ThrowbackSerye: A flashback on my first love story.

Hi folks! It's officially Valentines Day alreday today, February 14, 2022.

And since it is about story of heart today, let me reminisce my first and love story

I was on second year high school when I first learned about the word "crush". I don't know and have no interest in this world before. But one day, my classmate asked me to join fill-up her "Slam book". I know those who are in 80's and 90's knows about Slam book. It is a notebook compilation of questions into which you need to answer each of them. First set of questions are about yourself like:

• Your hobby/hobbies

• Your ambition

• Favorite Color

• Favorite Fruit

• Favorite teacher

• Favorite food

• Etc

Second set of questions are about your opinion of a specific topic like:

• What is crush

• What is love

• What is your first impression about the owner of the slam book

And the final set of question is all about "kilig". It is about your crush/love.

That moment when I was asked to fill-up a slam book for the first time is very memorable to me. Why? Funny but it is because of the question "What is crush?". With all honesty, that was the first time I bumped into that word and guess what I did?..I borrowed my classmate's English-Tagalog dictionary and look for the translation of the word "crush". Some of us in the class use to bring our own english-tagalog dictionary so that whenever our teacher asked us to write anessay, we won't have trouble translating our thoughts from tagalog to english.

During that time, I already have someone in our class which I admired the most. And so when I learned that "crush" just like mean about admiration, under the question "who is your crush?" I have written the code I have given to my crush. Feel free to laugh at me, I know it's soooo baduy. I gave him a code name of "Lupin". I am not sure if you guys know that anime series entitled Lupin III (the third). I gave my crush that code name because as I describe it "he always steal my eyes, my attention, my mind, and I think even my heart? Char!.

I am the top performer in my class during my high school days. That means, my every answer to that slam book is like magnet to everyone's eyes (ang daming marites sa mga classmates ko).

My classmates became so intruiged about who my cursh is and so eager to find out who is it. They always ask me who is that Lupin but I keep it as secret because I know that once they found out who is it, they are going to tease me which will lead to my crush finding out my top secret that time.

I even made a poem for my crush, but then my classmate stole it from my backpack and spread it like lightning not only to our section but to other section as well. I felt so embarrased that time but then I still felt so secured because I never put in any name in that poem.

My crush has girlfriend since he became my crush actually (never sya nabakante"). He is kind of girl's ideal man in the campus I think because some other girls also adored him. He is not a good looking guy but you know what, almost all of my beautiful classmates became his girlfriend. Just imagine how awkward it is to look at your crush while sitting on the grass with his girlfriend. Those views are so painful to my eyes!.

When we're on third year high school, I am not sure but he still remains as my crush. Nothing has changed. I always wanted to see him, that's why I think I've got perfect attendance during my high school days. I am always excited to go to school because I always wanted to see him. He became my inspiration. During this time, lots of classmates noticed that I have feelings to him already and I finally gave up and revealed to some of them (those who are close to me) who my Lupin is. And as expected, they teased me to death. Gosh!..And so, he already learned that top secret of mine.

It was intramurals week when me and my best friend was sitting in beside the stage when he suddenly came up with his friends. You know what? My best friend told him in front of me that He was my crush. "Toto crush ka daw ni Khing". During that time, all I wanted is to disappear! But you know what? His response made me to like him more. "Crush lang naman, okay lang yun."

We are on third year high school when he had a serious relationship with one of my classmates. I can say that it's serious because I do see his effort for that girl. But then something happened and that girl needed to leave and go to other province. During that time, there's no mobile phone yet hence their only sort of communication is via letter only.

In short, he is in LDR when we started the school year of 2001-2002. But guess what? October of 2001 when he started to make "ligaw" of me. I will never forget the day, I mean the night when he first told me that he loves me.

It was night before the wedding day of one of our relatives in a nearby Baryo. My aunt (just 1 year older than me) who is also our classmate asked us to go and witness the vow of our relatives, hence, I go with them. It's been a tradition in our province that before a girl and boy tie a knot in the church, they always set-up a party the night before the wedding day.

When we arrived at the place, my aunt asked me to accompany her outside but she did not told me the reason why do we need to go outside. She asked me to sit in a tricyle but then after a while she said she will just look for something and told me not to leave and so that's what I did. All of a sudden, my crush arrives. I knew that time that I was set-up. I am not sure why but I never asked questions on how did they planned for that night.

Since then, he started courting me. I know that he and his last girlfriend never had a proper closure hence technically, they are still bf/gf.

Everyday, after class, he walked with me to our house (I am living with my grandparents that time) before he goes home. While we're walking together, he told me formally that he wanted to court me. But my response to him is "Diba may girlfriend ka ? bakit mo ako liligawan eh may girlfriend kapa?..He then replied "wala na kami nun".

Oopppss! I think this article is getting longer already. I never thought that it will be a long writing and of course I don't want to bore you hence I will cut it from here and will post the part two tomorrow.

Wanted to make a guess? Do you think I have believed in him?.Watch out for the second part to know the ending!.

My lead image is a glimpse of how do I look during my high school days (para magka idea kayo kung gaano ako ka "nene").

If I may recall it correctly, this photo was taken during our Third Year High school's recognition day hence the ribbons in our chest "hindi pa uso ang medal noon dahil wala atang budget ang mga teachers namin".