Job opportunities

With high hopes of getting away with my anxiety, I applied to jobs that I think I am capable of doing. I need to unwind while I am being productive. My mind won't stop overthinking if I am just at home. I know I should be staying because I have a baby but I also need to leave for my mental peace. I guess this is what they called part of postpartum depression. There's a day that I don't want to be with my baby because I thought I am not taking care of her well but then if I am away from her, my mind won't be at ease. I also need to work because I need to feel better, totally better. I can't function as a mom if my mind is like a storm.

That's why today, I decided to start the job that is given to me. I realized I shouldn't let this opportunity go for there are 44 of us who applied and there are only 3 of us being chosen. Who am I to waste the chance?

I thank God for the job opportunities that came. Honestly, I was confused which job to choose. I was tied up between two job opportunities and there another job hiring that is inline with my degree which is a part-time English instructor. However, I choose the one that I think I won't get stressed and pressured because I need to stay calm and relaxed as part of my healing process and that is being a clerk.

Actually, it's my first time to apply for this position and I doubt myself if I would be able to do the job. But whatever, others can so why can't I. Maybe I will have a hard time at first but that's normal for new hires.

I am really happy because I was chosen and the people who interviewed us believed in my ability. I thought that I won't get hired because I did not received a text confirming about the application so I accepted the job that was also offered to me and that is a "research assistant". I accepted this job first because the workplace is just near from our home like a walking distant. The rate is also the same as the clerk. However, I doubted myself if I can handle the job as a research assistant knowing that I forgot what I have learned during College. Haha! The one needing an assistant is a also known to be bright and I feel like I can't pass his standards. Oh my! Another overthinking.

After I received that text yesterday from the institution that I was chosen to be a clerk, I immediately chatted sir Joseph, the one who needs a research assistant. I told him I won't be able to come today because I accepted the offer of being a clerk. Glad that he replied okay. Well, he already knew about it anyway.

The photo above is a screenshot of the text messages I received about the job. I am done with all the selection process and thankfully, I became a part of the lucky applicants.

Is it my first day already? Lol.

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