Apps I frequently use

Good evening, everyone! It's almost 12 A.M. here in the Philippines but I am still awake. I guess I was used to this kind of sleeping set-up where I really feel sleep but I can't go to sleep. It's fine if I can't sleep no matter how hard I try. What's not okay is when I overthink things whenever I am free. Geezz! This anxiety is here again. This anxiety came back when the strong typhoons came here in our country and left a massive destruction. Those Facebook posts of casualty and damages the typhoon has brought have not let me sleep for many nights until now.

No matter how hard I try not to think about it, I can still see posts from Facebook like just at this moment, a Facebook user posted there's a man calling for help from the landslide area where there are people buried alive; some were recovered and some were missing. Even though the place is far from here, still I think about the possibility of a landslide here in our town and this what makes me nervous all the time. I don't know but I went too paranoid after I gave birth. I think it's also because I am afraid to die for I still need to take care of my baby.

Anyway, enough for that. I want to erase all the typhoon memories that I have and I also plan to uninstall my Facebook app so I will not see posts about death. Actually, my doctor told me not to watch anything that involves killing or dead people and horror movies for these might trigger my anxiety. However, I don't have the control of everything I saw on Facebook. If only I can, then I would filter what I like to see.

I want to erase these scary thoughts in me so I think of writing something that's not connected to any death, hate or politics. Lol.

For today's article, I will be going to reveal my frequently used apps. Oh, thanks to @Yzza0625. I read her and I think article of writing my version. So here it goes.

On the top of my list is Facebook, of course. I don't know but I can't ignore Facebook. Lol. In this app, I can see what my friends are up to and there are a lot of information here too only if we know how to do a fact check.

Second one is TikTok. I am not fond of using Tiktok Before because I found it boring and too girly. But when I gave birth, I thought of creating my account there so I can post my baby's TikTok Videos while she was still a little. It's my TikTok account but my content is all about my daughter. Why not anyway, she's too cute and adorable. I also enjoyed watching variety of videocontent on Tiktok.

Third one is Messenger. Since I don't have cellular load for sending messages and making calls through a phone number, using messenger would be a big help. Connecting to people we know is done mostly using messenger.

Fourth one is coins.ph. Every morning I will check the value of BCH and see if it's red or green. Even though I don't have BCH hodl in my wallet, I will be still motivated to write if I will saw that the market is green. Coins.ph has a lot of use too. We can buy load and even send our money to our bank account. Wow!

Fifth is my video player.

When Clea is awake and she looked fussy, she will automatically switch her attention from being a cry-baby to behaved one if she'll hear/watch the songs of Cocomelon especially the Alphabet song.

The last one would be my music player. Music helps me feel fine and think calmly. My mind is in chaos and when I heard one of the songs in my track, I will eventually heal. I was recently obsessed with the new song of Troye Sivan which is entitled "Angel Baby".

No doubt, I love Troye Sivan and his songs are bomb but this new one hits different. Well, maybe because it can be dedicated to my daughter.

Oohh! Time check, it's already 12:02 and I need to sleep because lack of sleep triggers my anxiety too and I think me sleeping so late these days has made a big contribution to my panic attacks.

I have read few articles I missed and left comments too. Oh dear, I miss reading articles.

I also noticed that my sponsors' block has gotten spaces. Lol. Well, I am not surprised because I know I became too inactive and having many sponsors would not reciprocate the little effort I gave these past few days. I just hope that I will feel completely fine so I can grind here again big time! I miss you all and I am going to read more of you tomorrow.

Thank you fam for supporting me. I may not be able to respond immediately but I promise I'll make it up when I have the time. Thanks to my sponsors and to those people who upvote my posts. You guys are big help.

Ciao! 😍