Writing is adding to all that, l just want to make the best piece I possibly can for all of you as much as I can and be responsible for the things that I'm responsible for. So I think having this experience is really unique and will always be the only thing I went into this year that I haven't regretted doing.. I have this very high standards for myself and I have been beating myself a lot about it.
I can understand what other people are going through, like I'm extremely privileged.. I understand it and I'm so thankful. Thankful for every opportunity but I equally don't feel entitled to anything, like the one thing that I really really hate the most is entitlement. And I think it robs us totally and steals our joy, I want people to have gratitude and thankfulness for every progress and for every failure because like I do I'm so thankful for the things I get to do...
I just wish we could be more compassionate, caring and loving towards ourselves and other people, and when there's an opportunity to get to know people don't take that for granted. Be okay with your preferences and be okay with that, understand balance... you're not a lost course if you missed your shot at doing a particular thing. What the concern should be is how to get better, by doing this be satisfied with every progress made and realize that you'd always be you. It's your ambitions, its your goals, and it's your pattern.
You begin to internally analyze the demons that wrestle with your thoughts on a day to day basis and all of a sudden comes those who begin to criticize you and your art and in order to save yourself, you applaud your pages and it hard to let go of the good works you've created. So regardless of the failure your countenance still brightens up because of the good things you've done or happened in the past and those still yet to accomplish. Can you accept the fact that you can't recreate the system, forget about what happened but simply work to be a better one next time.
You have every right to celebrate laughter in the midst of every tears and every failure... you ask me how would you do that? It's a matter of what you do believe will happen in the next week or month from now, do you anticipate something massively better or still believe you'll keep failing again and again till you run out of ideas..
So let's say I'm not trying so add to add up to something or make something better than it seems, who am I going to blame for the later course of things when it becomes too late to do them again.. what if all I needed to do was add a few better lines, better touch or better spice to it next time for me to have my win. You see a loo of drama play out in the real world and it becomes so hard to trust in yourself..
It's easy to accept defeat, yes I said that because over the first quarter of 2021 after the experience I had.. I gave up on literally everything. But did it change what had already been done, No! It didn't. So wouldn't it be nice to start over just like @HappyBoy wrote in his article to start all over than to throw in the towel. Meanwhile you had people's support, will you throw all of that away as well..
In conclusion
This topic is to make you more enhanced when you come face to face with anything, could be your career, your art and your creatives..
Thank you for reading through..
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October 2021
We are all responsible for our actions and every decision we make has it's consequences including giving up. But we can always get back in the game and just keep fighting for something better than what we already have