if he tries to hurt me or something he does, I can protect myself from him. Yet my nervousness is not totally fine even if I lock the doors.
There are so many things my father talks to us about, sometimes he regrets and cries himself and tells us about his struggles and problems in life. Till the topic is pointing out to us because we're so stubborn according to him and he said he doesn't want us. He pushed us away from him and away from home because he don't want us to live with him.
While listening to him, my tears seem to fall apart and my heart is so heavy to handle. I haven't any idea what I could do just to stop this burden. I struggled alone. The pain I felt inside made me realize that life is being so unfair for us. My parents were separated and everyday is so hard to live without them completely. I am so pitiful for having this kind of life 💔😭 It also traumatized me when my parents we're separated and our family was broken.
Do you ever feel the same as mine?
Feels like my life has no proper direction to continue living for. It's hard and heavy to carry out all this stuff. But God saved me and gave me the right path to go through with the correct direction. By that, I stopped blaming my parents, instead I prayed for them and for our family more. That feeling of longing to have a complete family makes me envious to others.
Sometimes I asked myself if I was born unblessed to have what they have? Or was I born to become like this for a purpose? And yes, it's because of the purpose of God in my life. I already understand the situation and reason as well. Even though the fear still remains in me since I was traumatized, the goodness of God won't forsake me and He will not abandon our family.
Joshua 1:9
"This is my command—be strong and courageous! Do not be afraid or discouraged. For the Lord your God is with you wherever you go.”
Those fears I had in life also helped me and became my inspiration and motivation to continue life. Despite all the trauma and struggles I still believe that it caused for a purpose it won't be counted in vain. Not to take for granted but to take as a good influence and advice to those people who had the same situation as mine. Prayers are the best weapon we can use to fight against these traumatic events and experiences in life we've been through. The word of promises from God is the key to conquer our fears. Keep going and overcome your fears ✊
Thank you for reading!
Article #33 ✍️
Date Published: March 3, 2022 | Thursday
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Fortunately I did not have this kind of past and I'm really sorry about what happened to you. It was really scary and hard to live with that kind of person, but you could do nothing at that time so try to forget about those traumatized situations and try to live with peace. Don't let your past and bad memories ruin your beautiful present, upcoming future and peace of mind.